My Memories

2009-09-21T01:12:00.006+08:00

i had quite a happy week cos i manage to wat i plan to do and meet up with quite a few people.

went to watch ke wei sing on thur nit with my cousins & Jey and its lovely night!

and meet up with ms tan! and my dear friends! on fri.

see PEILIN finally too! after a month of itp! hahahx

but its quite a short nit, so cant wait for tmr gathering again! xD

2nd, i mange to give that little surprise i plan! hahahx

but really sorry to let u wait for my reply and drag till so late then meet up for that short while, but really hope u like the surprise cake! (:

sat is a wonderful night too! cos i had a good good dinner at home with my cousin & 1 of his friend competing their cooking.

so had prawns, salmon (both raw & cook) and even scallop and pasta! hahahx!

they are really so good it look and taste like some 5 stars hotel quality lolx! hahahx

2009-09-13T22:02:00.009+08:00

here is a dedication to our MR JOJO JO CHUA!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

and welcome to our 20 club!!! hahahx.

so hope u stay cheerful, crazy and fun loving always!!!! ((((((:

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i really donoy i start to question my heart&hesitate suddenly only after seeing...

but there are so much times that i wish & wanted it to happen,

but y am i feeling this way now, i really dono )):

i feel so shallow of myself & really bad gal ))):

2009-08-29T01:18:00.003+08:00

its finally friday alr!

IM FEEL SUPER SUPER HAPPY!

cos it means no work tmrl!!!!

i think i shall not say much abt my work place or anything that i experience just in this short week cos they are too much & long to be mention and im lazy to type them down here again,

so those i want to tell or share, most prob alr know abt it too!

but its like after the first day, i feel like

y cant it be the last day of work alr! hahahx (cos i always prefer going to sch)

and time always pass so slow in work,

but that sucks when u don have a chance to slack too!

and going to work makes me cant do anything after work too, cos some day by the time i end work is like 10+ pm, then i have to leave joo chait, bk to outram again! long distant also!

so by the time i reach home,

e thing i will do is eat, bath, and take down some of the stuff& time to go slp alr,( but always ended up at 2am also).

if not i will end up having not enough of slp and cant wake up the next morning!

but anw, i have conquer my first week!!!

and so happy that its sat tmrl!!!

i don care, i think im just going to enjoy or rest or have fun myself tmr!!!

so people, pls find me out on weekends or any other weekdays for dinner too!

cos that will be the motivation for me to go work everyday! (:

2009-08-15T03:19:00.003+08:00

POD 1 finally handed in already,

and its like dono how long, (at least 8 months) that i last went to tampinese!

went to grace house first then to peiyun house to overnit and stay up e whole nit to do pod, all the way till next day 4pm then finally handed up.

felt like some super woman like that, cos we really all stay up and not a single time is spend resting at all!

i think the 2 cups of milk tea did keep me awake alittle too. ahahx

but i was very satisfy with it still ):

cos everything is like so last min, and so many things happen in between,

and esp some ....... that really piss me off for the first time ever!!!

but not in e mood to go think abt it anymore.

so now can only wait after tue presentation and see what to do to make changes to become better i hope.

and i would like to thank all the people who had help in for my pod.

really really appreciate! (((:

and its weird when im busy, there will be and feel so much things to blog, but when i finally got the time now, i suddenly lost in words and forget all abt it alr,

so its time to go bed then.

GDBYE readers (:

2009-08-09T02:21:00.003+08:00

i had e worst day of my life man!

already fall sick (cough) since tue, out of no way,

super bad headach,

ystd got diarrhoea, cos dono eat wat wrong food,

but e worst is 2day my stupid mense come and join in too!

so its like all the sickness come join in tgt & i struggle the whole afternoon till i mad.

was sweating like mad out of no reason and cos of e stomach pain that after taking a pandol, it has no effect too! that neither sitting down is comfortable or lying on e bed, that e pain is so bad that i couldnt control to burst to screaming in my pillow few times too.

so i didnt eat/couldnt eat from all e way after i wake up in e noon, and all e way till super late afternoon then i mange to fall alsp with e pain and only wake up at 8pm, feeling little better to have a bath then had a cup of hot milo and some biscuit & eventually hurry start doing work cos too much time is wasted alr.

but thank GOD mon is off, otherwise i will never going to do any of my work, with this kind of health condition i had now ):

so everyone pls take care of your own health & rest well too! cos its not good to fall sick at this period!

2009-08-01T01:12:00.002+08:00

Hi people,

im off to Indonesia for this weekend till mon nit,

to attend my cousin wedding!

time just pass so fast,

that time i was excited to go, but not now cos its like assig rushing period and weekend is super precious time to do work too,

but anw, tickets are booked, so as e hotel.

but i hope that the dress my mum self bought for me from taiwan is good and im able to fit in and so on. really hope, otherwise i think i will just end up to have argument with my mum (if i don like it& doesnt want to wear it) or wearing bk my old dress which had been wore on these kind of family event for at least 3 times alr! hahax.

and i hope im able to use internet there otherwise its really like nothing for me to do,

otherthen eating, entertaining people & more eating then. haahhx.

so off to bed, GDBYE people.

2009-07-28T22:13:00.003+08:00

im feeling super super tired and unhappy and pissed off just be4 i left school 2day.

shall not mention who,what happen or watsoever here, but when i got the time, im so going to post up my previous post! so that %$£@ can start thinking too!

anw, booking studio is starting to be worst then going for a war!

i reached at 620 or 630am 2day with sam and there are alr 6 people Queuing outside! lOL!

when the actual timing for studio booking is 830am can!

those year 2s are really more crazy then us and this is really going so so bad and crazy!

but i hope its just 2day, as other days wasnt that bad still. so here is the msg to all the year 2, pls stop pushing the timing earlier and earlier! cos its really so early that i think 1 day we all can just camp outside comtec when it close and wait till the next morning it open lol!

and im super super super tired now, but still got to do my drums first,

cos tmrl is recording, and yet i haven sent to peiyun the final one yet.

so im off to do POD now then. BYE.

birthday

2009-07-17T02:27:00.014+08:00

Birthday!

finally met up with michelle and tanu e other day cos they finally came to my house, after like 1/1/2 yr since i move to outram area? hahahx, cos michelle drive thaty they finally come to my house to visit me too but its really really great to see both of them, esp michelle cos time pass really so fast that i have not see her for half a yr already too!

thus, seeing them is really really great and happy.

although its really a short time spent at my house, eating & chit chat & playing wil, but time past so fast yet meaningful! (:

so i shall let the picture continue e post then.

(tanu trying to light up the candle for me,but she told me that just now was too rush& last min alr so can only get this, dono wat to buy 4me, but this slice is her fav lolx! haxi! wat a friend i have rit! hahax)

(ended up i only have the strawberry only lolx)

(michelle wants to be taller then me! hahax)

(the 2 coolest gals!)

(i feel michelle is really dam cool when she drive, cos partly i still cant belive she can drive now alr! & we have know each other since pri 5 till now!like such a long time! & now we have grown up & she is driving me! hahahx& she is like only 18++,not yet 19 alr got her license alr & waiting for HER CAR to arrive next week lol! super lucky & fortunate gal! )

but so sad she say i move house, otherwise she will love to drive me anywhere! cos she say my house is too far from hers ):

(the end)

(seeing all these picture, reminded me of smt that vick told me be4, a person will/ is pretty when u smile from the heart & my smiles that day were all deeply from my heart thanks to my dearest!s & its LOVE! )

and below was another day spend, dinner at town & e food is good! (:

and i got this super BIG BOX of present! *purposely* to make me carry it around! to attract attention only!

thanks ay! make me the centre of attraction that nit!

(very nice views)

(my eyes will only big at this moment? hahax)

(lastly, we went to tcc to have some dessert,

we were very funny cos we took bus all e way to PS where orchard also have tcc,

tcc wasnt in the plan first,

but i think we make a good choice cos we met a nice waitress! hahax,

she is so friendly& funny,

after taking our orders, dono how she know or MUST BE E BOX TOO BIG beside me,

she asked me if it was my bday 2day,

but actually i wanted to tell her no, its ystd,

but she go prepare a candle & even lighter just for me, to put on my tiramisu cake! (although she say abit hard to put on it) but so sweet of her la! (:

and here goes finally to make a proper wish & nice desserts! (:

and the picture i like the most of the day! :)

so its really a great day spend although its just dinner,

but nice& special thought of the gift to make it diff,

cos without the box, it will be just even an ordinary soft toy that i have to carry it around when i receive it? or e wrapper lol,

this way did fill me with some anticipation and surprise (:

but thanks for arranging this meal with me some time back alr & u the only one! (:

to make me feel that little special on e special day! (((:

thank u my bestties! (:

but of cos, thank u all e people who msg me, or call me, or through fb or anywhere just to wish me, THANK U!

when u wish with heart, defintely i will felt it & i deeply appreciated too! (:

2009-07-14T00:28:00.002+08:00

haix,

birthday is just a bullshit and ordinary day for me.

but just ppl seeing me and saying a sentence of happy birthday to me only.

i didnt felt the joy and excitement in it at all&

this is really so bad that first time im saying this kind of things here.

i felt so sad and pathetic that i even have to go buy my own cake and when i rush down all the way to the place justnow, hoping to just get a slice of cake to treat and celebrate myself,

Y DOES GOD EVEN DON ALLOW ME to do that TOO! it just something so small and yet it don even let me achieve it too!

and my mind was just full of thoughts and thinking of..... and more....

hurts me,

all the broken promises again and again really hurts me, from family to friends and those people i think are important and special to me,

im disappointed and also at myself cos maybe im just a too lousy friend,

who doesnt deserve nice treat from ppl!

but i will not and shall not trust any ppl easily now, esp guys, cos they are just jerk& big liar!

all these really make me couldnt even control justnow to tear while waiting for the bus to go home and on the bus home and even alone back home.

but i felt like a big fool crying over it now.

its the just the start of my 20 yet i had felt so badly,

and its also e only yr that i have no cake at all and no wishes made cos every year also won come true,

this day is really nothing special cos i still got to go do the stupid pam report now! ):

2009-07-12T23:30:00.004+08:00

2day wake up feeling something bad is going happen and unwell.

and true enough, THANKS TO ****** arg!

for my mense to come at this time, at this day,

where i pray it dont and dont!

but it just did,

to make me feeling very tired the whole day,

no mood and couldnt concentrate to do work at all,

and unhappy abt my birthday too!

and thinking of all the things i have to do now, be4 tmrl morning,

and whole day in sch from morning till 6pm class end and yet still have to discuss and do the stupid PAM presentation for tue

and also another stupid report to submit on tue!

arg, everything is so pack and cram at this day! YYYYY!!!! stupid PAM!

and thinking abt birthday, it didnt excite me at all!

everything makes me cry.... )))):

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2009-07-11T23:35:00.004+08:00

i am here to say how tiring and shed i was rushing madly for the arranging assig in the previous NITS as i totally DIDNT SLEEP AT ALL!

for wed nit, i was rushing madly for arranging assig and i have to say, this is the first time i controlled so much be4 the F really come out from my mouth! lol, my curse or get angry at the stupid FINALE while i do my scoring. COS IT SUCKS!

ahahahx, but i still mange to conquer it!

wed nit is really a tough and busy night that i was so stressed up but doing my work for the whole night without slacking or taking a break cos i know that i have not enough time to finish and i keep telling myself to concentrate and concentrate (:

thus, i have a cup of milk tea and did my work all the way from nit to thur morning 8am, where i really couldnt take it anymore to have a nap till 10am+ when wz called me ( and lucky she called me, cos i still haven finish lots of my work that time)

then we continue to rush rush rush rush

but everything goes hair wire suddenly at the last point when i was just extracting the individual scores out from finale and wanting to print them, everything goes bad and i have not enough time to change them properly and its just left with the printing of the final scores but there isnt time left! if the time was slower by 15 mins or so, so maybe just another 1/2hr for me, i could have rush to sch in time before the deadline 4PM to submit it!

but sadly i dont and i couldnt, when the clock struck its hand at 4pm sharp, i felt a big hit on me, i had lost to the war!

cos i have been trying so hard and come so far and its only till now that i lose to this kind of problem! hahahx, i sounded so drama here, but its really how i felt.

and same goes to wz, cos we have been encouraging each other abt not giving up and e idea of handing in late,

but unfortunately, both of us lost to this war.

so actually i could have handed in at 430pm, but thinking of handing up at 430pm and next day apply the rules of handing up late, thus i didnt print out the full scores yet still,

and went to sch to find peilin as she asked me to lend her camera.

and this is also the first time i see a recording of drum session to be done so fast and i reach just in time, be4 peilin's friend left cos he finish the recording in like 1 or 2 tries only lolx!

and thanks my dear peilin for giving the spare time to let me tune my cover song vocals too! (:

so by the time we reach home was really late again due to the recording

and i dono y time just pass even faster

and i quickly continue edit and re-do and extract some of the parts for my arranging assig again cos i alr lost 5 marks so i need to do some more properly to try to get bk lol,

but by the time everything is done and im super tired alr, its alr like 4+ almost 5am?

and its like i no need to go sleep again cos i plan to go sch to book studio for my pod then.

so i wanted to hurry print my 40pages score out and maybe take a nap be4 i go out again,

but who knows the stupid printer? com? or watever la, is causing me so much prob and even almost argue with my bro cos his laptop also suddenly got prob with the printer too,

so in e end i have to print a page by a page, (to save paper too)

i really sit infront of the printer to press print 1 and wait for it to print and flip the paper to the back and press print again lol,

so a total of 40 pages full score took me almost an hour to do done!!! lolx!

so here goes my gone case of the nap be4 i go sch,

so i went to take a shower again and get change,

but who knows after i done all that, i just lie flat taking my hp from the charger point there to reply a msg, and i fall alsp! without knowing it! lolx!

till suddenly i was shock to wake up and its alr 1030am! LOX!

i woke up wondering how come i was alsp and how it happen lolx

but this means that i was late for REMT class again! and lost my chance of booking the studio! and gone of next 3 weeks cant do recording unless i ask other ppl to help me book lolx!

thaty i was really angry and disappoint at myself,

cos i stay up for the nit and yet i didnt manage to do wat i wanted to do too lolx! ))):

so rush to sch for remt class but it ended early,

so had lunch and back to the labs wanting to do work,

but i was so tired and couldnt even concentrate or got the mood to do especially RESEARCH stuffs lol and is for such stupid and waste time module GEMS lolx!

so visit fc6 quite a few times,

met wl, dehui & ferz there and chatted for some time,

but for some of the moments while listening to them, i felt my eyes so heavy to open fully lolx

hahahx,

btw, thanks ferz for helping me to check out that stuff my cousin asked me too! (:

so after that went bk to the labs to do some research for PAM and i really did reading it ok, (unlike some unglam lady beside me, who treats the whole lab like her house lol, so happy put up her leg, shaking and laughing at the screen watching videos lol!) jahah

for those who is there or inside the room will know who im talking abt then.

but very soon, vick came too and i wasnt in the mood of doing work too alr,

happen to saw shiyun and chatted quite a while with her too and we all agree that yr 3 life sucks and esp to DMAT cos we have NO LIFE! everyday is just assig and assig!

only DMATers will experience and feel and understand wat im talking abt!

but im glad that finally this assig is down now,

although next week still got 2 more and many more awaiting behind,

but im proud to say that i mange to do the arranging and transcribe finish the song!

of cos no forgetting those ppl who help in here and there in this assig too! (((:

so a BIG CLAP to all the DMATERS! (:

so after that went to mit agm awhile since i was still in sch,

but i felt so unfamiliar and strange to be there, most prob cos i wasnt active anymore, and i dono the yr 2s and of cos definitely not the yr1s lol, hahax, i am too old alr!

but at least stil got some familiar faces & yr3s that i know too.

so after everything end, actually was asked to go dinner tgt with dehui, wl, em they all, but i felt so tired, and confirm ended up with such a big group of ppl too, thus i decided to go home,

so train home with vick and em first.

but after that we decided to have go have some bits again. hahax

and its really nice seeing both vick & em tgt, and listen to them talking,

as i told them that, its really cute and funny cos i turn left to see em's eyes, is like small when he smile, but when i turn to the rit seeing vick's eyes, its also the same! hahahx

but in fact we are actually the 3 small eyes ppl tgt then. hahaha

(3 of us trying to open our eyes big when taking this pic! hahax)(credit to darren(: )

and lastly, i already wanted to say and post this few days back alr,

cos i receive a SONY CAMERA from my DEAREST BROTHER that night as my BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!!

i was really shock, cos i didnt say or mention to him that i wanted to buy,only got see around for sales sometimes,

perhaps maybe i always borrow his camera to use too and always rushing him to upload the phots for me too! hahahx

and although he won be seeing this ever, but i still want to say that

im really shock that he actually and really bought me 1 on his own, using his precious only 2 months itp $$ but i guess this will cost his 1 month salary alr lolx!

and sorry that i wasnt very react very big when i receive it cos my bro gave it to me at the wrong time when im rushing assig madly at nit and couldnt have even have the time to go and explore and play with it yet lol,

but im still very very happy deep down in my heart!

cos this is really too shocking and sweet and really big present i received this year lolx! ((:

love u lots! (:

lastly, i wish...

i hope...

i pray...

2009-07-04T00:54:00.006+08:00

school start and the first week end alr! fast!

but its unfair where other course having MST, yet we have lessons plus rushing assigs,

sometimes the over stress of assigs really make me feel that i rather just take a test& be over it, instead of everyday rushing and doing the same thing when u still cant the hell of it done lolx! and we got 2 fyp compare to other course and all individual work can! LOL! and i freaking haven started yet! don even have the demo out at this time! arg)

(im sry for the tone of the lang, cos doing cover song really *Y&*T^IU*&^%EY me! esp the drums) that is going to be due on thur, yet i still not done and even start my scoring!

really make me just have the urge to submit everything except the drums score can! really! and don care abt if the player play the correct thing ornot, cos its just too......!

and now we got another PAM presentation and another report on the concert we watched and on 14 july!

so now everything is cram and squeezes tgt that i have no motivation to do work or concentrate on making it work too and being eating non stop due to the stress!

and its all on the week be4 my bday and the week of my bday and so too! arg! wat a nice timing!

and i think the stress in me is too much that i first time felt like i become some typical singaporean that i bought this (top/dress/but with a short attach to it) cos its on sales?

or maybe i too wanting to buy a dress alr, thaty i just ended up paying it

but regret when i walk out the shop! lolx! DAM! $40 gone! and i felt stupid of myself and maybe this is wat a person will do when is alone!

but im going to give it to 1 of my friend if she likes it, if not, i will just think abt it and most prob force myself to wear it once to make it worth then! hahahx.

but now i still need to go and shop for formal dresses already cos most prob i can and will be going to attend my cousin wedding in indon soon, so i need formal dresses! plus need atleast 2 sets still!

but went to walk around abit 2day and felt nothing really interest and caught my eyes!

all the design were about the same, but i cant and don like to wear those tube dress and that left me with like no much choice on any nice ones lol! haix! how?! anyone intro some nice places that sells nice formal dresses to me then!

and 2day finally met up with DENISE! (:

for an early celebration/ treat for her NINEteen (9) birthday! ((:

with grace, sam& vick at manhattanfishmarket for lunch,

the portion is dam big! i didnt except to have 2 fried fish in a fish & chip set! and i ended up couldnt even eat e other one at all cos i was too full. lol.

grace specially choose this place cos last yr we went to fish& co, and this yr change to here,

but still let denise to eat fish, so to ....... *cough* hoping she can *cough cough* faster la! hahahx

but that refers to both grace and denise ba! hahahx!

but no matter wat, we still love u k!! ((:

and denise grow taller 2day!!! hahahx

and hope she will enjoy her birthday this year & be happy!

(only took her& sam cos they were sitting opposite me, e rest of e pic all taken by denise then)

2009-06-27T02:34:00.005+08:00

2days ago my room light burst and make the whole house circuit down!

i came home and on my room light, then it starts to blink and next moment it BOOM! a loud BURST and soon the burning smell came out too! its so strong and smelly that it affect the whole house, the whole circuit too!

but mostly the main switches, so only my living room light is not affected and the tv power is not, the rest are, so everywhere else is dark! and its too late to call any technician to come too, so the only thing my bro say is "OK, now everyone GO SLEEP THEN!" lolx! cos i cant do anything too!

but watch tv, where there isnt any nice show too! so i watched a disgusting and scary movie at HBO, something so near to SAW! in e middle of the nit, alone at my living room! lox!

till i really cant tahan the tiredness,,

but my room is full of the burning smell when i tried to open up all e windows alr, and blow the smell out, but its kept inside so long that almost 2 or 3 hours later, when i really cant take it to sleep, i spray perfume to overtake the smell and i die off on my bed. hhahx, luckily i didnt die in smelling too much carbon in e nit then. hahax

and supposedly the technician should come in the next day, BUT, he didnt! he make me waited for him the whole day at home doing nothing too! other then then sleeping and watching tv lolx!

and its only till at night when my cousin came home and he asked me the question: "so there isnt light still? so means we have to bath in the dark 2nit already?" then i realised that its already so late at nit again and ya! i have to bath in the dark!

i wanted to close my room door and half close my toilet door at the beginning, since my room will be lock and nobody can see anything, but i realise that if i closed my room door, everything will become even darker! so i ended up closing the toilet door still and bath in total darkness!

its ok, cos im familiar with all the things i put as its my toilet and lucky there isnt any insect or watsoever suddenly come in appear if not i wont know and would just scream! hahahx!

but i guess once is enough, and i really pity those blind people and how they survive in the world without seeing anything! its so scary! its the fear that they have to face everyday!

so we better treasure what we have now cos we are such fortunate people!

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had our 8ban gathering and dinner to have a celebration for vick's birthday on tue nit!

and we get him an ipod nano!!! (: and a small slice of HELLO KITTY CAKE! hahahx

time is passing so fast and this is the 3rd year we all celebrating his bday tgt!

but lets hope that we will be able to do this every year still after we graduate!

our dear POLAR BEAR is going to be 19 already in just few days and i hope that everything will be better for u and may all ur wishes come true! and our friendship last forever too! (:

with lots lots of LOVE!!! (((:

and finally with the new hair cut vick on his friday concert at SCH, a suit! but look like WAITER! but the most handsome or cutest WAITER then! hahahx! ((:

will upload the rest of the photos at fb soon then! (:

2009-06-16T17:33:00.002+08:00

i lose my passion and my spirit at the very beginning of the year 3, when decided to do such song for my POD! how? ):

i felt super demonized, by just hearing songs this few days and the same question keep appear in my head that "WHY DID I CHOOSE SUCH TOPIC or genre or SUCH SONG to do!" it sounded so OLD! nobody wanted to listen to some OLD version kind of song and will appreciate it! ))):

i cant do a nice string arrangement even just for the intro, yet there isnt anything exciting part in the song/ rhythm or super touching feeling in the lyrics! HOW HOW HOW! ))))))))):

hearing some of the past year graduated DMATEr's work, i felt mine was far far below the standard,

it felt worst then my previous song last year.

i haven even do anything now, only got the lyrics out and the main melody? which i force to sing out of the lyrics and this is going to be my POD! OHMY! argggg!

and there isnt any lecturer left now that can understand chinese lyrics better except for 1! but how to ask!

i wanted to do a touching song but how? it don seems to turn out any now

and now everything is on the stupid cover song that im stuck with no much progress 2 weeks ago! ))):

HOW!!! ): i need to really sit down to think deeply about this and really good advise now.

)))))))))))))))):

2009-06-13T02:52:00.010+08:00

i just realised that 2day is 13 june!

so its exactly a month to MY BIRTHDAY!

OMG! e feeling is like excited yet not really,

cos that means its my last month for BEING A TEEN! OMG!

time is passing so so fast man!

how i wish that it can stop now and im forever 19!

i don wan to turn to 20 so fast!

i want to enjoy the fun, carefree being a young teen still!

as time past, and grow older, means more responsibility and many more! ):

and i really hope and wish to have a party to celebrate my birthday this year, although its just 20, but i dono where will i be next year, so i really want a celebration.

but seeing our situation, it's e time where our assig are due and its on a monday! & parents not here in SG with me again ): , etc,

and there isnt any place that i can have function room or bbq pit that i can have a small mini gathering too, so most probably i can give up of this thought already too ):

and the hope of mostly every year's wish are already gone and don think it will happen makes me alittle disappointed in seeing my birthday coming too.

every year there is disappointment,

not cos i asked for any big present, but without being requested for anything, also disappointed me already so i think i will never get what i want for my birthday present too! ):

so i think i will just treasure my precious time now for being a teen! hahahx

before i turn into an young adult!

and don bother buying make up stuffs for me cos i received a full set of it on my 18 bday, and up till now, i didnt even use them. hahax, even when i attend specially occasion too, so it will be a waste on me for things like that.

and i really hope that our POD due and presentation will be after 3 aug,

so that i can fly to INDON to attend my cousin's wedding! cos he belong to 1 of my closer one!& i really want to attend together with e rest.

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im suppose to be in bed sleeping, but i think i went to sleep too early after my dinner, so really keep waking up & thus decided to use com for awhile be4 i fall bk to sleep then.

1st week of school holiday finish alr.

time past even faster when u are busy too.

cos everyday is like going bk to sch too ):

there were actually alot of things that i wanted to blog about, lots of feelings that i need to find a place to release out, really. but i am kind of stuck here when i begin to post.

school assig & e work load is so heavy that i almost cant breath.

suppose to finish recording my 3 recorded instruments for arranging this week, but lots of unsuccessfulness, but next week slots are totally full too,

so i now only can wait to the last week to re-record everything again! ):

and i haven even start on POD too! everything is going hair wire, out of my plan and i really hate myself for choosing such a difficult song for cover song too! ):

no matter how strong a person,

there will be a time for her to break down.

the look of strong is just a cover,

i wish i have that somebody there for me too.

e need of comfort and company that i need at times is enough already.

people are selfish during typically times too!

its e reality even they were ur good friends.

how i wish im more talented and good,

that i can do things myself instead of asking people for help.

although everything is really hard,

but its just e process,

i believe i will be strong and able to pull through till i graduate.

cos i won leave regret & let both myself and parents down too!

lastly, im glad that i still have some lovely friends,

that can let me forget everything about sch work, all e unhappiness too.

i think they were e ones that i treasure more now

cos they dont friend u cos u have benefit to them or not, but purely friendship.

thank u my dear tanu, michelle & of cos my dearest dy for making smile after talking to u all.

thank u for ur jiayou! only just saw it on my ipod.

although i donoy

&sad that y we cant still atlest be friend now

when we cant be lover.

so i think i won disturb u anymore from now already

best wish to u then!

2009-05-31T23:57:00.006+08:00

i don really dono wat to update,

things happen and pass that some are kept in mind to rem, while some are meant to forget.

anw, met up with ginny for dinner on thur finally!

really happy to see her and chat so much with her!

although we didnt talk about sch work but we have so much else to talk about and THANK U for meeting me specially just to chat with me and see how i am, THANKS for ur sweet thoughts and concern! ((:

realised that we have some similarities but ginny is more naughty then me! in some ways! hahahx! (dw, what we talk about will be our secrets, ahahx)

and she knows i love to eat desserts too so after dinner, we went to harbour front swiss bakery( i think) to have a slice of cake and drink and the cheese cake is so nice too! hahahx

after that went up the roof top to enjoy the breeze and chat till 10+ that we finally went home.

i dono y but i felt that i finally can get away from all the school work alittle( even though i wasnt even doing much the whole of this week) but she delighted my day! (:

friday again i didnt go to school, cos i over slept too much lolx! haix

but ended up didnt do work at home too, cos couldnt concentrate at all,

ended up clearing my laptop and organise the photos in my computer as i finally got all the photos transfer from my brother's camera too!

all the photos are like months ago lol! but now finally i can get them, from my own brother!

thay i really really want to go buy and have a camera on my own instead!

i think this will be my BIRTHDAY WISH this year too! hahax

then went to have dinner outside my house with d cos he called me (but very last min! cos i almost bought my food alr!)

been staying at outram/tanjong pagar area so long alr yet i dono where is maxwell fc till that day. hahax, but after eating, i realised and finally know where isit cos i rem walking past it when i walked home from outram those rare times. ahahax.

Sat celebrate brother's birthday at aunt house, but all the way back to BEDOK! for BBQ!

its like so long since i last go bk there cos its like so far away from outram!

but who knows that after i reach there not long, it started to rain! so bad luck! cos i only get to eat bee hon then cant continue to bbq alr lol! and my younger cousins also already went bk home, so left with all my bro's friend and me alone!

thus i went up to find my aunt and have the maid cook me noodle instead lolx!

so my dinner turned into supper too cos the time is already 10pm!

stay in the house, watch tv, cos nothing to do too, till finally bro finish BBQing and clear all the things and ready to go home.

bro's friend sent us home and he drive even faster then ferz lol! i was like having headach after i get off! scary man!

anw, been meeting up with dy quite a few times for short dinner this week cos he came to look for me! so nice of him! thanks! (((:

and seeing him do those things for the gal, although cost him BOMB, and i dono should laugh at him or wat, but its still nice of u la! hahx(:

but laughing at u only doesnt mean u can BITE me! hmpt!

i think its the bus stop feng shui not good for me thaty can always let u bully me there! hahahx.

and as for UUU! i hope u know im talking about U! hahahx

still cant belive that my place is already taken by a DUMB FRESHIE already!

)))))))))))))))))))))))))':

hahhax, jkjk la.

i was once a year 1 also la, so i think i better stop calling her dumb freshie in case she found out and come and kill me! hahahx

but i dont no why, i felt kind of lost suddenly,

maybe im too used to have U since the time we know each other, having all the comfort, all the needs i asked almost everytime that now everything changes that i had lost it,

and especially at such times to me too! haix! ): thaty i felt even worst and alittle unhappy previously.

i guess most of the guys are also all the same,

they get close to u, cos u have little attraction to u, or they like u,

thaty they are more willing to do things for u, but once u lose it, they are gone.

that's how i felt in alot of cases, but i guess its human nature reaction ba.

but maybe im the one being lucky for so long already cos i know i cant give anything in return to u too, thaty its time for U to change and even though from mouth i will not stop teasing u or saying e BET that u lost to me, but deeply i really hope all the best for u too! cos U will still be my good friend! (:

and lastly, for SW,

i really dono if u are reading my blog ornot,

its kind of different after things happen,

but i guess im the one who choose this path, so i will have to bear with it.

but i hope u have been doing fine lately too.

enjoy ur trips then! (:

SPSE CAMP

2009-05-24T00:10:00.005+08:00

went to help out for SPSE camp and we went to Chinese garden in the early sat morning and when i only sleep at 530 am again, but was being called by joel and samantha and all others,and already promise to go help out, so cant paiseh them again.

and this is my first time going chinese garden! hahahx!

but i didnt walk too far inside as my station was just near the entrance not far too.

BUT the worst thing is that my stupid mense come at such time! ARG!

i felt so ARG!!!! and as usual, the cram comes tgt too and its like, i spend most of time sitting on the chair instead lol.

had our lunch there, although was hungry till gastric too but end up no appetite too cos of the crams too, but not long later, we finally went back to school.

but i suffer alot by LAUGHING TOO MUCH on the train back, listening to weiren to talk lol!

we were standing tgt with shujun and weiren, so the journal was full of laughter that i really like training my stomach muscle and like worsen the pain that i almost die out of laughing lol. hahahx.

after reach back to school, then last min the fun stations were cancel, so we have like 3hrs+ nothing to do and so stay at club room to rot lol and i was like sitting on the sofa and almost cant and lazy to move much alr too. hahax. only manage to rest like 10 mins before ning suddenly appear in and tap my head when i thought is sam cos they all wear black lol.

so continue to rot there, while the freshies went to bath and prepare their dance later on.

but everything seems more exciting when the time gets later and suddenly know so much shocking news! hahahx!

cos both our Ex president, Mr Arthur! and our current President are in LOVE! OMG!

and both of the gal also in SPSE! hahahx.

our CM was tgt with our PEACE now! they keep saying that 1 so dark then 1 so fair! AIYO! but okla, so their combination next time will be justnice then! MILK CHOCOLATE! and they are being called the lao ban and lao ban nian alr! hahah, and xiao tao is really really cute and self high lol, that its also my first time seeing her like this, but i had so so so much fun and joy and laughter with her too!

watched their dance and its really funny! and xiao tao really go crazy alr but also scarifies alot of her image too. hahah, anw, its really funny and i found that the freshies are actually very enthu and cooperative too, cos they all are very happy preparing their dance step for their songs and very enthu and perform them well!

which i was alittle surprised! but its really good!

so after everthing, i left around at 10+ pm then since no more campfire already and tmr don really have much things too and my cram is bad to stay over night too.

but i think i had fun and enjoy my day!

although its still shocking to know abt arthur's news, but i feel that CM and Peace are quite sweet and cute tgt!

they just make me smile but also sad too.

its such irony.

maybe im too old already. hahahx

2009-05-22T14:30:00.004+08:00

its just a week yet many things are different now already.

been through 1 of my toughest days this week, although only 2 people know wat happen and i seems fine everyday when i go school.

but im actually so tired and numb to all the tears and pain that i had suffered alr.

have not been sleeping well and enough since mon night, 5am is like the time that i fall asleep and it really break my record of taking CAB to school for the whole of this week alr! OHMAN! wasted so much $$ already.

it felts like break up when it actually didnt start yet,

perhaps the pain is worst then that.

losing a good friend i do treasure, losing everything that it used to be are pain and sad,

but what has happen/ been told are done,

there is nothing that can changed back although we 2 have our own fault at times.

but my heart felt so numb and empty already as things turn out to be so ugly now.

i think there isnt so easy and ways for me to become like last time,

its just hard.

i dono how to talk to u normally or face u like all these had never happen before again,

and later come to these problem and all the sufferings start again.

its hurting the both parties,

so i think time is the only solution and hope for things to be better soon.

although sometimes i really really wish that i can be those type of girl who simply saw this person and easily fall in LOVE and yet not think so much or those sec sch kids where their love is just so simple, (although most of it don count as love i feel too) but its still sweet and much easier then now.

but its hard for me to love now already.

however, i really wan to thank e lovely 2 people who knew about these, being there for me at times and just kept me company and away from all these sadness.

really appreciate it !

i LOVE U 2!

2009-05-18T01:13:00.006+08:00

there are so much to update but i just don have the time to do so.

wanted to say a big THANK YOU to grace, peiyun, joel! who came to watch SPCO concert, (although i only play like that few songs? hahax) sam, although she is stuck in sch, but got moral support and they gave me a BOX of ROYCE CHOCOLATE!!! SO SO NICE! ((((:

and many other people from SPSE and of cos VICK! and all the people i know from SPCO!

for giving me a chance and experience lots of fun and enjoyment during the concert.

although there are times of struggle and felt being lonely at the beginning, and wanted to quit just after the first practice, but thanks to VICK who persuade and keep asking me to play, and of cos many other new people that i met in SPCO that i didnt regret in taking part too.

so shall not continue much and let the picture speaks although there isnt much picture taken that day too, but i feel so different wearing peilin's black shirt, cos its man's cutting and with the fat fat tile vick help me tie, i feel so COOL and MAN! hahah.

(me with bernald's tie! cos i like this colour more! hahax)

btw, im feeling piss with UUUUU! for being such a lousy friend!

YA, UUU!

but i shall not continue here, cos i think i will just say more &%$%ERTW out then.

to sw, if u ever read this,

i felt so.... hard to communicate with u more and more,

its so weird cos there are times we can just talk very happily, meeting for meals,

but there are times that i really felt so "controlled" by u,

its alittle too demanding from u that i cant take it and thus making me to reject u times and times to talk.

but maybe im the one in wrong, cos sometimes i will just hesitate if to reply u ornot& talk!

but couldnt we just stay this way?

im very sorry, but maybe we need so SPARK or magic to happen then.

2009-05-07T02:26:00.002+08:00

im breaking down....

i have not been sleeping enough,

and doing any of my assig yet!

i know i shouldnt be typing this, but i think by typing this, is allowing myself to release out my stress a little i guess.

have been pack with all stuffs, practice for CO concert till very very late at nit, (only reach home at 12 justnow! )

yet i still not well with just that 4 songs im playing!

spend most of the combine practice time just listening to them playing those first half concert pieces, and me unable to do anything.

however, with the workload increasing and time passing so fast,

thinking of tmrl, another late nit pract,

fri rehearsal and concert till late again

and still have to go for SPSE trail camp

and that means my weekend is gone!

then how am i going to have the time to do my work?

everything is pilling up now,

have to think of lyrics for song writing class and english language really sucks!

cover song not even touch it!

POD presentation and making research (for soft rock music? ) and i need LYRICS AND MELODY AND INSPIRATION for my POD 1! PLS GOD!

MUMI is untouched too and only like 3wks+?

and PAM project in 2weeks time,

everything is so packed yet i haven even start! i wan TIME! and be able to have gd rest PLS!

arg.... ))))))))))):

but im here to hope that SPCO concert will be successful as everyone is putting lots of effort in it so come and support! thanks

2009-05-03T00:50:00.003+08:00

Year 3 has started and going towards the third week alr

every module has its assigs out and its like crazy! (yet im still like wasting my time everyday ):

year 3 is no joke compare to year 1&2.

its really testing our ability and challenge ourself!

having difficult time thinking and choosing what to do for my POD in e previous week

and finally come to a conclusion that i will do 1 chinese pop (POD1) and 1 ENGLISH ROCK song(POD2)

SURPRISED rit!

im not very sure if e lecturers will let me pass my POD 2 idea,

but no matter the R&B or the ROCK song, they are going to be a big challenge to me!

so if anyone has any comment or any nice ROCK songs, pls recommend to me to listen.

i need to listen to this genre more now.

and as for the cover song, its giving me so much headach alr, before i even start doing it.

wanted to do an english song,

but ended up persuaded by others to do a chinese one instead! (don no is a rit or wrong choice)

but after letting geoff to hear, he even comment that its not going to be that easy to do.

i agree to that too,

when it comes to the chorus part,

i have no idea on what is the electric guitar playing

cant tell the notes the bass is playing, only can hear the beat,

not even sure if the piano is still playing the chords constantly?

and the strings sound are just so faint at the side!

THIS IS REALLY CRAZY MAN!

i haven even start but feel like quitting already!

im so not going to make it lolx!

and worst is that this assig is partly combine with arranging!

how am i going to show every note the song is playing!

unless im a genius or e composer lol! ):

and agree to help to play in SPCO is like a wrong or super difficult choice i made!

cos i only have 2 weeks to learn the songs!

and their songs are all super fast and keep change keys in between the songs that im really lose always pretend to hit the notes only lol!

but a promise is a promise and i really hope that i can learn finish the 4 songs in this coming week and play well on e friday concert, otherwise it will be so embarrassing and feel so bad towards vick, mervyn and yi shan too, for asking me to play.

so meanwhile, i think this blog will continue to be dead for a long time, before i can find a time to really update it.

so if there is anything u wan to know abt my life, just contact me straight then.

btw, i think this is the only time that i can get the chance to enjoy such nice desert at bakerzin again! its really delicious and NICE! so if anyone is the desert lover, pls go try and u will just love it! (:

(DESIRE! (white&dark chocolate mousse cake)
(new desert in the menu- creamy chesscake ice-cream with berries i think)

2009-03-31T21:56:00.002+08:00

im going to china tmrl!
not going there to play, but to go there to 掃墓 again! (my grandfather's grandfather's) (so far away rit! ) but only my mum side will do this kind of things nowadays.

so asked to accompany my mum to go since i didnt go before china & im in holiday and the air ticket is free, paid by 1 of my granduncle! LOLX!
kind of know the schedule of the trip so not much excitement,
1 day to 掃墓, another day to visit temple where another my granduncle donated $ to build, smt like that, then 2 days on flight, 1 day free, so basically that is it.
plus now im having the monthly thing, super bad condition to travel around,
so i really hope that i will be fine, no food poisoning or watsoever too.
and disappointingly, i couldnt find any camera, so there will be any pictures taken during the trip too! (even more boring!)

the weather in taiwan suddenly decrease to 15degree ystd night, SO COLD!
where few days back its still so hot that i even change to short sleeve at home,
but now, i am like hiding in my thick blanket typing this.
so hope the weather in china will be good and don rain too!

shall update after im bk then.

2009-03-23T12:54:00.003+08:00

haven been updating, cos im feeling lazy to. hahahx.
every time if i manage to on the computer or internet,
the most i will do, is just check mails and do little update,
but feels so lazy to update on my own blog. hahahx

anw, went to few places to 掃墓the other day, woke up super early and take long long journey,
going round the mountain,
to many different places, and prayed,
and its really tiring.

and went to my grandma house the other day and saw this kind of tree/flower call, 木棉花,
the flower is like orange, red, alittle yellow kind,
its my first time seeing it (at such time and in taiwan) and it's so nice when u see alot on the street! (:
but too bad i didnt have camera or handphone with me the other day,
so went to online to search the picture to share with u all reading it.

btw, im happy with my result,
cos i improve alot alot compare to last year,
(although compare to others, its like their normal grade, but to me, its my improvement alr!)
although there are module that i wish or hope to get A, only B+, but its ok
as my overall improve and im very thankful.
so thank u all the people, all my friends, classmates,
who have helped me, and worked hard together, THANK U!

going to try to maintain this grade or improve better in yr 3! (:

and i must here to thank my dear PEIYUN MUSHROOM! (((:
really really sweet and nice to receive ur mail! (:
TAOHUI LOVES MUSHROOM TOO! (:

2009-03-18T00:31:00.003+08:00

its only the first day back to taiwan and i already feel like going back to SG alr.
even before i come back to taiwan, already started quarreling(or should say i felt very annoyed) with mum with small little things,
on the TAXI to the airport,
reached the airport etc...
dont feel like mentioning here again.
but the worst day started in the morning.
awake by mum in the early morning,
asking me to give her my passport and a passport photo,
then i told her that its inside my bag,
then dono y she keep continue calling and soon turn into shouting non stop to ask me to take and give it to her.
i didnt even get to slp at all last nit with her,
so was super tired, i donoy she just cant go take herself since she knows where isit also.
so soon, everything turn into a quarreling,
and i was really piss and get up to take it for her.
but after that worst part started,
she just continued to scold me for no reason,
blah blahhhh...
that i really annoyed
so i said back while i walked back into the room very softly,
but maybe she heard or watsoever,
she came into the room and started scolding,
and it just turned into a shouting
and she really almost slapped me for talking back to her.
but i didnt even say anything or do anything wrong,
i only said that i wasnt that happy to come back to taiwan alone too! ):

so its really horrible,
she really almost wack me
but its just that she had to answer call and go downstairs,
i felt really bad and sad that my tears keep dropping on its own,
im really sad to a max,
super pissed,
and dislike being alone here,
with hp,
no connection,
NO FRIENDS,
NO COMPANY,
with NOT even my rooms ready to use,
no where to go,
i felt really lonely here and sad that i really feel very very sad,
for such a long time.
i miss U, miss the company, miss staying in the comfort SG. ):

i can only hide in my dad's blanket to try to stop crying and fall back to slp,
i really dont feel like waking up,
cos i will have to see, hear my mum's nagging non stop again
and its then i hear my house door bell,
my dad is back!
my dad came into the room and huged me,
and i really miss him,
miss him lots,
but i have to control my tears and emotions.
i had to get up,
i don feel like comapny my mum to go out,
or i really dont feel like answering her at all. ):
but there are times that when my dad ignore her,
although i dislike hearing her nagging and saying all the things too,
but i still have to atleast company her,
otherwise my family will just break any time as i experienced. ): (haix, family prob that is hard to explain)

and i still have to put on a smile when i go to the hospital,
seeing all the reatives,
can only stand there, doing nothing. ):
its just a such horrible day that i have yet i cant find anyone for the little company. ):
i really dono wat is going to happen and how am i going to survive in my stay here.

i miss my 8 ban lovely friends,
miss hanging out with them,
i miss u GSLT!
and i miss SN now ):

2009-03-09T23:46:00.003+08:00

forget to mention about SB ADD that my cousin went to.
its really amazing and funny when my cousin told me that he won the Mr prince and the most outstanding or outrageous hair award that night. HAHAHX.

i was really laughing whenever i see his photos of the attire he wore that day.

when he and his friends first discussing about what they going to wear to the ADD, my cousin, ricky, already wanted and got the idea of buying airflow and wearing it. hahahx.
and who knows he really found it just few days before the ADD and decide to wear that.

here is the picture of him
(MR Prince and Ms Princess)
i just cant help it to laugh at him also, but he is just so cute and funny!
and like that MC say, he look like a little boy! hahahx
although the MC keep suaning him, but eventually when the voting start, surprisingly most of the gals voted for him! WAHAHAH.
really power man him! hahahx. as he say he dont even noe all the gals, he only know 3 of the gals from his class lol.
so he was like famous in that night! so many gals came and asked to take pictures with him and he won all those thin or those dressed up super formal guys lol. hahahx.
and its only after the ADD, he told me that he was sitting with the MIT guys that went as he knew that they bluff their courses when he asked them lol.
and after i told ferz and WL then they know that ricky is my cousin!

feel kinna of wasted! i should have went there, sure have lots of laughter and fun, hahahx
make me really wanna go for the MIT this yr, but too bad i cant go as i will be back to taiwan alr. wat a waste! so perhaps, if therer is chance next yr, i shall go then. hahahx.

met sam, grace& peiyun at bugis for dinner just now too.
and on the way to bugis, i met my far away cousin on the bus! and 1 of my sec sch friends at bugis station! wah, so coincidental lol.

after that have dinner and hear lots of funny storied from sam about her INDIA trip. hahahx.
laughed alot and there was really INCREDIABLE! hahhax.
walking together with cows, camels on the road and see them crossing the streets, hahah.
i think its really MEMORABLE for sam that once in a life time its enough already. hahax.

2009-03-08T23:48:00.002+08:00

days are just passing so fast that i almost cant rem what i have been doing alr too.

i dono y i seems so restless and cant get to slp till really very "early" morning everyday and will slp till noon then wake up lol.

which is very bad as i have waste the whole morning.

actually didnt do much this week,

but been through some hard time at the beginning of the week that i really troubled and cant help it to tear as i felt such a lousy gal. haix.

really kind of tired of the love and being loved game,

its just tiring to get keep pushing and these not only hurts me, its also hurting the other party

so a good advice is not to fall for me i guess?):

but i guess i have asked & talk to the right person that night,

he gave me some comfort and make me realise and have the courage to overcome all these next day no matter its good or bad too. thanks!

(and also my dear elder cousin! the big HUG and little company in the night when i cant slp)

maybe its me thinks too simple for lots of things or really afraid to make changes to my current life? afraid to lose all good friends? i dono. but thank god that things seems to turn better after talking out and after a few days.

but isnt things good and sweet just the way it is now, so why force it to change to make it worst? lolx.

i think its enough of the emo side, some happy times were spent meeting people out for dinner.

watched movies like marley and me, with grace,

touching movie if u are animal lover.

both of us tears, but was kind of irritated by this group of guys/ gals, sitting behind me, as they were so noisy during the show, like keep talking very loudly, saying "the dog sure going to die," "ya, the dog is dying" super annoying lol, so spoil the mood and childish people lol.

watched "He is just not into you" with grace, peiyun, joel.

and the starting of the show just remind me of grace last time. hahahx.

not bad movie.

went to sch 1 day to give grace tennis racket to play with my cousin,

but yet they only played for half an hr! lol, then ask me come all the way from home! but actually im the one who is late, thaty maybe they play so short?

but can the truth is... hahahx. nvm, i know can alr. hahahx.

but after that at least they accompany me for my late dinner tgt too.

always didnt get the chance to go for CO practice,

i dono y, i felt its just so scary and tensed and unapproachable to go in and pract, maybe cos i dono anyone from there too. haix. although i really wan to try to pract on the real YQ, instead of reading the score, but always never get the chance cos of smt + the songs all so hard too.

next week will be the last week i go, before i really decided and make my choice.

and lastly, met SW for dinner, and we really made a good choice in both the dinner and deserts!

dinner have pasta and pizza shared, so like that got stomach to eat desert. hahahx

went to eat desert at canele. we order 2 slices of cakes and i ordered extra hot chocolate. and OHMYGOODNESS! cos the cakes are super super nice! im so loved wit it lol! its really nice that i really cant describe it, i even got a hard time on which 2 cakes to choose to eat lol. hahahx.

although its kind of exp, but its really really nice!!!! hahahx, it just add on to 1 of my fav desert place now alr! hahahx.

i don mind just getting few slices of cake for my bday and that will be enough alr. hahhax.

but the hot chocolate is so disappointing, that i cant even force myself to drink finish lol. but next time im so going to try the rest of the cakes! hahax.

SW has really become 1 of my desert partners alr lolx! hahahx (:

modelling

2009-02-23T23:41:00.005+08:00

Year 2 has officially ended for me as we do not have exams during this 2 weeks of exam week.

so once holiday starts, it's like totally different life for me, as all my assigs are done and can finally take a break and RELAX! hahahx.

attended the yr3 POD presentations last week,

like just to add on to our pressure next year only as we will be doing that in a years time too!

but its good to hear and get more ideas and inspiration for us to prepare ours next year.

after the week, most of the time are spent watching movies and more movies! hahax

wed went for movie (underworld) with grace, peiyun, peilin, cynthia, joel, ginny and rain after the POD presentation.

first time have this combination, but its fun after all.

Thur went to Botanic garden for picnic with grace! HAHAx!

i think so many people must be thinking we are crazy man! hahahx

it was just suggested by grace a day be4,

who was suddenly very high abt going picnic at botanic and

after so many years of coming to SG

Its my first time going to Botanic Garden lol! hahahx

so i brought salad, tuna sandwiches & biscuit, while grace brought fruits, drinks and chocolate!

she actually ask me to eat a mouth of chocolate while another mouth of strawberry, which will be like eating fruits coated with chocolate already, lol,

but who noes that the weather was so hot that when i wanted to eat the chocolate, it was already melted so i simply just dip the strawberry into the chocolate like fondue lol! hahax,

i just love chocolate fondue so much that i think i should just go buy the machine to put it at home lol. hahhax

we just sat at the grass to have our picnic

and after the whole afternoon, although we didnt do much, we were like perspiring or went for some exercise and come out lol. hahahx.

so after that went to wisma to relax at Starbucks.

and after coming home and bath, found that part of my arms and legs are red, but only a side, cos of the sun, which comes and go and shines at us at certain time. but sadly was grace as she is totally burn on a side of the arm as she wear sleeves.

so was very excited to go sentosa soon!!! (:

Fri went for another movie again, slumdog millionaire.

it's like a super long movie that i found it so sian and dragging after watching, really spoil my mood and day after watching lol.

but i received 2 necklaces as Valentines gift!

its a nice surprise and i like it alot! heex! (:

Sat went for porridge lunch buffet with bro, cousins and aunty at suntec,

after lunch, went for another movie (K-20) at cini,

and met grace at suntec again for dinner.

ate alot for the day but i dont really care, cos people always say, can eat is good! hahahx.

(btw, u noe who u r, thanks for the movie treat, and its great to see u!)

Mon went out for another movie (Looking for a Star) with ginny at Cathay.

while on our way walking to Cathay, we were approach by this guy who told us that he is form Imodels, keep promoting and saying that we are very suitable for becoming models, and its so coincident that its the same modeling agency that ginny has alr have year a ago.

so we went to their office and filled up the form and listen to the lady to talk to me, but i cant stop them, as im not interested at this & my parents would not allow this too, and the point is that i will have to pay $480 to shoot my pod folio! LOLx! and that is just to shoot, u still must wait for them to call ur for project be4 u can start earning $ lol.

they asked my height so i told them im 168, she don belive, so she measured for me on the spot, at first she say its 172, then i was like shock! and reply, HUH, how can!

then she answer, hmm, then maybe minus away ur shoes? so just take away 2cm ba. lol.

so im now officer become 170 cm tall alr! although its good to grow taller, but its no longer at my perfect height of 168 cm alr! ):

and lastly, they still ask ginny to lose some more weight then come back to take shoots to update her pod folio, but the point is that she is alr so tall and skinny alr lol!

crazy man!

after that we went to eat at Astons! finally! at 3pm for my breakfast and lunch tgt lol, hahax, but its cheap and not bad steak!

after that went for movie tgt then.

its a sweet and love movie.

so after movie, we went home then.

the day was spent greatly with ginny! (:

(pm to ginny, there is no offense for this, its just me who is not confident and not into this line, but rem that i fully support u in everything u do and im glad that u r nearing ur dreams soon! )

after i reach home and told me brother about the incident happened 2day and be4 i told him wat modeling agency, my bro said out the agency name alr cos he was in it last time too! WAH! hahah, but lucky his was different case as during the time when they approached him, they were in need of male models so they ask him to took 2 shoots for free! and after that appoint him to a project, which he just act as some random ppl at the back, took the whole day or days? to earn that $100 lol!

after that actually also asked him for the KFC adv but due to this studies, he didnt go.

after that he no longer cared about it anymore, and of cos not now as he had put on so much weight lol. hahahx.

so if they call me up before for the shoot be4 mon, im just going to reject them again. sry. hahahx.

Tue went to sch for music theory discussion, but it ends up more like self work, that come to the sch to do the book only, lol,

both joel and i wake up late, and lucky i didnt rush to sch in cab lol. hahax.

after that went to orchard to walk around and have dinner.

its really great and happy to meet up after sooo long! hahahx

i got a gift, but i think i disappoint e giver badly as i had 1 from taiwan already. oops. really paiseh! but thank u still! i appreciate that too! (:

overall, had a great night! (:

felt very honored as im the last friend spent with and the first person to wish on the special day! heex! (:

im glad that u like the chocolate too! ((:

(if u happen to read it, u should noe who u r,hahax)

Wed is finally the sentosa day im waiting for!

meet up with the 8ban people at vivo first to have our lunch, after head to sentosa.

the weather is good, got sun and wind! nice and cooling weather! (:

played at the beach and have picnic there, have lots of fun,

just that i didnt get to tan properly! im red very unevenly lol!

partly of my back was red due to the uneven of sunblock,cos it was the spare that sam squeeze too much so she just helped my apply my back, hahaz, but my front, my arm and shoulder are worst cos i didnt put any and there were super red after that!

leg was ok as it just gets darker only.

but i enjoyed the sun lots too! hahahx,

feels like going there again soon!

and so happen that we get to see the beautiful rainbow on our way bk to vivo!

its so nice!

haven been seeing any rainbow for years alr lol.

after that have dinner at vivo before we head home separately.

thur was spent at home resting as i feel my whole body so suan after the sentosa trip, hahahx,

my arms and shoulders were still red and it hurts when i carry my bag lol, so only can apply moisture to hope that it will faster recover and don be red anymore.

feeling very lazy to move around too, so only went out for dinner with cousins, mum and bro at vivo marche, as a celebration for my cousin graduation.

that's all to update for now, shall continue the rest next time then! (:

2009-02-05T00:59:00.004+08:00

so much of studying and yet music theory test is over now.

feeling super disappointed at myself after doing the tests, even though i feel that i have learn and improve so much compare to last time, but how can i do stupid careless mistakes which leads to the whole qn wrong or forget to apply those things we learn into the test!

there are only 5 qns in the paper, yet i could already count how badly bad bad i can get, cos there isnt a qn that i did and give the correct answer! haix.

i tried to hold the tears but cant control when i was talking to our lecture after the paper too.

i felt so disappointed and feel to 對不起 to my lecturer too.

she spend so much time teaching me things over again and again during class or after class and i think i have just fail to achieve my or her expectation.

im such a lousy student, such a slow learner,

if all the basic things i know now happen to be a sem or a year earlier, i think i could have learn and do better.

but wat is done has done, there is ngt i can do to change the test,

so i can only pray that my other assigs can really help me to pull through this.

next week is going to be another busy week again

with performance test, BUMS presentation, MIDI test, REMT test, MIDI assig to be hand in where composition 1 yet to be complete and composition 2 yet to start,

performance diary to write for the whole year!

time is passing so fast!

year 2 is ending just in a week's time already.

spse concert

2009-01-13T01:34:00.011+08:00

Here to update about our concert.

it has ended successfully, a big thanks to everyone! (:

although i felt myself really not prepare for this concert, cos of the short time we have to learn for the whole concert,

and there are still so many parts that dono how to play, esp the paganini song. hahahx, (inside secret among all the violin 2 players) hahahx

but its great to have this experience to perform violin on the stage for the first time!

its great and fun together with the whole ensemble,

there are hard times we struggle through, but there are also times we have lots of fun and enjoyed ourself too!

and i would like to thank those who came to support our concert!

we have full house for our concert! thank u everyone for the great support!

i sold 30 tickets altogether!

but still felt pity that my sec sch friends couldnt come,

but thank you all my poly friends who came to support! (:

to my dear family members: my bro, cousins and my aunt who came

to our DMATers:

we have shun, henry, huizhuang, weizhi, wan chin, joanna, lenus, ruben, dhanish (mr malaysia), vincent, and xanthus who came to support all of us!

to all the poly mates:

have adelin, WS, ferz, younghui, darren, ikwan, ericson, TC, sheryl, timothy, khas & dave!

thank u all for the support,

and many of them immediately replied me that they wan to come when i send them about our concert msg, so i really appreciated that! (:

to my other friends: (shaun& friends, jessica and Yan Shun)

thank u for coming all the way. (:

and thanks for all the chocolates and flowers! (:

so enjoyed the pictures.

(me, xueting, grace, sam, peiyun, rebecca)

(peiyun, grace, me &sam)

(camila & i)

(valerie & i)

(for our star peiyun! hahahx)

(during the rehearsal on the stage)

(gwen, guest player from np, a very friendly and funny gal)

(their partners)

(ning jie)

(shun & i )

(henry & i )

(arthur & i )

(me, gwen, grace & sam)

(adelin & i )

(our APEX family! )

(i just cant stop laughing at this pic, our "loving" parents! haha)

(plus sam & grace)

(our dear dmaters, short of huizhang, wei zhi, wan chin & xan)

(with Mr Yang)

(with kevin & weiren)

2009-01-09T02:00:00.003+08:00

i know that i didnt update for a very long time,

cos was really really busy everyday, rushing assig, without slping the whole nits,

going for practises, till late in sch,

anw, im here to promote my concert again

SP String Ensemble is going to have our Classical Renaissance 9 concert on 11 jan,

720 pm at NAFA, Lee foundation Hall 3.

tickets at $12 each.

we put in alot of effort in this concert, so do come and support if u are free!

contact me if u need the tickets still. (:

2008-12-28T18:08:00.005+08:00

sry for not updating for very long

time has past very very fast that tmr is the start of sch already.

this xmas week has past very fast too, but its enjoyable.

Mon (22/12)

class gathering at minds cafe,

its like finally our first time to have our own class gathering after going to be 2yrs tgt.

when i reach the place, its alr late in the afternoon, and some had left, but still got to play a few games with the rest of them.

after that went to have our dinner at PS swensens.

the services there really bad! especially that guy! who purposely make us wait and wait, and not telling us how long we have to wait for seats too! lolx!

and saw joanna and another dmater senior with their bfs there too! (:

after dinner, actually wanted to go somewhere to drink,

but after a long walk, we decided to change to go to the rooftop at esplande,

and the guys brought beers, cos they want to make henry drunk. hahax.

its really funny to tease henry and see him drunk.

no matter who lost the game, we also ask henry to drink, esp BC and I, cos we don drink.

hahax, so its really funny.

finally left around 1130 to catch my last bus/train.

i have a bunch of funny and lovely classmates! (:

TUE

went to collect the equipments from sch and after that went to vick's friends house at kovan to film our MV.

met my aunt and my cousin for dinner at esplande.

actually both of them wanted to try french food but who noes that when my aunt ask the person if they have blah blah blah, those traditional french food,

the person answers, so sry, their restaurant is closing down at the end of this month alr,

shifting to near by, so they already change the menu to aust food. lolx!

however, the atmosphere is not bad, there wasnt many people, cos i guess its kind of expensive lOl.

however, i ate till very very full.

had a full main course and deserts! and a cup of white wine! while my aunt and cousin got red wine.

so thanks alot to my aunt for the treat and early xmas celebration! (:

WED

went early in the morning to vick's friend's house to film again,

but only after i reach, then noe that our main lead haven come,

according to vick, he say she is sick, so he ask her to rest more at home, later then come,

so vick and i started filming some other scenes at the house.

grace came around 1130,

after we went to have lunch tgt at HK cafe, tgt with aster and her friend.

after lunch, we were waiting for jeremy and his sis to come,

and until 3pm, jeremy show up with yq.

and we were shock cos steph wasnt tgt with them, so where is she? LOLX!

she told jeremy that she will be here around 2 or 3p,. but its alr 3, she also not here!

after calling her, then noe that she went for some photoshoot? smt like that, also not sure,

but we all thought that she is sick, resting at home, so we all were waiting for her to come so that we can start with the shooting,

we already agree with each other that meet at 10am, so that we can hurry shot finish, so that won disturb ppl for xmas eve too.

but she didnt even told anyone of us that she cant come or not coming!

so we totally waste our time waiting for her the whole day man!

its really waste time and so irresponsible of her! LOLX!

so after packing up, i hurried went home, take a quick shower and met ys at vivo to have a quick bite be4 we take train all the way to tampinese, to go to peiyun's church.

unfortunately, after rushing, we were still late,

we reach at 8, where it started at 730,

so i miss out seeing peiyun singing! OHMAN!

i didnt even noe that she is singing lol! hahahx!

so im going to ask her mum for the video next time! hahax

after the whole drama and show ended,

catch up with peiyun, and another of my sec sch friend, gwendolyn.

chat for some time, till 10 30 i guess, be4 we left tampinese.

its my first time spending xmas eve in the church, so its really a new experience,

so thanks peiyun for inviting. (:

after that we went to orchard road.

its like packed and flooded with lots lots of people man!

and worst thing is that, i never expect that the incident will happen!

people just take the soap foam thing and sprayed at anyone! just be4 xmas, and on the dot of xmas!

at first we are still safe from all this,

but who noes that while we were stuck at a junction,

there was a maid tgt with 2 children beside her,

and after happily saying MERRY XMAS to us,

she spray the soap foam on us from head to toe man! LOLX!

we were really shocked!

we were bullied by a maid! HAHAHx!

this was still alrit,

compare to the next one i got,

while we were walking front, there is a man walking in my opposite direction

so while he was directly beside me,

he just spray the whole thing directly on my face!!!! and worst thing is the soap goes into my eyes!!! im so angry by him!

cos he is so purposely! LOLX!

so after that, the whole street is trap by this, u can never escape! so i was saying if ever got people come spray into my face or eyes again,

i don care, im also going to buy it and start my revenge lolx! hahahx

but after that we decided to give up the thoughts, since its xmas! and this only happen once in a yr.

but i give up walking halfway alr,

so we went to take a rest at starbucks,

sat there to chat and wait for the crow to clear,

time is passing fast that we sat there till 2+!

and most of the crowd has gone,

so we started walking along the orchard road again,

enjoying the lights and nice weather! (:

reach home at 4am! and after bathing, and drying of hair,

doze off immediately on my bed alr!

the lighting wasnt really fantastic this year,

but its really a GREAT experience that i will never forget lolx! (:

and thank U for the xmas present! never expect to receive one from u!

for the bear and that book!

its really cute and sweet!

cos never thought u r so observant! (:

thank u! (:

THUR

wake up early in the morning by my cousin cos got to attend my aunt's church service at SG conference Hall.

its another drama and music show presented by my aunt's church,

the main lead, acted and sing at the same time, and her voice is very nice!

and half way during the drama, there are few little children came out to the stage to sing jingle bell to us, and they are really very cute!

after the whole service ended,

the MC asked for 7 volunteers to go up to the stage to play some game

so end up have 7 little children on the stage,

range from age of 6 to 8 only.

there were very cute and they started playing don forget the lyrics (xmas version).

so only the first gal mange to sing out everything by her self,

the rest all call up for helpers, to fill in the blanks.

all in all, they were just waiting for the gifts! hahahx!

after that we have refreshments,

but the Queue was really long!

cos we have a total of 930 people in the hall!

so the Q started from the first floor all the way to the third floor.

so we waited for really some time be4 we get our turn,

but the food is alot and delicious too!

we have salads, lobster, prawn, turkey, chicken, and more meats, different kind of hams, pasta, pizza, sausages, and many many more that i have to tell those people that are serving to stop giving me alr.

after that got desert section too!

had fruits, cakes from shangari-la, and chocolate fondue! that's the best man!

hahahx, my cousin and i were thinking should we just get 1 machine at home, so that next time, we can just make that ourself.hahahx

after the services end,

met grace at cityhall at 3+,

we were lazy to walk around, so went to startbucks,

and i gave her brownie, while she gave me a slice of log cake from bakerzin!!!

thanks!!! really sweet of her and her mum! (((:

after that met up with CY, went to cini to have suishi for dinner,

after that we went back home alr,

just nice at 930pm to catch the channel U on tv.

saw rain some of my classmates on the TV cos they film that during our MIDI lesson,

but wasted, didnt get to see vick on the TV, otherwise it's sure going to be very funny. hahax.

played scrabble with cousin and friend,

initially, i was lead by a little, but soon, my cousin lead all the way, cos he PLAY CHEAT!

hahah, he always put just "S" behind those words we form and get as many points as we get.

so nearly the end, i become the last one,

but things change till the last round,

the last turn, thought that i have nothing to form with the word "x" anymore alr,

and CY saw a place that i can put, but he purposely put it there to block me,

so he thought i lose alr,

but who noes that im so lucky,

i saw another letter E there that i can put my X beside it! and the best is that it's triple score!

so my mark from 9 to 27! i got 27 points for this word! HAHA,

both CY and my cousin were shock! and thanks to this word,

i won both of them! ahhahahax,

im so so happy cos i won both of them, a C5 english student won a A2 and B4 students! WHOHO, hahahx, but they just cant belive it, so do i. hahahx.

but out of the 3 games i played, including the previous nit with my cousin only, i all win! hahax! im just so lucky! ((:

FRI

went bk to sch in the morning to submit our form to extend our equipments,

after that went to vick's friend's house to film again.

film till 4+, left the place to go to grace's house,

to bath and take a short rest be4 we met sam for dinner and go to sch for mit's slumber party.

after we reached, we were shock, cos there was like so little people, only a few yr1s, and just us and few seniors.

but after that some of the MC ppl came bk from ADD, and a few more people came,

and grace is so high!!!

i think those people who went for the party will noe how high she goes and noe that im not bluffing,

lucky she didnt drink, otherwise i can never imagine how high or how crazy she can go alr. lolx.

it ended around 2am+

and after clearing and pack up,

i share a cab home with dehui.

after bathing, i fall alsp immediately again.

although there wasnt many people there, but i still enjoy myself there,

thanks to everyone there!

and thanks khas for the xmas presents! ((:

now i have like a whole family, of different size of snoopy soft toy alr lol. hahahx! xD

2008-12-12T23:39:00.005+08:00

hello everyone,
im currently in taiwan,
there isnt much to update cos i didnt really went out to play or shop yet,
my grandma is sick, still in the hospital after the operation,
so either accompany my mum to go to the hospital or stay at home, so the most only went out for a quick dinner.

anw, the weather here is very cooling,
between 10 to 20 degree each day,
and my parents bought me a new QUEEN size thick blanket,
so its super comfortable to slp on, except that its just too big that most of the time i will drop some part on the floor due to the single bed size. hahax

went to my house nit market on the very first nit i reach taiwan alr,
but accompany my dad to eat vegetarian food,
but after that went to buy "冰", to eat, and the boss lady insist on treating me! hahahx.
and also got a whole box of free "雞蛋糕“ from another sell watch lady that my parents known for very long,
so everyone is very happy to see me come bk! and that makes me happy too! (:

3rd nit went to accompany my parents to sing karaoke, but as usual, i only accompany them and never sing.
but the lady knows that im coming back,
she prepare a super super big bowl of steamboat just for the 6 of us,
and another bowl of fried noodles, 1 dish, (all vegetarian) and many fruits
its really big that my parents & i were all shock when we saw that,
its even bigger then the steamboat that i ate during CNY lol. hahax.

2day,
i accompany my uncle,aunt, and all my younger cousins to eat at my house nit market,
but didnt get to alot, cos i wasnt hungry,
but still got to eat a plate of 蝦仁煎 and another bowl of 燒仙草 and that's it, im super full alr. lol.
but there are still a super long lists of food that i want and haven get to eat!
im going to eat them all be4 i go bk to SG! HAHAX! (:

that's all, shall update some other time then, nitz!

2008-12-07T02:27:00.002+08:00

i know that i have not been updating my blog cos these few weeks have been busy, busy & only busy, not enough slp every day, some days even with only 3hrs of slp, especially rushing all the assig be4 sch close etc, going for violin pract for e coming concert, everything just make me so tired that i need a good good slp before i have the energy to update.

anw, im using my last energy before i knock out soon,
that im away on the intensive training camp (SPSE) till sun nit,
mon: going back to KC to help out for our very first CO concert, till evening.
Tue: flying off to taiwan.

so im really sry to everyone, those people that i suppose to meet up!
has been really really busy,
so let me own e meal till i come back from taiwan then,
be4 xmas and lets all celebrate tgt k!
take care everyone and miss me! (:

SPSE ADD

2008-11-26T00:30:00.009+08:00

it has been so long that my ADD/club birthday event has over, kind of forget what to update alr.

this is my first time being the event chair for an event,
and due to the popularity of our club people and budget,
we can only held it in sch,
Dance at Moberly.
there wasnt an ADD in the previous year and nobody knows what happen 2yrs ago or smt,
so i have to plan everything from scratch.

actually it suppose to be held at the venda room, but due to renovation, we have to change the venue some time later & i submitted the proposal like at least 2months ago, but the SAA took super super super long to approve, dono what they are doing,
even ask the officer to check abt it also dono y,
we were guessing, isit have to pay for the technician fee, which will cost them some sum of $ thaty they are taking so long. (cos we have another club event, which only submitted like 2 or 3weeks ago, asking for a budget of only $60, and it is approve immediately lol.

so everything is in the planning state still till the week be4 the event, that i think almost everyday also go and bug at the officer to check for us, and re-submitting new cut down price proposals and its only till thur, it is finally approved, where our event is on the next following fri.

there are times that i really worried that what if our proposal is still not approve,
that means all the things we plan will be wasted!

but finally knowing that it is being approved, our plan then can get moving.

but due to the late notice, and its only within a week that we have to officially inform all the people about this event and collect $ from them.

i estimate 50 people to attend, which is quite reasonable, but due to some reasons, there were a lack of people attending the event, and there are like only 1 or 2days left before the event,
how am i going to invite or ask people to come too.
its really hard, as its really kind of late notice,
and many people hear that have to pay for $12, they will just forget the thoughts alr.
and it's suppose to be within our club event,
so alot won be interested too.

so i cant believe that the day before i was going round asking people to come,
even so bad that i have to beg people to come too, otherwise we will make a lose and not enough $ to cover up for the food we order, etc.

but i realise that it was such a stupid and silly step to do, esp going to the XXX club there!
there are just too much pressure for me to do this,
i was really stressed up during that period of time,
i have a X pressure for me to do this, and not do that,
and even wan to choose who to come, where we are still lack of people coming lol!

so during that period of planning time & before the event,
there are times that im really so stressed and pressurized that i just burst to tears alone at home, and as the day nearing, im feeling more worried and even dont feel excited and wanting to quite and give up alr.
u won understand how much pressure i have unless u r in my position as im really helpless.

however, the event has already over and to general people who attend, they are happy and satisfy with the event.
as there wasnt any big thing happen during the event, everything goes smoothly and fun.
but its only when u are observant enough, u will know that there are alot of small details that i miss out and can be improved.

a special debrief discussion with my club president, i felt so disappointed at myself.
cos alot of the mistake my OC will make is all relie on me,
although i manage to cover up all the things that some of my OC/helpers suppose to do, during the event, but 1 person's ability is still not as good as like 5people, so there are still alot of things i miss out.
being the event chair,
i know its my own fault that i didnt emphasize and assign each and everyone of them, their jobs clearly on that day again,
so some people were busy doing this, thus forget to their own part, while some got nothing to do while finish their part.
but maybe is the trust and bonding we lack among my OC team,
i cant just leave a thing totally to them to settle, so eventually almost everything is done by me, i could really say. they are just doing what i have told them, that's all.
but another big factor we lack of is also the helpers,
the OC are also the helpers, so we also lack of manpower on the day too.

however, there are still some of the people that i really must thank for the success of this event, as without them, the event can never happen too.

Arthur (club-president): never give me any pressure during the planning and the whole event, will always accompany me whenever i need to go see the officer, help me sign the forms, even with very last mins too. has been really really supportive of me for the event.

Vick: accompany me to see the officer alot of times too, although he is also very busy and has his own stuffs to settle and stressed abt the coming concert planning too. never fail to give me the support and HUG too!

Peiyun: for being my performance IC for the event. im like totally leave the whole planning on their performance to her to settle, so everything is well settle by her that i do not need to worry abt the performance part. (:

and of cos my dear friends: (grace, sam, joel): for being my OCs too, help to give suggestions at times, and being my performer for the performance slot for the events too!

and grace also help in collecting $ for ADD, but dono if she is too gd or being to fierce, that if she ask $ from a person, the person sure will give it to her one. hahahx

same thing goes to sam, although she don really have a title or position to hold, but she is always there when i need help too! (:

lastly, joel, for being self high and helping to bring up the atmosphere during the event itself too.

Sin Ee: my food IC, and the most efficient OC in the team, never fail to do her part in the planning and always will finish her task in advance.

Angela: Decoration incharge. although she may not seems to have alot of things to do during the planning and its only till nearing the event that i get to see some of the decoration things, but she never disappoint me,
is creative and gd at designing.

and also a very last min of help from her and Sin Ee to be at the counter and prepare alot of things for me before the event start, but they did it well still.

Benjamin+wayne: my game ICs. although there is once that they make so angry during the planning stage cos they were unable to just do a simple thing that i ask them to do, and took them super long and if i didnt remind them abt the meeting e next day, they will still not do and tell me that they lose the paper too.
so lucky i did prepare and save some backup plans on my side.
but in the later part, after knowing how serious this matter is and i show my slight fierce side, they didnt continue to give me nonsense excuse alr.
and ben is gd and listen to what i told him to do too.

kevin: very last min on the day itself,
to help me with the logistic stuffs too, and help me to take charge of the slides show and music of the day.

chee ming: also a very min helper to be my game IC on the event as both of my officially game ic have lesson on the day till very late in the evening, so was unable to come in time,
so he help me in conducting the games too.

weiren: for asking his friends to come and the MC.

Yan Jun: for doing the interesting powerpoint slide shows.

Xiantao: for buying the masks, help to wrap the door gifts&prizes. (esp to the lollipop, take so much effort in making it look presentable as a door gift)

other then members from SPSE,
like Peilin and cynthia, from CMCC,
mervin, from CO,
peiyun's friends, for coming,
and a big thank to Khas!
when i ask him if he would like to come, without hesitation, he agree and turned up for the event despite the fact that he don no anyone from my club other then sam, peiyun, grace,vick i guess, but still very supportive of me!

and lastly, to ferguson!
for being my very last min helpers too.
be my guide for some of the e organizing stuffs and help me to solve alot of problems that i encounter very last min.
(im really sry, that i tried to paiseh u that day, or leave without a word, cos i really felt very helpless and broke down that just need time to be alone first, but thanks for helping me alot very last min too.)

overall, i learnt alot through this experience and i get to know who are really your true friends who will be there when u need help.

im sorry if i miss out anyone,
but all ur help is greatly appreciated! (:

THANK U ALL!

here are just some of the photos taken using my camera during the event.
there are lots others taken by our profession photographer crystal,
shall upload next time when i get it from her then.

(arthur & Camila singing)
(our guitarist! PEIYUN! even the teacher also praise her that she play very gd! hahax!)

(joel and peiyun)(grace singing!)

(games time)

(my dear OCs)
(the alumni + guests)

(violin section)
(viola section)
(cello section)
(lastly, our 1 man bass section! with vick snatching to join in too! hahax)

(my dear DMATers+ cynthia)

(celebration after the event at our club)

(my dear BRO KHAS!)

its the fun, joy and love from many people that i received from here that keeps me going and participate in the club.
THANKS SPSE for for letting me to know so many nice and loving people! (:

10 nov to 14 nov

2008-11-16T02:38:00.003+08:00

another week of sch has past and many things had happened.
i broke down almost 2 times in week and i missed sch for 3days! (turning to be a bad student now! ):
i broke down on sun nit when 1 of my classmate was talking to me on msn, telling me abt our performance stuffs. i was kind of hurt by wat X say and e tone, so i was really very discouraged thaty my tears just come down and cheek and i had to hide in e room to cry alone.
it really feel so horrible when people look down on u, question abt ur ability,
when on e other hand, u r willing to learn, but you don have e chance.
its just e reality! on the harsh world,
however, i won blame X for e doubt, cos i noe X's standard and wan to achieve e best for e grades.

but i believe that given the 1 month time, im able to play my part in keyboard well! although i have never play keyboard for performance at all lOlx!

Mon,
wake up in e morning, found myself to have a slight fever, so decided to rest some more at home, so went back to slp without e air-con or fan on and still covered myself in thick blanket. crazy LOX! i dono how i mange to survive but after waking up, my whole body was so hot still lolx!
anw, rest at home e whole day, means finally got e time to take out my violin to practice awhile, and i make myself play the scales on keyboard too! (although i only to play those major key, and some of e fingering still wrong, but im still so proud of myself that i actually practice that lol)hahax.
and hearing me not feeling well, my cousin volunteer to buy back dinner for me, since he is on e way home,
but im shocked to see my cousin's friend at my house door, to deliver my dinner for me! lolx!
he is afraid that i will be very hungry so asked this friend of his to bring back dinner for me first. lolx!
anw, i have soup spoon! for dinner. i had salad, soup, drink, a complete meal and even got brownie after that! hahax, although i think i shouldnt be eating brownie when its heaty but i only ate 1 small piece and its really nice! hahax!
not very sure who is e one who pay for my dinner, but thanks still (:

Tue
another long day as usual, actually feel so lazy to go for gems but thinking next week going to be e test alr so better go this week and thought i m going to be so late for class alr, but who noes that dehui is even later then me and this week become wei leong didnt come where last week is him didnt come. lolx.
when my lecturer take attendance that time, when she ask dehui isit last week didnt come, he answer yes, and next she call wei leong, dehui answer, ya, he is e another guy, but didnt come 2day, and my teacher look at me and say cos she rem always see me coming with 2 guys but not this 2 weeks, LOLX! then i answer "cos i have no choice!" hahax, not sure if she hear or not, but i said purposely to tease dehui only. hahax.

performance class is e same, finally decided our song for our performance and henry came out the chords of e song by hearing!
have little discussion but we still have to practice alot then other groups cos we are quite far behind alr.

MIDI is do assig time, but e chuck thing keep auto quite itself! till i so tired and give up doing alr. lolx.

BUMS class is cancel that day! so after MIDI, i asked peilin to teach me how to play the keyboard for my performance, so now atleast i somehow noe how to play and can start practicing too.
after that went to see ning to ask her abt the ADD proposal again.

after dinner, have ensemble practice and was asked to sit in e front of that PERSON! cos of camila la! but afterall, e practice that day was alrit! cos we manage to play the song! hahax,
provided that we sight read and its e first time playing the song lolx! (but partly cos e song is easy i feel too) hahahx, but really dono should say that person is gd or not gd lol, cos i thought he also only learn violin when he come to poly only?but some of e things he says do make sense, but of cos there are lots of times when he speak, everyone just feel so.... hahhax, and poor xueting have to said by him so many times to play louder cos she is e only solo cello that nit lol. we just keep look at each other to give support during the practice before kervin finally come and save her! hahax.
and its the first time that i play till my finger got bitser also! that shows that i really playing lol. hahax, jk.

(anw, thank U for e tag, really didnt expect U to give when e event is like going to be over and i didnt mange to help u in any way too other then giving moral support i guess?! but thanks still! HEEX! although im really just joking with u abt it, just use that to disturb u only, but that just make me SMILE that day too! (: )
Wed
wake up late again due to slping late e nit be4, doing and settling the stuffs for ADD, really worried that the proposal still not approve when e event is going to be held in next week lol.
but lucky MIDI class is doing our assig time, so i didnt rush to sch in cab, but i miss e bus for change train at outram, so took another bus all e way to sch, which stop at food heaven there, but e bus journey is super long can! i think i took abt 45 mins then finally reach lolx!
so by e time i reach sch, there is no point for me to walk all e way bk to e mountain where they will just end class and walked down to fc to eat lunch.
so i waited for grace and e rest at fc4 after they ended their class.

have 2 meetings that day, main com meeting first, followed by my ADD meeting,
after that is went to SAA to find ning again, but she was busy with sport' day and its only then after timing of revising, i decided to change and submit another new proposal, to change and lower our ticket price since we won get bk the extra $ collected from people and will just be taken by SAA, so its a very last min change,
and thanks alot to arthur to stay bk to wait and sign the proposal.

didnt get to see ning that day too, but we submit the new proposal thorough e mail box still,
and can only pray that it will be ok and approve quick.
after that have dinner with grace, sam, arthur and saw peiyun at fc4 too, cos she got jazz band practice and later ferz joined us too.

after that finally went home!
but after bathing, i was busy doing e ADD stuffs again, although still not sure if e budget will be approve or not, but i finally come out of a proper list for all e prize and everything, so its only the matter of time then.

Thur,
REMT was the same, but this week become we go to studio D to set up a PA system and while setting up, there is a short circuit happen that the whole electric power is cut! hahax! but lucky everyone is alrit.
and TIM R came to ask me if my ear was ok ornot, cos since e last week strong feedback. hahax.

after REMT, have music thoery.
i felt so tired and slpy the whole day, due to e lack of slp, even feel so heavy to open my eyes, and i can just fall alsp at any time lolx.
and it was bad during the start of music theory, i dono y i would ask her irrelevant qns when she is not talking abt that yet, but i didnt noe their link and its only she said e relationship and its like hitting e jackpot that i "wake up" and realise everything lol.
but dono y is her change of tone and me making her slightly impatience, my tears just start rolling in my eyes after all this,
i tried so hard to control, while tying to listen finish her explanation and finally got a break time that i really cant control alr that i went to toilet to dry my tears. LOL.

i donoy my tears just suddenly came out like this, but i guess its e stress over lots of things recently and some other hard times and lots of things for me to do and overcome, thaty its so easy and just nice she hit the jackpot that everything just came out like that.
but i feel its good to release out the stress too rather then keeping them inside and get worst,
so to (grace & sam & vick) really don have to worry abt me, im fine!
its not abt how hard the music theory, its my own mistake that i have to study harder and smarter way too! and its just all this thing that add up thaty i will burst in tears suddenly,
but i really don wish to let anyone of u all to see, didnt except sam to come to e toilet too,
but when i say im fine, i mean it, so thanks for ur concern! (:

and its nearing the ending of music theory that i received a call from ning saying e ADD proposal is approved! FINALLY! at last, and its even better to hear that its the new proposal!
i felt so relief and happy cos now finally i can get everything started and get the things going and not just still in e planing stage and hesitate to proceed or not.
but i hope that its still enough time to do everything by next week, cos still need to published and collect $ and get all e other things within 1 week's time.

after that got ensemble practice again, we played the same song on tue,
However, it was really bad this time, donoy, almost everyone,
and i keep reading e score wrongly, and miss e bar, as my eyes r really dry and tired.
struggle to nearly 10pm and it finally ended!

Fri
didnt go sch cos have cram and was so tired to get up and end up sam, grace, vick also didnt go lOLX! OHMINE! we never plan to skip tgt, but didnt except all of us also didnt go!
but after that i have a super horrible bad cram.
dirrohoea many times, vomit, where i didnt even eat anything lol, and the stomach so pain that i cant even sit or lie down properly. its so pain then e cram that i almost feel like dying alr lol.
eat panadol but still no use, tried to slp, but cant, really really bad!
feel so restless, my whole body keep swerving and cold sweat keep coming out that i do not even have the fan or air con on too.
i was so weak till unable to reply even a msg and its like phone keep ringing, and msg coming non-stop.
suddenly so many people is looking for me lolx!

(but p.s to peiyun, sry that i ps u to go to e briefing alone, really sorry!)

and finally its dono till when that e pain slowly go away and finally i get some slp, and finally manage to get off e bed at 7+pm! so its like been staying in the room and on e bed since e nit be4! lolx!
and must thanks to my dear bro & his gf! lucky they are at home to take care of me, keep help me take water etc and even went to buy food for me, otherwise i think i will just die at home without being even able to walk to e kitchen to take a cup of water too lOLx!

but after a long rest and struggling, im feeling much better alr! (:

im sry that i have ps those people that im suppose to meet on sat, again this week,
we shall meet up another time alrit! (:

i feel that we have drifted apart! :(
cos we are both busy at our own things,
u have miss so many parts in my life,
there are times that i feel like sharing& wish that u could be here to share e joy& sadness tgt with me, but it seems really hard now.
we do not even noe how to continue our conversation after saying Hi. lol :(

2008-11-09T01:09:00.007+08:00

went to attend Geoff church wedding this morning.
meet the rest at DB station before joel lead the way for us,
however, this is e first time we see all the 3 batches of DMATers, all waiting at DB to walk to the church tgt.
the church is nice, and of cos, Geoff and his wife, e lovely couple are very sweet and compatible!
his wife is so pretty! she is naturally pretty alr since e time we coincident met her some time back,
but she is like shining during the wedding! hahahx.

although im not an catholic, but i feels so comfortable in a church, and e whole ceremony reminds me of last time when i was in sec sch, having those praying and masks on certain occasions.

after e church ceremony, we had some refreshments and we even talk to Geoff wife awhile, cos grace just went to talk to her, hahahx,
she is a nice person and can tell that she is sure very capable at her work too!

after everything, we went to PS awhile,
but time seems to pass very slowly that all of us were very bored and nothing to do too,
so grace decided to come my house, (she decided like her house like that! hahahx)
so the 7 of them all came to my house after that.
we didnt do much thing, cos they are either falling alsp on e sofa or eating, that's all.
soon, everyone sitting on e sofa all fall alsp except for jeremy,
and e poor vick and hazal, who is sitting on e floor, eating, be4 that, can only sit on e floor to watch e movie.
however, i was making myself a salad cos i was hungry! hahahx.

however, soon, grace, sam, peiyun woke up,
and sam requested if go slp in my room or not, cos they are feeling very hot at e living room,
so they came to my room, on the air con, and this grace very comfortable just lie down on my bed! LOLX! when she was perspiring & haven bath LOLx!
and soon, she start to say its cold cos she not use to slping in air con, so took my blanket and wrap herself up too lOLx, lucky i ask her to wash her leg be4 that, lolx!
and even sam keep saying her, asking her to move to e side of e bed, cos she just tend to go to e middle and take e whole of my queen size bed lolx. hahahx.
she is in love with my bed! lolx! that forever the same one! hahahx!

soon, YQ& jeremy left, followed by grace, peiyun, vick and hazal,
and left only sam waiting at my house. hahax.
she is e lost child, waiting for people to come pick her up, thaty i have to keep her in safe first! hahax.
so nearly 7pm, she went off, my cousin went out too, so left me alone at home!
so poor thing! cos there isnt anyone that i can meet for dinner lolx! so sad! :(
hahah, but i was kind of lazy to go out of e house to buy food and slpy alr too!
soon, i fall alsp on e sofa too. hahhax.
its only till 1 of my friend called, wanted to meet me for dinner near my house or help me tao bao food, but i was too tired and slpy to go out in e end, so i rejected him. hahahx.

so ended up cooking instant noodle again, after waking up, cos there isnt any other thing to eat at home too, so its time to do stocking up the fridge soon.

(the beautiful church! )
(some of e 02 people)(must thanks me for being e gd photographer! hahax)(the "couple"! of e day! peiyun snap this for crystal! ;)
after attending the wedding, thought some of e things the Father said...
wat exactly is LOVE?
how do u defined LOVE?
and every marriage is just the start of learning to love!
learn to cherish each other, learn to forgive, and learn how to scarifies for one another.

when u say u like or love somebody, wat are the things that he/she attracts u to say so?
is it just infatuation or just e moment of attractions?
true love is about understand one another and not just superficial of "i love u", "u love me" lol.
actually i don even noe now, what is my heart telling me! lolx!
cos too many shocking and sudden people just appear and approach, that everything seems like a dream! that i feel that how come sudden e tao hua so gd! hahhax. jkjk xb

michelle birthday

2008-11-06T23:31:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dear Michelle! (((:
congrats that u r now finally 18! (((:
thinking back, we have know each other for nearly 8yrs!
oMG, since pri 5 till now! hahax!
and we are still in best and good friends term! after so many yrs! (:
same class with her for pri 5 & 6, and again in sec 3 & 4.
although different class during sec 1 & 2, but i donoy whenever i see her in sch, i will be very happily to say HI to her and chat with her awhile.
although both of us are now studying in different sch and seldom meet, only once in a very long time, and sometimes its just a simple and quick meal,
don talk online everyday, don sms or call nowadays,
but once in a while, we definitely have a good and long chat,
although she may not know about my life now, my surrounding friends,
but we will just talked!
and whenever i need somebody, she will always be there for me!
we have overcome so much things tgt and she has been through alot of things with me too!
always by my side, just a call away. (:
its the friendship that no one or anything can be replaced,
its e love $ cant buy,
its the most precious thing in e world! that i treasured forever! ((:

she is 1 of e nicest gal i ever see,
everyone's beloved gal,
there isnt anyone who don like her!
and i have never see her angry at people for so many yrs,
she is just a super nice gal and like have super magnetic attraction that will just attract everyone to her! hahax.
if i were a guy, i will definitely fall for her! hahax
and its ystd that i found out that im 1 of her precious 4 beloved friends under her msn!
awww..i feel so honored ! hahahx

all i wan to say is,
MICHELLE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
love u always! <3>

u have bring too much joy for my life that i will never forget!
and i believe we will be friends forever! (:

2008-10-30T23:36:00.004+08:00

i just delete the previous post, cos i feel so silly of myself to be hurt by such things, shed my tears for such people. i should not care so much, and after a day of thinking, talking to my dearest friend, i cant be bothered by it anymore alr, cos if that is e real u, its not worth for me at all.
i shouldnt and won care abt what u wan or like to say behind my back, cos as long as i know how i have treat u, and what have i done, is gd enough alr,
i did nothing, so im not afraid of anything,
and i believe time will let people tell e truth, even it doesnt,
I don give a dam! (cant believe i say it this way! shows how much..)
i believe that those people who really know me, knows my character,
and im not like u! so small hearted to do such things, its just so childish!
and i have a bunch of great and true friends that i treasure so much,
so i don need u to be one!

and it just spoil my mood seeing u in sch 2day!
and i cant believe that i have use such a strong word for u, when u r being mentioned to me again.
but its ok, i will forget abt all this soon! and not going to allow this to affect my life at all!

2nd week of sch

2008-10-25T00:14:00.004+08:00

another week of sch has passed!

i think my blog has become a weekly update alr lol.hahax,

but its like busy each day, esp tue to thur,

staying bk in sch for meetings, practices etc, till 9+ or 10pm in sch, that is really tiring for u to do anything after u reach hm, so will just bathed and wait to go slp only.

Mon:

nothing much, got new assig for DVPT, :(

and have to present on week 4 alr!
lots of work to be done when it's only going to be 10% of e overall, but wat kind of story or video can i come out with my song??

Tue:

had gems class! and that Dehui was late again!

so Wei leong and i had to wait for him again be4 we went to e class tgt.

but after we went in to e class, e teacher separate us again! ARG!

so we all in diff groups, and have to do discussion and all,

and we just told that we got a written test on wk 6! LOL,

dono wat kind of test it will be, but seems like essay writing, which i hate to e most can! cos my eng is so bad and i don like to do essay LOLx.

performance was same still, and during our MIDI class, it was interrupted,

had this group people came to shoot video on Michael's band, so rain was e main actress, so we have to help to act and be inside also LOL!

and its really like...i thought we can rest during their shoot and rest awhile, but we have to help them too! lolx, but lucky im not pulled to be in e camera for interviews.hahax, paul volunteered and he seems so excited abt it, hahah, and can c huizhuang trying to control her laugher while he is being interview and acted infront of e camera. hahax.

so im like so tired during BUMS that i really feel like slping! LOLX, but its jimmy class& its never possible but i think he can c that some of us were very tired too, cos my face was really tired and my eyes originally alr small, plus when u get tired, its so hard and tiring to open big big and focus so long lol, hahax.

so it ended at 6pm,

eat our dinner and after that we went for string practice,

however, e teacher didnt come this week,

so we have our self practice,

but after that all of us become very high suddenly, esp peiyun,

she become super super high, and act, do all sorts of crazy crazy things that we seldom c her do and its really dam funny. hahahx.

had alot of fun there! xD

Wed:

had MIDI class only,

although its a 10am class, but i still wake up late lol,

compare to 8am class that i reach on time lol,

cos i think its's alr wed so after accumulated some tiredness for e past 2days, i tend to laze on e bed after e alarm ring so long lol. hahax,

so in e end i took cab to sch and reach at 1010am, cos i don wan to miss e explanation in class,but in e end some of them also haven reach yet, so michael wait for them to come the start e lesson lol! wasted my cab fee lOLx.

after lesson, went to bugis with sam, grace and ferz, cos sam wan to buy her xiaozhu show comie bk lol,

so we ate swensen's, and lastly, we had this Ice-cream cone for ferz, replacement for his cake, for his belated bday, but he complained so much that it was so hard LOL. hahahx,but we should have order e brownie with ice-cream lolx. i guess it sure taste much nicer then that. hahax.

but after that he use his card to pay again! and refuse to take my $! only took $10 from me, which is not enough to pay for my meal, and its suppose to be our treat, but in e end he is paying for his own LOL.

so after lunch, ferz & i rush bk to sch as both of us have meetings to attend,

and cos of ferz la, take so long to eat his ice-cream cone, that im late for my meeting!

hahahx, okokla, jk jk (: blame on e ice-cream that its too hard then. hahahx.

anw, i saw.....at e station!

xxx took e same train bk to sch as us! i only saw at dover, but xxx walked so slow, and i was rushing to go for my meeting,

so i have no choice hurry and walk and pretend i didnt c xxx and walked super fast away lol.

don ask me y,

im just so afraid to c xxx, not really afraid, feel awkward and dono how to react and talk when i c xxx lol, so im so sry, that i avoid u,

let me have some time,

be4 i can overcome, and pass thought my stage first and talk to u again then.

anw, e main com and sub-com meeting was tense, and i feel dam bad example to be late although its only that 10mins lOLx, but its mainly e president and vice-president do e talking,

but after all e things they wan to say, arthur suddenly turn to me and tell me that,

"ok, now u can have ur turn to complain wat u wan to say abt ur ADD then"

then its was like so sudden, and infront of everyone can! and its like...

i didnt wan to complain or say anything wa, now become i m such a bad person like i didnt say much during e meeting but behind their back, i go complain to them like that LOL,

but lucky vick faster change wat arthur say and told e sub-com people them who am i, cos some of them dono me, and told them that ( although i don usually appear very often, but im still 1 of e main com and event chair of our ADD, so should respect me too, and don bully me cos im just being nice to u all, and don give me e unrespectful attitude, esp when i didnt put there compulsory for all of them to come and be OC for my event then can don bother to reply email, sms or do wat u suppose to do too, )something like that. lolx, then everyone is in silent. hahahx

thanks vick! for voicing out for me! cos some of their attitude really bad! and i believe that they should know who they are when vick say abt this lolx.

anw, after e meeting, joanne came to e club cos she wanted to learn how to play cello now, so kervin thought her first, and i sat there to listen and accompany her.

and after listening awhile, i felt that kervin can really be a gd teacher! he is so patience, so detail, even explain every part of e cello to joanne first lol,

i think can name him 1 of e nicest or most patience, hardworking guy, that will never grumble or complain anything, in SPSE lol.

so after e long meeting,

went to CO there to meet some people, cos i decided to join SPCO,

so yishan gave me e whole stack of yangqin scores, and after i read some of them,

i was like...almost faint, cos its been some time since i play in CO, and lots of things have alr forgotten!

so next week will start and hope i can get some chance to practice be4 joining them, and be able to play, cos i will be e only yanqin player currently lol.

anw,

during e nit, i was so tired and no mood for anything too, that so i went to slp at 12+,considered early for e sch days,

but i couldnt wake up e next morning and go for REMT practical!

cos i woke up too early in e morning after slping for full 8hrs,

so i thought its still too early to go sch, so went bk to sch,

and its then i overslpt and only awake by vick's call around 1040am, but i fall bk to slp and e next moment i wake up and was thinking by e time i rush to sch, i will be late for like 1/1/2 hrs,its like how to go into e class like that, thaty in e end i didnt go.

but partly i was mentally tired still, and i was feeling so low e whole day in sch!

not smiling broadly, not mood to be high, but not emo!

cos i was mentally tired, lots of things to do, prepare, and after e long day of lessons,

knowing more assigs and next yr plans, it added on to e stress, that u can never imagine!

but that's DMAT crazy life! that we will have to struggle through! so we have no choice, to face it still!

anw, after having a little chat with ms tan, after our MUST lesson,

i held my ADD meeting,

but things change, dates change, venue change all in a sudden, so things have to replan and think abt it again,

but as for some of them, they give slightly more productive work then e last meeting, (thinking isit e day be4 meeting/ lecture/ to them works a little finally), but we still got lots of things to do, and i really have no confident being e event chair for ADD suddenly, after hearing wat weiren say during e wed meeting,

to be honest, im stressed,

and im so afraid that it will turn out unsuccessful, and a boring ADD ever,

but i really cant think of wat to do other then e things i plan alr lol.

haiz, :(

but i really hope that things will be fine by then.

i wanted to talk to u! but u didnt reply,

a little disappointed when u say ok, shall talk 2nit, but u didnt reply e msg,

but i still mange to find my ways to destress myself and forget abt all e things!

but i must still say thanks to some of e people here, cos like sam, only she noes that im feeling stress over it, when she talk to me on msn e nit, although she only ask me to relax and don so stress

arthur: giving a very big support for me saying that he think it will be great & not to worry too much.

vick: thanks for helping out and always accompany me to go talk to ning.

and dehui: although he dono anything, but r here to listen& entertain me too! (:

Fri:
had MUST, and after lesson, wanted to go find ning to discuss abt ADD again, but she was busy,
so in e end didnt manage to meet her.
so went out with sam, grace& vick to cathay to watch movie.
watched tropic thunder, funny show.
and after that we have buffet at this jap restaurant and surprising, when i was on e way home, i fall alsp on e bus lolx.
tired after a long week...
but weekend is finally here! (:

2008-10-17T01:48:00.005+08:00

sch finally started after the long holiday,
although i really don wan and not prepare to go sch yet,
but 1st week of sch has passed!

be4 talked abt 1st week of sch,
we were invited by YQ, to join Jeremy's other friends for his bday celebration on e last sat be4 sch start.
so sam, peiyun, joel, shun & i went and Jeremy was really surprised by our presence, hahax,
and we have a great time playing at the minds cafe too!
and chatting and chill at esplanade after that too,
although not all of us was able to make it, but we still have fun and a lovely day! (:
its so sweet of YQ to plan it for Jeremy too!!! ((:

so i shall just let e pic speaks then (:

(OMG, YQ & Jeremy have fallen for him! hahahx)

(Joel: its so heavy man!)
(the 3 Singers of the day! hahax, joel expression dam funny la!)

anw, 1st week of sch was alrit,
felt differnt in last semt,
can sense & more pressure is coming up,
but i get to know and understand wat we r doing for each things better,
so there must be no more slacking and playing around alr lol,
have to practice keyboard, although i really don like to play scales, and violin, hoping able to play a proper song nicely!
and i have to decide on my instrument for performance and start practicing too! ):
and most importantly, MUST, i didnt even touch for e whole holiday! so everything is like gone in my mind plus im a super weak student in MUST, so i really have to work super super hard then other people now lol,
and im worried to get back my paper next week too! ):
and feeling stress with combine class with 01 people now,
hope that it will still be e same as last time then.

but 1st thing i hope to do,
is to get more slp!
i don like TUE now,
we start from 8am and all e way to 6pm! and after that we got violin practice too!
so it will like more then 12hrs in sch, such a long day!
and i was planing to join CO too, and e practice starts late at nit too, and i end at 12pm,
and we joining ensemble too, so another day to 10pm,
so next time its like every tue, wed, thur all staying bk till super late in sch lol,
hope that i can take it and able to cope them.

and did i say abt my GEMS?
Im e ONLY GAL in my class lolx!
OMG, i cant belive that can!
i dono how am i going to survive there! really! OMG,)))):
all cos of e stupid mess up of choosing gems,
otherwise i will be same gems as sam, grace and even same class as khas & zak lolx! haix!

n ohya,

i went for lunch with Sheryl & younghui, (coincidently met) on wed at bugis, at this JAP restaurant that sheryl recommended, after i end class, and be4 my meeting start and her ITP briefing start too.

we have gd chat during e meal, lots of laughter!

supposedly after e meal, we wanted to buy ice-cream to eat, but we were full, so in e end we didnt and decided to go bk to sch early.

and Younghui offer to take & pay for e cab! hahahx.

cos sheryl pay for e meal for him, so im e lucky one.

so after that we sat at fc6 to have drinks awhile be4 i went for my meeting and sheryl's briefing too.

so i got to know alittle bit more abt sheryl that day, and she has been very nice to me

and overall, its was an enjoyable meeting (:

so that's all for e day, shall update some other time then.
good nitx! (:

2008-10-10T01:37:00.005+08:00

dad is in SG now! :)
suppose to be a happy thing,
but i dono y i feel so sad now, after talking to him justnow.
i thought he is e only one that will understand how i feel & everything in this course,
but he don seem to get it, those things im telling him, and wat we have work & learn so far too.

i guess he really tired alr, after traveling a long day and everything,
his eyes are red but he still sit beside me to listen all the songs i have from my fellow classmates, that he requested to listen to be4 we went out in e nit.
he give some comments after listening to all e songs, and i think some of e comment are different cos he use really different aspect from what we r thinking too.

he keep telling me not to worry, its just a steeping stone for me to improve myself, and lead me to the next step, where i have to take business of music side still and this will always do me gd.

so i didnt continue abt saying anything alr too,
i noe he has plan a gd path for me in my future,
but i dono y my tears just flow down again after talking to him,
i thought i was strong but i realise i was wrong. :((((((((((

i really feel like calling u :(
just to hear ur voice :(
but its too late to make e call :'((((((

2008-10-08T01:03:00.002+08:00

had 1 of e most horrible day!
all cos of e stupid gems! ARGGGG...
wake up early this morning to prepare to choose e gems,
so have conference call with grace & sam,
while waiting for e time to come,
at e very last min, grace told me that cant use safari,
so i faster ask my cousin, who is beside me,
he has e sas page ready too,
so i quickly sign in at e min,
but first choice, backpacking is not available,
so we quickly select e love relations for life,
so we saw tue class which got 3 seats available,
so we all faster click,
but dono y mine didnt show on my timetable,
tried again, don have still,
and its only then, i realised that my cousin using firefox!
OMG! its really OMG! cos by e time i ask grace they all check 4me, vick to do it for me, everything also gone alr, within e first 3 or 5mins lol.!
and end up grace & sam choose e different class too! although both on tue lol.
so i have no choice, wait for e next time slot which is at 9pm, which i alr prepare to get nothing better too. haix ):
its really so wasted & so careless cos i have e time & choice to choose my gems, but in e end then realise that my cousin use firefox to sign in lol. arg!

so after that went to sch to meet vick, to go saa to c ning & show her my ADD proposal,
took quite some time cos have some changes, so vick left first,
but finally, its done! just left for arthur to sign it & i can pass it bk to ning again,
so hope e SAA will approve all my budgets!

it left 15 mins be4 4pm, my meeting supposed to start,
but sam they all late,
so i met dehui, hermi & some others at fc3 to wait for e rest to come.
i wasnt in e gd mood, partly cos of e morning gems, partly also cos of those yr1 sub com people,
i didnt talk to them be4 i came out of e clubroom be4 my meeting start, cos they don bother to say hi too lolx.
but i also alr prepare to show bad face to them later & scold if i really cant take it, otherwise they will just continue to play play only lol.
so e meeting official starts around 430pm, and first thing i shoot at the guy who is supposed to give me e final games list, and yet he can still smile at me & show me e 3 or 4 pathetic games he tried to recall e nit be4 lol.
i guess only sam, peiyun can sense my mood & change of tone when i talk to him lol.
but after that i decided to settle his part later, and discussed e rest first.
so everyone become very quiet when i was talking and e feeling was tense cos i didnt smile smile, everything in a serious tone & all.
but its only finally talk abt e food, that joel and some others break e silent and dare to speak, and when i have to ask 1 by 1 for opinion lol.
so after that finally came to e last part, games section, i was really so piss off with e attitude he give still, so i really cant control my anger, to say him, and i only raised my voice alittle, and even pass him my last meeting min to show him all e games i have taken down, and forced to give and type out e final game list on e spot lol.
its only then he keep quiet and faster look at it and think and tried to organise e games.
in between, got this yr1 freshie come to e club room too, wanted to give e $ for e coming camp,
but their response and e way they do things is really horrible!
that really make sam & i cant help it to type our own anger in e laptop while waiting for them to settle e thing so as to continue my meeting lol.

haiz, but after that finally long long waiting, e guy finally come out e "final game list" orally, and when i ask again, everything was unsured lol.
but after that i told him to go bk to type it out immediately to me, and i wan all e orders of e games we playing, e materials needed for each games, e helpers needed etc, by e next meeting
cos i wan to try out every game in e next meeting, so if he cant do it by then, i m really going to scold him & he will be out of e team & don even think abt e main com next yr alr, im serious lol.

so after that got a short practice among ourselves be4 e teacher come,
and peiyun msg to me saying that i look fierce just now during e meeting,
but to sam they all, and i, i don even think so, i haven even show any of my temper & anger at them lol, its really nice to them alr lol.

so after lesson, rush bk hm to prepare to register e gems again at 9pm.
and e sas system really suck!
i tried e backpacking again, but don have, so immediately i tried e love relations for life and it shows available, so i quickly click, but donoy it took so long to load, then in e end tell me unsuccessful, then i went bk to check others, its like nothing nice alr lol, even e chinese idom also don have lol, so meanwhile reading at some other gems, like giving up alr, i decided to try e love relations again, and it says 1 more seats, so i quickly click again, but its unsuccessful again, cheat my feelings can! lolx!
then my cousin was telling me if i wan to wait for e next time slot or not, but justnow i was talking to dehui on msn, so i asked him wat he choose,
so he told me this, effective interpersonal communication, then i check, lol, still got 20+ space lol, it must be some not nice one, thaty still got so many, but i got no choice too, so i took that too.
then after that i went to read e explaination of this gems, its like wt... i don even understand la, no idea at all lol, then i saw

The module is conducted through tutorial, discussion and role play. Assessments include written test, quiz, group and pair role play, and class participation.

then i was like siaz....arg....
i don like tests! its wasting my time, my braincell lolx!
and so much things to do, role play even, lolx, arg,,, i really dono how m i going to survive in this gems lolx.

in e end all e gems i will be taking is all not wat i wanted and some nonsense one lol! gems sucks! lolx!
))))))))))):
and i don wan sch to reopen, im not ready to face all e peer pressure, all e assig pressure, and all e things! i even forget and lose e inspiration & motivation to make a new song, and im just going to die soon.
wondering if i can make it to yr3 lol, and that will be e dead end of my life!
haix! ))))))))))))))):

2008-10-07T01:44:00.002+08:00

arg...!
im so dam piss with them now!
treat them too nicely alr thaty all not scare of me & think can take lightly on me LOLx!

a simple task, just to type out e final game lists, that we alr discussed during e last last meeting also cant do it! and dare to tell me that cant find e paper now, when i remind them there is a meeting tmr! lol, that is supposed to be done and pass it to me long ago, be4 last week, be4 my that cancel meeting lolx!
i should have just take that paper and type it myself lolx! arg!!!!
feel so angry, feel like scolding them too!
cos its wasting our efforts, time & all lolx!

no responsibility, no respect,
still wan to be in e main com next yr! LOLX!
i will be waiting to see what u all can give me tmrl during e meeting & that will really tell me ur characters & everything lolx!

Joel bday celebration

2008-10-05T01:13:00.011+08:00

2day is such a lovely day that i enjoyed myselfalot alot!!! (:
with e 8ban people (:

had joel's belated bday celebration at suntec,
had fish & co, cos other places were long Q with people,
but we have fun eating there, cos joel is entertaining as usual, hahax.
so after that, sam went to make the msg dedication at the fountain for joel secretly first, cos she was with her sec sch friends be4 that, so this was another surprise we have for joel! (:
but due to some delay, we almost cant make it for joel to c e dedication cos we didnt expect e msg to be shown so immediately after we send, so after that joel & peilin came out to meet us at the fountain there while grace & peiyun settle e bill at fish & Co,
but lucky we went to make alot for him, i think 3 different times, so after that finally, just nice, e cake was ready too & e dedication came out on e exact timing, so we all sang birthday song for joel there too! HAHAx, we were very loud, its like everyone watching us, but we didnt really care, hahax, and joel is surprised by us & he is touched too! HAHAx, YEA!
lucky he didnt expect & know this, hahax, so it can be called a success! (:
so the final show, we even went to walk around e fountain 3times, like all e rest, ahah, and joel was splashed with lots of gd wealth water lol. hahax

and i also wan e dedication to me next time! hahax, its so sweet to receive from e rit people! (:
hahax, but i will wait for e rit person, UUUUU to appear and do that for me! hahahx.

so after that vick came with his gf, and we walked to esplanade, wanted to find some place to chill and its then i receive e msg & call!
its like so long since we talked, hahax, so im so happy after that! (((:

after that we rest awhile watching this band performing outside of e esplanade and we happened to c Oliver there too! hahax, so someone is very happy after that lol. hahax.
but after that my mum called me alr, so its really no choice that i have to leave, so all of them accompany me & wait for my bus too! so nice of them (:
but e bus took super long to come lol, so in e end was 11pm alr too, so i think they all head bk hm after i left too.
but we were all so high & happy that really don feel like going hm yet lol,
so hope that i can stay out & longer someone lol. hahax.

so next week will be e final week that i can enjoy & stay out late be4 sch start! hahahx, cant wait for e fun again! ((:

its totally love 2day that words that cant describe! (:
love U & u guys alot! (:

(at fish & co)

(birthday boy ay! how old alr, still like that, hahax)

(my best 89 buddies! (: )

(at e staircase, was abit unclear)
(JOEL! no matter how crazy u r, or wat u become, we still love u! (: hahax )

( e 8ban finally + yq + hazal! (((: )

2008-10-02T00:27:00.004+08:00

Wed
went to watch movie with grace, sam, peiyun & shun 2day at MS.
watched mirrors and its like super long since i last watched horror shows, cos i don pay e $ to scare myself, hahax.
but im so surprised that i m so brave, and wasnt scared at all lol, didnt cover my face, or anything, only don really like a part when e man kill himself, so lots of blood flow out of his neck, which i feel so disguesting, lolx
and got 1 part so funny, cos when i turn to look, peiyun was covering her eyes, then sam half covered, while grace was like totally gone lol, hahax.
but compare to grace, she is like totally waste her $10 watching nothing lolx! and i scare both grace & sam at differnt part of e show, hahahx, but my face was hit by grace accidently cos she was too scared at 1 part, so after that i decided not to sit or lean so close to her at all lol, hahax.
some of e parts was exciting, was curious abt e ending, but e ending was bad! lolx.

so after that we went to have dinner at hong kong cafe again!
i have been going there so often now lolx! so we were thinking if we should just buy e discount card since we keep going there to eat, but in e end e person make wrong orders!
but in e end we just take e wrong orders too, since they alr made,
so in e end i told e lady who took e order from us, and her reply was sorry cos she don understand english,lol,
so next time e saftest thing is to tell e no of e food and must repeat e orders.
after that we 4gals have long long chat again! be4 we finally say good bye and went home! :)
so that's all for e day!

and its so nice to receive ur msg 2day!
it just delight my day! :)
miss u! :)

kcco meeting

2008-09-28T17:51:00.004+08:00

went back to KC sec ystd to have meeting abt KCCO end of yr concert and im surprised to see many different batches of seniors. we have from e first bath, to e current juniors there lol. i think we have 5 different bathes of seniors, graduated one, including me, went bk for e meeting.
but end up didnt do much things also, cos we only there to listen while e main people do e talking with e conductor and my teacher lol, so e only thing some of us did there was to eat e banana muffin my teacher made especially for us, that's all lol. cos we were so far from my teacher& those ppl, so cant really hear wat they talking abt also lol.
but it still last for few hours, till nearly 6pm that i cant take it anymore alr, so decided to left earlier with some others.
and i really feel unappreciated by some of them, xxx too, just cos im not in e main comm when i was in sec sch and didnt sub up to seniors, teachers, and so? lolx,
i feel so silly, and y must i be so guai to come all e way from outram back to katong when they tell me they have a meeting? while so many didnt even show up and they r excused! lolx,
it took up my whole sat afternoon! and im not as free also lol,
i turn up cos when u told me that u need helpers, so i m here specially,
cos i do love our co still & was actually proud of them for being able to have a concert on their own, for e first time, and was excited abt it too,
although there are so many bad memories and torture being through e yrs,
but its just so unappreciated,
and i feel that e meeting is so unproductive too, took so long just to discuss wat different job scopes, and how many people needed, and e design, booklets, etc, it can be done just with e snap with e fingers lol.
and i could not do anything, no one to turn to & still have to c e some of e seniors and smile when they tell me wat i have to do on that day, LOL, just go there to tear e tickets, LOL.

anw, forget abt all e unhappiness,
i was so touched when i received grace msg when i was leaving e sch,
i didnt say much to her, but her reply was so encouraging & so supportive of me!
when i read it, my eyes was in tears & so touched, that i almost cried on e bus lol.
that will be so paiseh can lol. hahax,
but i rem when i joined CO when i was in sec1, e main thing cos i like music, was attracted by them when they perform too, and i continue to stay on when i was in sec 3 till i graduate, although after e big incident & everything,
i rem that i have to face xxx & their friend's faces everytime i go for practice, and listened to them, and overcome all e difficulties when they r trying their best not to let me perform or find excuses like i didnt go for practice e whole month when i was in taiwan etc, always use authority or bully...
but i overcome all those cos e more pressure they give, the more determined& strong i become, im not afraid of them, cos that's just some childish act, and i used my hard work & talent to prove to them that i m able to played even though i didnt come for practice for e whole month when i was in taiwan, and i do not need to sub up to seniors to get fav, cos that's childish thinking,

but i have my happy time there too with those really truthful and friendly people who really love and appreciated music and really wan to do their best for e CO.
so i did not even bother to explain or unclear all e misunderstanding or impressions some of e seniors & teacher have for me, after xxx & friends came to wan to friend bk with me in sec 4.lolx.
cos everything has happened and nothing can do to get it back like be4, so as long as i noe i did nothing wrong, and wat i have been doing is gd enough alr.
i do not need to get their fav, cos there are better place & people who appreciate me more then them & that's gd enough for me alr :)

so i still puts on a smile no matter when i see them & will give my best & everything when they ask me for help, cos no point thinking abt all e unhappiness & all i wan to do is for the gd for our co and let them be better and better each day :)

so im really happy to c joey low, (1 of my junior) at MS, when i went there for dinner with dehui, cos she is e one that don like to be involve in all this politics and don sub up to seniors too, a very nature, friendly, lovely gal, so we really close and have lots of fun last time when we r in sch & that make me miss her so much too!
although its only a short chat with her, but its great to c her! :)
and she sings, so im really going to ask her to help me sing in my song next time! heex :)

ohya, there were so many people at that area, cos of e F1 race, and we met quite a no. of people there too! :)
but e sound of e F1 is really loud so after hearing it a few times, u will just get annoyed and its hurtful to e ears! lolx!
its like spoiling my DMAT ears, hahax.
and after that it cos heavy traffic jam that we have to walk so big round finally back to e mrt train, lol. so i think its still better just to watch it at home, and if u r watching there, pls bring ear stuck, no, headphones better, to protect ur own ears. HAHAH.

indonesia trip

2008-09-20T02:21:00.018+08:00

Hello people, im back to SG now! (:
miss me? hahahx, im so ps to those that really msg me when i was away, but i couldn't reply cos i didn't noe my auto roam is cancel alr lol, so disappointing for me too, cos there are times that im really bored there!
so this is sure going to be a super long post, so i guess u will need alot of patience if u r reading it.hahax (:

Day 1
reach airport before 11am, and waited for my uncle and grandma to come to check in tgt. However, there are some problem occurred with the ticketing, with the card that my uncle used to buy e tickets, so they don wan to give us e boarding pass cos they wan to c e card, but my uncle left it at hm. so in e end my aunt had to come all e way to give e card, but after that they say still cant, (stupid credit card company fault) and become got another prob with e other card, (cos my uncle use 2 diff card to buy our tickets), so in e end e time was alr 12noon, and e counter wanted to close alr, cos e flight is taking off at 12 45, and our luggage is still not send in, so was afraid that we won be able to take our luggage at this flight.
so after dono how long, its finally settle, and that made my aunt in total came to e airport 3times just for e cards too, so even a super nice person also will be piss off by this kind of incident lol.
so we rush our way in and get on e plane at the very last minutes, otherwise we will have to take e next flight lol.

e journey is only about 1/1/2 hrs, very short, so is like just take off, eat, and landed alr.
after landed, we made our visa there,and just nice we saw our uncle and aunt, who is e host of this trip and their son getting married one, before we even check out, so which means were very inside (but they were alr in Indonesia, not like us just get off e plane or smt) hahax, strange rit, hahax, (i think u all must be thinking how did they manage to come in?)but more surprising things happened at e back, my aunt took all our passport and pass to this guy and later, we just walked out of e check point, without even queuing and check by e authority, (dono wat exactly its called in eng), while e rest of other people there have to queue super long and you never noe wat is going to happen next too.
so later, we received our passport back after we collect our luggage and came out, heard that they just chop all 30+ passports (tgt with these invited group of Taiwanese by my uncle too) altogether, without even checking or see us 1 by 1 lol. hahax,
this is like my first time experience this man! hahahx, and heard that as long as u give $ then u r able to do this kind of things alr, hahax,
and i think my uncle will arrange this cos he wan to save all e troubles and time and anw if we queue 1 by 1, we also have to put in some $ inside our passport when we go through e check point, so might as well he settle all these and this ensures that nothing happen to all his invited guests and us too.
so my bro say that im really lucky this time cos everything is so smooth, not like e last time he came where he was asked to small room and bugged by them to give $ lol. hahahx.

reached hotel around 1hr+ later, we were lucky cos there wasnt any traffic jam otherwise we will take nearly 3hrs to reach lol.
we were at HOTEL MULIA.
and my bro & i share 1 room. (:
e hotel is gd, e room is big& nice!
we are really lucky cos my uncle specially booked another room just for my bro & i after knowing that we are coming too! (:

take some rest in e room first be4 we went for e buffet dinner at the hotel cafe.
and e variety of food is more then enough! hahahx, and i love especially e desert section! its really OMG! there are like 1 big section just for e deserts and at least 20 or 30 + diff kind of cakes and deserts! cos after counting, i ate 10 diff deserts that nit lol, hahahx,
and its e first time that i ate deserts till so so full lol. xD
it really delight my day man! xD

Day 2
morning: buffet breakfast at the cafe
after that prepare ourselves for sort of ceremony where e bride receive all e gifts from all e relatives and so, photo taking etc.
but since they say no need to be so grand cos its just giving gifts but in e end all my other relatives, (esp those aunties stay in Indonesia one) all wear till so nice alr, hair styled, etc.. and all e guys are in suit, so in e end my bro went bk to his room to take his coat too.
and everyone of us got to go up to e couple, give them gifts, bow, take pic, and receive ang pao! (ang pao is only for us, those younger then my cousins one!hahax)
but its so ps also can! infornt of everyone! and im so informal! i wore a super simple dress, and e colour is super super light pink, (bought by my mum herself in Taiwan), and i feel that e colour is so like pajamas colour alr lol. hahax.

(my mum & i)
(my bro, grandma & mum)
(my bro& i)

(my uncle&aunt, whose son is getting married)

after that we have lunch at another Cantonese restaurant which is also in e hotel, but i was still so full from e breakfast, but no matter i sat beside or same table with this aunt of mine, she will always take alot of food for me & ask me to eat more cos im "so thin". lolx!
but lucky that day my bro was with me and i ask him to sit beside her, so he helped me to eat some. hahax.

so after lunch, we have 2, 3 hrs break before e grand wedding dinner at nit, so my mum asked me to accompany her to go to my this aunt's house at Jataka, which was very near e hotel too.
so i went to my aunt house, and chat chat with 2 of my aunts and 1 of my another cousin.
and after that my aunt asked me to let e person (where they esp asked her to come to their house to make style their hair for them) to do some changes to my hair too.
so i dono wat my aunt tell her to do for me, but anyone as long as style hair, definitely look slightly diff, so this aunt of mine and my cousin started asking me if i have bf or not, while my mum immediately reply, "Nola, she is still studying now" then immediately, my aunt asked her to go out of e room, hahahx, and she continue asking me, telling me that its ok one, she is very open one, and its normal to have at this age also& she won tell my mum etc... hahahx, and but i only can keep smiling.
then after that my cousin was surprise by me after styling hair, so he asked me to post e pic on friendster or so, sure many ppl will come and click on me lol, then my aunt continue that, "nono, put on facebook!" hahahx,
i was so surprised by my aunt to say out face book this kind of things lol. hahah, she dam in now man! lol! although she is alr 50yrs old, with 3 children, oldest 25 yrs alr lol, but her mindcept is so in and with e youngsters lol. hahax.
so after that my cousin continue saying, telling my aunt that they are only 2 type of ppl, 1st is those kind have bf but when ppl ask when immediately say "NONO, don have", while 2nd type is just keep quiet and don say anything so u dono if e answer is yes or no. hahahx, so my aunt keep asking me if i were no 1 or no 2 lolx. hahax.

but how i wish i have one! hahahx, when will i meet the rit person! hahahx
so sam! maybe we really need to go ***** ****** or so alr lol. hahahx. (she so crazy over this topic this few days too! hahax)

(mirror, mirror & 1 more mirror!)

after everything, my another aunt, my mum & i went bk to e hotel first and change and prepare for e grand dinner soon.
so e dinner wedding was nice, super grand again, everyone dressed up, all my that sides of aunt all dressed in gowns, and all guys in suits as usual, and of cos, e food is really gd and delicious.

ohya, some time during e dinner, while e MC was going round asking ppl to sing along,
then when he was at e other side my bro was like keep saying come here come here, go to him!
then after that, when e MC turn to our side, he really asked my bro to sing lol. omg! hahahx
but when my bro suddenly get e mic, he was like stunned and for e first 2 lines, nothing is coming out of his mouth and its so embarrassing la, cos all e camera & video were suddenly turned to our table and zoomed to us, so we were featured on those 2 big big screen infornt lol.
and those ppl who were asked to sing, e most just 1 small part or few lines only, but donoy my bro get e mic for so long, so he had to kept singing(while keep looking at me asking me for e lines, or showing sigh to me asking me how lol) but in e end he still sang for so many parts lol.
so wasted that i didnt take a pic of it, but cos it was so ps and we were featured on e screen so i don dare to do any other thing or take out camera too lol.
so im thinking, after that when my cousin watched this video, he must be thinking wat is my bro doing lol. hahahx.

so after dinner, we have some photo taking with different relatives ourselves before we all left and go back to our respective rooms to rest for e nit then.

(my uncle& aunt)

Day 3
morning: buffet breakfast at the hotel again
after that supposed to go shopping with 1 of my aunt, but in e end it turned out unsuccessful cos we were tgt with my grandma, and 3 other grandaunts, and my aunt, and my bro & i.
so in e end become a session where we accompany them to shop, sit there to wait for them and help them takes their things too.
my bro was complaining and grumbling e whole time cos it is supposed to be our shopping trip and its like totally waste our time there too. hahahx.
there are times that we wanted to tell my aunt that we go some where to walk walk first, after that then meet them around wat time, but in e end they say they were going to be done, where we sat there another 1hr to stone and wait lol, so in e end we give up alr. hahax
so in e end, our achievement for e day was only get to buy some bubble gum & HELLO PANDA from e super market and get to eat KFC after that be4 we went bk to e hotel. lolx.
cos my bro's gf told him that there KFC taste slightly different from SG one, so we decided to try it.
and e difference is that they have rice instead of fries and e crispy chicken taste much better then e one in SG. but i dono abt e price cos i cant rem how much is a meal cost due to too much digits and e big exchange rate. hahax.

(here are some pic taken at e shopping center)

(so unglam of me! hahax)
(we sat that this same area for almost an hr lol.)
(my bro & i were too bored waiting for them)

so have dinner at 1 of my aunt & some of her bro's share in it, a chinese resturant somewhere near e hotel place too, to celebrate my eldest granduncle's 83 yrs old birthday celebration.
its not as grand as e one when he was 80yrs old, so its more of like a gathering and just a meal for all of us.

and during e meal, alot of my uncles and aunt all came to ask how was our shopping in e afternoon, cos they all knew that we went to shopping, cos we didnt follow them to some mountain place in e morning, but they all didnt expect our shopping trip to turn out lilke these, and my bro was complaining and grumbling and had to repeat our story to almost all of them when they asked us. lol. hahax.
but what can we do, so i told my bro that its once in a life time, so take it as an experience then. lolx.
so we ate alot and it was a gd meal again (:
and lastly be4 we left, we were given this cake which e name is called "TIMOTHY CAKE" (so funny, i really wonder y must it called timothy cake? isit e guy who invent or make this cake is called timothy? or wat? hahax)
lolx, and they said that it is e most expensive cake in Indonesia, hahax, so in e end my bro took alot back from my aunt, to bring bk to SG to give our friends too.

(eldest granduncle cutting his bday cake)
(3 different fav that SG don have)
(timothy cake!)
(finally a meal that can have a simple wear with jean!)

Day 4
after morning's breakfast and some resting, we checked out e room and left tgt with e group of taiwanese to e airport eariler and its really gd bye to indonesia. hahax!
but my mum, uncle & grandma followed my another uncle & aunt to travle furthur down of Indonesia where their factories and house are, and stayed there for another 4days be4 they come bk to SG.

so after checking in, we are still early to board e plane, so we seperated into 2 groups, where i follow my youngest aunt to SQ's restroom(watever it calles,hahahx) cos she can bring 1 person in, to get something to eat, while my aunt bring my another 2 aunts & bro to eat at another place cos her credit card provide e serivce too.
after that, coincidently, we met my another uncle's family, (but far relatives, that i rarely c be4 too, hahax) they took e same plane as us, flying bk to SG for few days be4 they left and fly bk to China or aust, im not sure. hahax.
but compare to them, they are so much richer to dono how many times, and really gd life!
cos all of them take business class while we r in economy class, lolx
and we were just 2 rows diff on e plane! but its alot of diff, lolx, but its alrit, cos its only a short trip.

overall, i should say that im lucky that im able to attend e wedding,cos we only pay e air ticket ourself while e rest like e hotel was paid by my uncle who invited us lol, but disappointedly that alot of my other close cousins didnt turn up (my bro & i were e only one from my side, family) cos they wasnt having holidays and they are really times that u r being pressured by some of my uncles, cos they liked to compare too.
when they asked what are u studying now, and after u told them and explain DMAT to them, their reaction was so unappreciated, and thinking that there wasnt any furture to it lol,
but i wasnt angry or even bothered to explain furthur to them, cos as long as i know what im doing, is gd enough alr.
you will never know what u r going to do in e future although u maybe studying this now, but to them, they only think business course is useful to make $ in e future, but we also have study business of music and they can never experience and understand how difficult our course is too. lolx.
and actually almost all of them, some uncles, aunties, cousins, (those diff grandfather from me) studied in either Indonesia, international sch when they are young, after that in SG till sec, and all left to USA, Canada or other places to further their studies cos studying in SG after sec is much harder then other countries, and of cos they are able to afford to go overseas, so i also donoy if that was e cause to make some of them to turn out to be so proud of themselves and tend to look down to other people easily? lolx.
they are born with golden spoon and don even have to worry abt anything at all lol.

but i do really admire some of my cousins too, cos they can speak proper, perfect American English, (not purposely with e slang, but naturally alr) and Chinese, Indonesia and some even more Japanese too.

so that official marks e end of my 4day 3 nits trip to Indonesia (:

2008-09-16T02:25:00.002+08:00

HELLO people,
i m going to be away to Indonesia for few days to attend my relatives wedding and birthday.
im not excited at all, cos i don like going to Indonesia, and i don really like to attend this kind of events too.
cos those of my relatives (far away, different grandfather) always make everything to be super super grand, and we really cant compare with them, and i don even noe some of my cousins too, and it will be hard and little awkward to see each other & don even noe what to talk abt lol. ):
and it will just be eating, entertaining people, and that's all.
there is nothing i can do,
so im going to be so so so bored there!
and im going to miss U, u & U, so many of U! ):
so msg msg me! to keep me company! (:

and take care everyone, cya u guys soon! (:

Joel's Birthday

2008-09-13T02:27:00.009+08:00

here is a post specially to dear Mr Joel! :)
my best 89 buddies! :)

Happy HAPPY HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY TO U!

May all ur wishes come true and stay happy, cheerful, high, crazy crazy always! HAHAx!
enjoy ur birthday celebration and have fun!
cya soon! :)

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Fri
meet up with grace, peiyun & Vick.
we have our lunch at Fish&Co, and i realised that many people like to celebrate birthday there maybe cos the Fish&Co stuffs will suddenly come out and sing a song & give a little surprise to the birthday star, hahax, so its slightly different from other places, and after that you will also get a 10% discount!
but its too common on us alr, cos we celebrated there for 2 of our friends alr, so it won have surprise again lol. hahax.
anw after lunch, we went to catch a movie," BABYLON A.D" and just nice we watched it at the grand hall, and its really so big inside,and not many people watching at that timing too, so its great!
the movie was quite exciting all the while, but only thing that disappoint us was the ending, cos it just ended like that, lolx.
after that we went to mac to rest, and Vick became the only one who ate 2 ice-cream again, hahax, i think he really love mac ice-cream lolx.
it only till 6, that Vick has to leave, so left grace, peiyun & i decided to go to cityhall area to walk around, and they brought me to buy my black skinny jeans!
its like so long that i wanted to have a skinny jeans and i finally bought it, but it wasnt that fantastic, cos when e person let me try the first size, it fit all nicely, but only e wast alittle tide, so i ask to try e bigger size, its more comfortable, but not as fit as e smaller one, n peiyun say i look nicer with e 1st one, but i wasnt used to wearing such fit and tide jeans, and im kind of afraid that i will continue to put on weight, due to the increasing eating& relaxing mood of e holiday now, hahax, thus, i took e bigger size one.
and guess wat, it says XL! this is like the first time in my life that my pants size goes to so big! i don even have a L but now have a XL size pant! hahax, so this skinny jean seems to turn into a straight cut jeans instead of really tide fit skinny jeans then. hahax, but i hope that it won expand bigger and bigger after wearing& washing it a few times.

ohya, i dono y after i reach home, after bathing, my eyes feel really tired, (i almost forget to take out e contact lens too lol)
i think partly cos its been really long since i last wore contact lens, and after wearing it a days,
i concluded that its so troublesome to wear contact lens, and whenever i went to e wash room, e first thing came to my mind was like, where is my spect, hahax, but although it feels gd without spect but wearing that makes me either open my eyes to e biggest or close to e smallest lol. hahax, dam funny,
but i think i look better with my spect (:

btw, sam! u are being mentioned while we were out tgt,
we feel kind of bad& poor her, like we were out enjoying while she was alone at ubin having camp without us! and i guess she sure only get to eat instant noodle or bread for all e days, while we are eating all e gd food lolx. hahax
but nvm sam! we belive u will survive! :)

Sat
Mum & grandma come back from taiwan, after like nearly 4months,
its kind of mix feelings for me, happy, but alitle not excited too. hahax,
but its gd for me, cos she will be able to control my bro! hahax, so i no need to do housework for him, and e "citizenship", also won always come to our house. hahax.

but its really good to c her 2day after so long!
but i also woke up dam early in e morning to do a last minutes cleaning of the house be4 she comes back and see all the untidiness. hahax.
but i expect that she sure will still grumble and finds somewhere dirty or unclean, no matter how hard i tried to clean it be4 that, cos she is a person who really likes clean and just a hair on the floor will also make her go sweep the floor again lol. hahahx.
so true enough, after she gets back home, slowly more and more things are discovered by her, and cleaned by her again, and nag nag by her again lolx.
some of them are all my bro's fault lol, like his room is super dusty, and he wash the clothes but haven hang, etc, but all ended up im e one listening to my mum nagging lolx.

but my mum bought alot of new clothes for me! YAY! hahax,
really alot, and i get to choose first be4 give some to my younger cousins too. haha
i guess she sure spent alot of $ on those.
but my mum is always like that, if she buy for one, she will buy for all, cos she say must be fair and equal, so she is really generous!
thaty i realise that i hardly buy any clothes myself too, cos she always buys for me alr. hahax.

anw, tmrl is mooncake festival already! that's like so fast too!
i wan to eat moon cake! i only tried alittle, long long ago be4 sch end,
but i haven even eat any snow skin moon cake this yr! cos my mum not here, so is like only my bro, my cousin & i living independently, so nobody gave us this yr! ): so sad
i wan mooncake! anyone don wan to eat, give some to me k! hahax. thanks! (:

6 to 9 sept

2008-09-10T02:44:00.007+08:00

for the past few days mostly just go back to sch either for string practice or for string meetings.

Sat
wake up so early to go sch to attend vick's meeting on SPSE concert, but i was late cos i continue to laze on bed after vick gives me morning call. hahahx, so sry vick!
but e meeting was mainly for e yr1 sub-comm and in e end, for our main comm, only arthur, vick, camila & i came lol.
i didnt do anything also, just there to listen, hahax
so e meeting end around noon, so vick& i, later with some yr1s started to watch this scary movie at clubroom tgt, (vick was very funny, kept wanting to disturb and scare those yr1s, hahax) till one of e official, ning came pass our club! hahahx
then we decied to go to eat tgt at cityhall.
but in e end we have BK instead.
so e situation was kind of awkward at first cos vick was talking to ning, abt some stuffs, then those 3 yr1s, were talking abt their stuffs, so is like 1 tables with 2 diff topic, so im in e middle, listening to both then. hahax.
but after that ning left eariler, so left 5 of us, continue to chat alittle while be4 we all left for different place.
so i came home, feeling restless due to e lack of slp e previous nit, but later my aunt came,
and she said she was very hungry, so we went for an early dinner somewhere near our house, and have sushi! hahax, n this is like e first time when we didnt eat much but felt super full after that.
so lucky we didnt choose e buffet meal lolx.
so after that we walked home tgt with my bro and cousin.

Sun
met Vick for dinner at bugis. Its is like e first time we went out to eat just e 2 of us lolx, cos usually is with everyone.
he actually wanted to eat sushi buffet lol, but lucky he changed his mind cos i just ate be4 i met him. hahax
so we chat and had our dinner.
and after dinner, we suddenly got e craving for ice-cream,so we went to mac,
but guess wat, they tell us that ice-cream all sold out alr! i cant believe that lol, its like only wat time only lol.
so we were quite disappointed, so we even wanted to just go supermarket to buy n eat while we walked home later then lol. hahax
but in e end we decide to go to harbour front, cos like that vick then no need to send me home, and he can take direct train bk too.
so we went to mac and have our ice-cream. hahax
n vick started to have more craving and he went to buy another cone after e 1st ice-cream, hahahx, must be sugar rush, hahahx,
and we happen to meet Amin there too.

so vick and i have a nice long chat, and just be4 we left e place,
cant believe that both of us bought another ice-cream each! hahax,
cos its just so tempting, by those ppl sitting next to us! hahahx

so its really great n nice to meet vick!
and he is really really 1 of e nicest guy i noe!
i love him so much! hahax! mr baby polar bear! hahax
im so honored to have such nice friends like him! :)

Mon
met up to have dinner with CJ at PS. its been so long since we last met, but e first thing he ask me was still e same old thing, that whether he put on weight or not, lolx,hahax.

we have dinner at Manhattan Fish.
both of us ordered fish& chip & a drink.
it taste not bad, n e portion is so big! i think much more then fish & Co.
so we ate till we were so full after that lolx.
we wanted to catch a movie but there wasn't any nice show showing,
so after that we just went to sit at e outside area and chat.
but due to other ppl keep smoking, we changed e place after a while.

supposedly we wanted to go get a drink or smt, either at Starbucks or go Clarke Quay,hahax,or walked to esplanade, and even say till we go to his house 1st then he drive me back, etc...lolx
but we ended up just sitting by e side cos it started to drizzle. hahax
both of us were quite siaz cos there isnt really nice place to go to and nothing to do alr too, n its like kind of early to go home still lolx.
so we ended up sitting there and talk till 10pm, then we decided to leave e place.
so he left to go to his friend's house i guess and i went home.

it's been great to meet & talk to him as usual :)
and lucky to meet him be4 he goes into army.
n he say im those last few to c him with hair be4 he go cut botak for army! hahax
but i cant imagine how he will look like after he cut his hair. hahax
so all e best for army!
and thank u for e meal :)
cheers :)

Tue
went to sch at 4pm, to have my ADD meeting,
some of them didnt turn up due to some reasons,
but lucky those main ones are there so we settle some of the stuffs and roughly our games.
its like only 2 meetings and it can already show who are those who really put in efforts to think and who are really doing work and who are e slacking ones. lol. but i will still give them chances and judged them after e whole event. hahahx

so same things apply to GRACE, SAM, Joel ay!
hahax, don think u all are my best friends, then play play with me! hahax,
grace say i sound so fierce when i talk to her on msn e previous nit be4 e meeting,
when i ask her where is my 2 games, lolx.
hahax, but cos must be fair to everyone, so when i say everyone must think, means everyone,
hahahx, so now u all know im serious n can get fierce when it comes to doing work lol.
hahah, but im jk, n still so nice to u all lolx!
i need to put compulsory there otherwise those yr1 will just take it likely,
so try not to slack too much and esp infront of them! (although u all can be e helpers instead of OC) but try to be more attentively during e meeting, esp somebody lol...*cough cough*
always never listen to me in my meeting one!

so after that we have lesson with e violin teacher and it ended quite fast 2day.
so after that grace& i went to MIT club to look for sam,
to say HI & BYE to her & give her a big HUG be4 she left for LTC tmrl.
hahahx, it sounds like she is going somewhere and not coming back like that,
but that's wat she type in e msg to me. hahax
cos i noe she will miss me! miss us! hahax!
cos she is going alone without us!
and only with sherilyn and pat (1 day).
2 gals only, and rest of e guys,
but i believe she will survive there! hahax!

so after that grace& i had our dinner at staff center, and e fried rice taste not bad! maybe partly cos we were too hungry too. hahax, but e prawn taste gd! hahahx
n after that we even went to cityhall to eat Gelare! cos its waffle half price! hahax
but i feel e ice-cream taste nicer then e waffle, but its still worth it to eat it on tue! hahax!
so e day is spent & its time to sleep,
so shall update another time then.

SG Flyer

2008-09-04T00:01:00.014+08:00

Mon
went to take SG flyer.
we met up at Cini first, after that take train to cityhall & walk to SG flyer there to buy e ticket.
take some time to buy e ticket cos e person was so blur! n dono if was e machine cant work or wat lolx.
anw, we got e 730pm ticket, so went to have dinner at Popeyes, e fries is nice, but e fork is really useless! hahax, cant even pop e chicken or e fries, end up have to use hand to eat also. lolx.
we were lucky that there wasnt much people that day, so we got e whole cabinet to ourselves! :)
its really big in there and for e whole ride, we just keep taking pictures and more pictures. hahax
e night scenery was very nice, and e ride ended so fast! hahax (maybe cos we just keep taking pics)
after that we walked to e merlion there to take a rest and chat alittle.
and went home after that.

it was really a lovely nit, i really enjoyed myself :)
thank u! :))))

Tue
held my first meeting for SP ADD with some of e yr 1 sub-com and tgt with sam, grace, peiyun& joel. (thank u guys for offering e help for my event)
roughly discuss e main things with them, let them know what is this about and assig them jobs to do.
this is like e 1st time meeting them,i don even noe them, so i really hope that they will do their work, by e next meeting,
i should act fierce to them la during e meeting! compare to others, they are like so afraid of vick, cos he make it compulsory for them, so they all like so scared lolx.
but i didnt make it so cos i won wish to force any of them, cos i don think some of them has e abilities to do work too and no point forcing them when they are not interested in e event.
but i really hope that i can make this event successful.
i will try my best then.

after that have violin lesson with e teacher,
its like so long we last go violin lesson, even e teacher also ask me y we so long didnt come lol, until i also dono how to answer him.
we play this piece, although there is nothing much but i just cant get e nice sound,
really need more practice and hardwork for violin now.

but my arm muscles are aching now too, cos too long didnt play violin alr ):
but i really need to practice more n more now!

Wed
went to sch to collect logic we order. it cost $650!
but dono y it is dam big and heavy, while e logic express is only in an envelop lolx.
after that we (grace, sam, peiyun, vick, oliver, ginny & i ) went to chinatown to have dim sum buffet.
and oliver& grace's chinese are really like...*cough* hahahx.
and we just take everything whenever e person passby and asked if we wan or not.
but there is this lady very nice to us, everytime she come, she just automatically give us everything she has there, and all different kind. hahax.
so i really ate alot alot, till stomach going to burst alr lol. hahax,
but really fun and enjoyable meal with them 2day :)

there are just some thoughts in my mind...cant be spoken ):
and some bad prediction that i think it will just happen like...after...
i really hope it wont, its hard to recover.
i never wan anything, cos i noe where i stand, ):
but just continue keep this way is gd enough alr.

30& 31 aug

2008-09-02T03:44:00.009+08:00

SAT
finally met up with TC after so long when he goes into e army, cos i have been really busy with all e sch assigs n so, but we just met for lunch at marina that day.
met him at city hall at 2pm, and we ate at Thai Express, and be4 we start eating, 1 of his friends called him,
and is 1 of his sec sch friends and also in e army now still so they are kind of like can meet up once a week or so, so in e end he joined us together.
but only both of us ate cos he has alr eaten.
i order some XXX dish but it turn out wasn't that nice as shown in e picture! so e conclusion is, e pineapple rice is still e best then. hahax.
during the meal, it's like kind of awkward cos we dono each other, so for a moment, TC was talking to me abt our poly stuffs, then next moment, talking to his friend mostly abt army stuffs which i don really understand too. so after e meal, at 1st TC wants to go balling, but his friend doesnt wan, and we feel kind of awkward to go tgt too, so we decided to cancel e idea. hahax
so i tried to msg grace& sam, c if they are free to come earlier to meet me, anw we are meeting later at 6pm to watch a performance. but so coincidently, both of them didnt reply and answer their phone!
so they feel bad to leave me alone too, so decided to accompany me till my friends come, so we just walked to marina.
and i saw joanne there! but i was upstairs and she was at e 1st level so couldnt call her.
so in e end we deiced to go to sit down at coffee club instead of standing to chat.
so we have deserts each expect for TC who ordered a hot drink instead cos he say he is still sick.
and we begin to have a better chat and not outward anymore, cos his friend is a nice and friendly person too.
so we have a gd chat and i left first around 5pm when grace came.

so although this is our first time meeting each other, but can tell that he is indeed a nice person, very gentleman too, so indeed a great meal that day :)

( and i have this desert! its nice! and thanks TC for treating me! :)
(and this is a gift from him from aust, bought long long ago i noe, but thanks still :)
(at first he bluff me that this is penguin meat lol! )
(but it's a small penguin soft toy! )
(i think it will be really cute to c e real penguin marching!)

after that met sam, and joel at cityhall station around 6+ and we walked to Singapore Art Museum for a performance at 7pm by SP CMCC.
i shall not comment much on the singers, cos.... hahahx, but cant really blame them cos e sound system there really sux, e mic didnt even adjust so even a gd vocalist sounds horrible too.
so its just like a play, with a story and when it comes to the different part of the story, differnt people will just come out and sing songs that are related to the story.
so it feels like some singing show, where it furfills all those people who love to sing and maybe even dreaming about becoming a star lolx.
but we went there to support peiyun, peilin and kapo cos they are playing different instruments for them as the backup music whom are the most important for e day lolx. cos without them, they can never sing lol.
so enjoy watching peilin playing piano, cos she is really gd,
although peiyun is playing keyboard drums and can tell that she is kind of bored somethings cos it's not as high as playing e real drums, but she also played guitar for some of e songs.
and kapo is gd too.
so e whole thing ended nealy 9am if i m not wrong.
so we went to eat tgt at a nearby fc till 10+ then we leave to home seperatly.
joel, grace and i walked to suntec to take bus while e rest took train home.
i didnt noe that my bus journey is so short so i miss my stop lolx! cos there was this very cute baby sitting beside me, he kept looking at me and smile, so i was looking at him too, thus till i miss my stop lol, only realised when e bus driver closed e door and e bus moved lolx.
so in e end i have to walk backed so plus e journey walked to suntec there, it's like e same as taking e train and stop at tanjong pagar then walked home lol. hahax.

(e DMAT musicians! sry it was blur cos we were sitting quite far back)

SUN
met grace at vivo around 4pm, at first i wanted to search for a dress for attending my cousin's wedding soon, but there wasnt much time, cos we only met up quite late and grace have her family dinner later too.
but we still manage to shop, and we are so lucky to buy this very cheap top from FOREVER 21, guess wat, it only cost $9 lolx, but it doesnt have small size alr, only left a M and 2 L size, all 3 different colour.

i tried both and cant wear both just like that, but cant resist to buy cos its like my fav colour too and u rarely see it so cheap at such shop lol.
and grace keep persude me to buy! hahahx, so she asked me to wear it as a 2 piece kind then.
so in e end i bought 2, 1 M size and 1 L size then. hahax.

so after that went to Giordano and get this 2 simple plaint tee, cos i need 1 to match my e other clothe as e previous one had wore out.
so in e end at least i managed to get e piece i need and its fun shopping with grace. hahax.
so pls accompany me to go shop for e dress next time k :)

ok, shall stop here, will update soon when i get some of e photos :)

22 aug - 27aug

2008-08-29T00:21:00.011+08:00

Sat
at first its just a normal day staying at home till Barnet suddenly called me around 6pm, so we decided to meet up at vivo for dinner since both of us also haven taken our dinner and vivo are near our house.
so we ate at this restaurant called "Hei Sei Hui", i order this seafood noodle and its really delicious, no wonder Barnet is their usual customer. hahax, but its very exp, that plate cost nearly $20 i guess, n Barnet pay it for me! cos he say he own me a treat for my bday. heex :)

after that we went to have desert at bakerzin! OMG, its like 1 of my fav desert place can! (but i can rarely eat there, cos its very exp). Barnet say he didnt eat be4, so he ask me to recommend him, but end up he choose e desert for me still, cos all e deserts look too nice to me alr, heex.
so i had this chocolate soufflé and he had this mango mint drink, which i cant rem e actual name. at first he wanted to take e lychee fav, but after that when e person point that it wil be e green colour drink in e pic, then he decided to change to mango fav instead, but, it end up e same colour still lol. hahax
anw, e chocolate souffle is so so nice! i love it so much! n Barnet pay for e bill again lol! THANKS ALOT! :)

so after that we decided to catch a movie since e nit is still young, but vivo there didnt have any more ticket, so we decided to go to Cathy. On e way there, he was trying to buy ticket online using his hp, but dono y e system just seem to work, and we only realise that e movie is only at cini and not at cathy lol!
so we walk to cini and bought e 1150pm ticket, "journey to the center of the earth".
the movie was not bad, exciting at some of the parts.

after the movie, it was alr very late, n guess wat, we walked home!
Barnet walked me home from cini all e way to my house which is near outram here!
but this is suggest by him cos he say its very near, but can just stop anytime to take a cab bk if i feel tired but i cant belived that i actually walked home lol!
we walked passed PS, CQ, Chinatown and finally reach outram mrt station. so i thought that just another 15mins will reach my house alr, so just continue walking then, but, we ended up walking the wrong way, (cos i don noe how to walk from outram to my house, so i told him where my house is, and he say he should know where isit) but we ended up walking to the other side of the railway station and couldnt find my block. hahahx, so we ended up taking cab, lolx, then we realise that we walk 1 big round for nothing, cos its totally different side. lolx!
so we actually walked for 1/1/2 hrs! but ended up we still have to take cab at outram area where its so near my house,lolx! (really sorry and ps to Barnet cos i make we all walk so much extra)

so i reached home at 3am + but i cant belive that i actually walked so long n far! but i guess cos im walking with Barnet n he is very entertaining, thaty we didnt realise e time and distant we walked. hahax

but i didnt expect Barnet to say so much that day, esp abt his itp colleague, hahax, this is like e 1st time i hear him dislike a gal till so badly that can make him feel so annoyed every time she is being mentioned. hahax, so i really wan to know who is e gal, really very curious to c how she look like lol, hahah, cos she has make such bigh impact to Barnet! hahahx!

and i didnt expect to do all those that night, and i thought we just meet for simple dinner, and he pay everything for e nit! really didnt expect and feel so ps, cos let him spent so much! but it's indeed a memorable nit and experience :) really THANK U!

his line for e day: to infinity and beyond!
LOL, too many times its really will just make people ignore u! hahahx, but its all e gal's fault to make him go crazy alr! hahahx

and i miss both days of firework! arhh...plus my cousin told me that we can just watch it at home, but both days im out! such a waste!

Sun
meet up with ginny at 1pm at Bugis, actually wanted to go for dim sum but end up change of plan, so i bought her to eat e taiwan food at bugis :)
but it was raining heavily and we were all wet when we only cross a road with umbrella lol!
so had a gd and long meal there.
after that we went bk to bugis, wanted to just walk around, but both of us were really just walking aimlessly cos we are just busy talking, so ginny saw this place with e waffle, (her fav!) so we decided to sit down and have deserts! heex
so we ordered 2 deserts to share.
she actually wanted to eat e waffle but after that she saw this red bean with green tea ice-cream on toasted bread, which looks very tempting,

and i have this tofu cheese cake, as we were curious how this taste will be.
and both tasted very nice!!!

both of us just eat and continue talking.
hahahx, so we ended up eating and talking the whole day, but eating is such enjoyment, esp deserts. hahahx, and it really brighten our day! :)
so lets have more eating outing next time! :)

Mon
met up with tanu for dinner, but we ended up eating at her house, hahax, cos lazy her!
but its alrit, cos i miss home cook food too, and i really miss staying at katong, miss e time we can just meet up for dinner any time or going to parkway for a walk lol.
so lets meet up more next week k :)
and she bought me a green colour snoopy water bottle and light green pouch lolx! which are my fav colour and its so nice! justnice to put my ipod nano :)

Tue
stay at home e whole day cos i have e stupid mense!
miss e chance to go and visit geoff studio lol! n all of them say its very nice and fun lol ):
and was talking to sam on the phone the nit be4, then i know so much secrets from her!
this gal! hide so much secrets from me can! SO SO SO BAD! to me!
she know so much things abt me so long ago but hide it from me! for months lol! and only tell me that nit cos of another thing lol!
wat kind of friends is it SAMANTHA Kho!
i must purposely say outloud here! hahax!

Wed
meet up with our usual group, (samantha, grace, peiyun, peilin, vick, joel, jeremy and yq came along too). (its plan to be a celebration for sam and peilin bday)
be4 e dinner, suppose to meet up with e gals to choose our presents, but i wasnt feeling well, so didnt go shopping with them.
but they still went to buy shirts for me as my birthday present! :)
(although i really wan to get a top or a dress long long ago, but i still wan to say a big thanks for buying the t-shirts for me, i like it too! plus must esp must choose e "to be honest, im still hungry" shirt for me! lolx hahax, but they r really cute :) thank u all so much ! :)

we went to CQ for dinner cos we bought this card thing which gives some discount thing, had different pizza to share and in total it only cost $2 each! hahahx, cos we have free 1 pizza. but e pizza there is alrit only, neither very fanstic nor very bad.

actually wanted to go to some bar to chill out, but we couldnt cos jeremy is still under 18, hahax, but they also wanted to eat durian, so e vote is durian win, then alcohol. hahax
so we went bk to sam's house to put all our stuffs, then after that went to eat at Taiwan younghe soya bean outlet. we order different things and share tgt.
then they went to eat DURIAN! OMG! lolx, cos i don dare to eat durian!
but all of them love durian can! hahahx, so they r trying to tempt me, or trying to touch or make me smell durian while and after eating lolx!
but lucky im strong! i survived! hahax~

after that we went bk to sam house, and jeremy and yq left nearly 11pm, cos they couldnt stay over.
so we watched 2 movie in e nit. "prom night" and "meet dave".
"prom night" was so horrible, no storyline and its just killing and killing, not nice at all, is like totally waste time watching, and we were saying that lucky we didnt waste our $ to go to cinema to watch it e other time.

after that we watch "meet dave" and its alrit, at least better then e "prom night".
after watching this 2 movie, i think its already 4am+ or nearly 5am, i couldn't rem. and joel has already fall alsp long be4 while we were watching e prom night, so after that grace, peiyun and peilin went to slp.

so left the sleepless me, sam & vick still awake. we were just talking and suddenly it started to rain,its so lucky that we were still awake so sam can keep all her clothes in time at the balcony, otherwise all her clothes were be all wet e next day.

i really dono y that i became so awake after that, couldnt slp at all, n im lying under this spot light! hahax! (those ppl there will know wat im talking abt) so end up vick and sam also didnt slp cos of me i guess, hahahx.

but after around nearly 6am, we all are finally lying back to our place, trying to slp. vick is slping next to me, and i feel so ps to him cos everytime i make a turn or slightly move, he will know and awake by me even though its just a slight move, so im really sry to him, for making him cant slp well too. but he is really nice, (cos we don have enough blanket to use, so some of us only have tower, so i borrowed sam's jacket and use e tower to cover my bottom) so he wanted to lend me his tower at 1st, but i say no need,and i know he helped me cover my body with e tower again when i moved or so, cos its cold in e nit)

so i think we only slp for half hr, be4 sam's brothers and dad wake up to go to sch and work lolx.
and i can rem that i was awake twice by e light and sound, but the next moment, everything is back to dark again and all of them have left the house, left all of us slping. hahax.
and vick wake up very early in e morning to use e com, cos he need to settle some stuffs, so sam wake up to help im too, so after that sam was just too tired, so she just lied beside me and continue to slp then. hahahx.
but it was till grace wake up and her laughter break the silence and everyone is awake then. hahax. jkjk.

so we finally get up and went for brunch outside sam's house, but vick went off first cos he got smt on, so we have lots of food again.
after eating, we went back to sam's house and rest and soon, sam and i fall alsp while watching e tv lol, hahax.
so after that slowly we left 1 by 1.
joel left first to go for their class outing, and later peilin went off, and lastly, grace, peiyun and i then left sam's house tgt nearly 7pm.

so we really enjoyed ourselves and this stay over is just like a chalet cos all of us are really relaxing and it feel so free to do anything and no need to worry about any other things finally.
so let's have more meeting again soon :)

(the 8 durian lovers! so im e camera lady!)
(they ask me to take pic with it to act since i don eat durian! hahax)

(the gals :)

dehui & WS bday

2008-08-23T02:51:00.009+08:00

Thur
went to orchard to buy cake to give dehui a surprise celebration, so 1st we went to ISTAN, but e cake there wasnt big enough, so we went to TAKA, but couldn't find, so we bought bubble tea for ourselves instead, hahax, i cant drink milk tea at that hr, cos i won be able to slp, so i tried passion fruits for e 1st time, by..., it taste alrit, but just a little sour. hahax
so after that we went to WISMA, manage to find breadtalk, n bought a blackforest cake then. n its raining, and we r late, so we took at cab bk to sch.
after reaching sch, we find out where dehui were, so some of them were with him, while e rest prepare the cake n rest then.
finally, dehui came to fc5 with ym, so we appear infront of him with e cake, to surprise him. hahax.
each n everyone of us got a slice of cake to eat but we purposely leave 1 slice till e last, and enming smash it to his face! hahahx, i can still rem e moment when dehui is smashed with e whole slice of cake! hahax!
in e end, he is full of choco cake! but we also make a mess around there till e uncle so angry at us, hahax, but we did clean it up after that.

so while waiting for dehui and all to finish bathing,i met khas n dave at fc5 too.
had a nice chat with khas n dave, hahahx, cos he is dam entertaining.

so after that went with those bb guys to JE and ate kfc.
hahahx, they r funny people and we have a nice meal tgt. its fun :)
so went hm after that then :)
had a fun chat in e train, trying to guess e names too! heex! ;)

lastly, enming got him a small basketball, and all of us sign our name there,
and im glad that im invited to join too. but this zen ps!last min say couldnt come lol!
but lucky at least i still noe a few of them.
so i had a great day :)

n was talking to dehui again on msn in e nit after reach hm, n he seems very happy, cos we talk till we were so high n started playing e drawing tools, and start drawing all sorts of stuffs to each other.hahahx,

(i told him, we actually wanted to get a super creamy cake for him, thus i draw this)
(then he say so sweet!)
(but i was alr drawing this smashing cake towards him! hahahx)

anw, its gd to c him so happy, and hope he enjoy his bday & success in what he wan to achieve too :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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Fri
met up with sam&ws at marina to have dinner.
i met sam first at cityhall station and we bought a slice of cake for a little surprise for ws later as his bday is coming too.

so we went to eat ramen, and after finishing our meal, i took out e cake to give him and he is surprised! hahax! cos he didnt even expect this at all!

at first he is alr shocked when i msg him to ask him out for dinner lol, like e 1st time ever, so i reply him cos 2day is blue moon, lolx (which means "once in a blue moon" and i have been trying to tell him that) but he didnt get it! lolx he still went to check google for it lol, n reply me don have blue moon, lol,
so i reply him that, "too bad! u alr miss it, its only once in a yr, so u wait for next yr then", then he was like oklo.
BUT, e thing is that, he still didnt realise it until i say its once in a blue moon when i met him lol! (so dump can! lolx! hahahx)

but in e end, instead of celebrating for him, he still treat sam& i for dinner. hahax!
so we bought e cake n have a meal! WOHO! hahax! jkjk xD

after eating, we just went to walk around and we heard firework, then realise that no wonder 2day cityhall is packed with lots lots of people lol. super crowded!
n we actually wanted to go to e starbucks at raffles place, but it was full, so we went downstairs to look for anywhere that we can seat down and talk.
and actually we found this seats at a coffee cafe but this 2 people just snatch away from us! lolx! typically singaporean can! n so no manners, they alr got a table but not enough chairs so simply take when e previous customers stand up and were abt to leave lol. i should have sit down and ignore them lol!
so in e end we have no other place to go then BK. we sat there, without buying anything, hahahx, but not long later we left alr, cos its so hot in there and we were quite tired alr too.

(banana chocolate cake!)
(dump ws acting retard! hahahx!)

btw, ws, im quite gd alr lol, didnt post e other pic, which is more unglam! lolx hahax,
so better be happy!

lastly, wish u a happy 19th birthday! :)
but pls gain more brains! hahahx! jkjk

2008-08-21T00:54:00.005+08:00

went to vivo on wed nit myself!
cos i was too bored staying at home, thus i decide to go out myself to buy something nice to eat! hahax. wanted to buy the cake from the bakery i like, but they don have the usual one i eat, but i still manage to get another big muffin! heex
bought alot of other nice food too! n chocolate! xD
and i bought long john! with e cheese, quite crazy with the cheese ever since the 1st time i try. HEEx
but its not so nice for take away.

anw, vivo its so near my house, so i think i will just go there more often next time, cos it has almost of the shops there too :)

HOLIDAY

2008-08-17T01:39:00.005+08:00

Fri
had e worst gems test ever, cos i didnt manage to wake up in e morning to study, so i only use half hr to read roughly read through e whole thick notes, thaty nothing goes in too.
although its only mcq, but i also dono LOL
cos its either u totally dono or u dono which 2 to choose, cos both so close, i really almost never take eraser to throw as dice to choose my answer only lol!

after that rush bk to 2044 to complete midi. suppose thought will be done very fast but who noe last min, i was told to do somemore things on ex3 or so, so in e end have to rush,
so in e end i was very very late for e meeting,
feel so sry to let my friend wait for 1hr+ :(

went to vivo and have dinner 1st, met a few dmat yr1s there too, after that we went to watch money not enough 2, there only left e 3rd front seat role, n didnt expect it to be so long too, so by e time it ends is alr 1130pm or so, so we just went home after that.
but it was such a lovely day :) as i enjoy myself alot :))

and YAY! its finally holiday! xD
its e time that can finally rest, have fun and relax abit now.
but time is passing very fast, i have just finish my 1st half of my 2nd yr, and i can imagine how fast it will go to my final yr and graduate. i can still rem last yr, im just a freshie who enters into sp, n now im alr in e mid of my poly life.
but i can also imagine how crazy i will be by then, stressed by all e work and pressurized by all my classmates. haiz, so i have to make use of this holiday and work very very hard too.

i need a plan for my holiday!
n i need to practice alot of things,
i need to practice piano, i wish that i can start to play like when i was young!
i need to practice violin! cos i really admire those people who can play, n i m so motivated by that dmat senior, and e other time, playing forbidden love, that im going to start practicing again!
i really wish that one day i can perform violin on stage!

so somebody pls watch me n remind me to do all this constantly too, hahax.
n im still thinking shld i go back to taiwan during this holiday?
i really have not decided yet.

here are some photos, that r long to be uploaded.

(5 of us, random! hahax)

(my bday!, just awake by them! hahax)
(thank u all for e surprise on my bday morning! :)
(grace got e breadtalk balloons for me, when i jk say i want balloons for bday!hahax)
(the flower!)
(SNOOPY! & the bear vick gave me!)

(those pic below are taken when the 5 of them stay overnit at my house be4 e esplanade performance next day)

(this pic is just so cute!, its a baby winnie the pool, wearing peiyun's jacket! done by vick! hahax)
(we have this cookies& cream muffin for replacement of sam's bday cake first)
(joel with e winnie e pool)
(vick with my snoopy)

(before leaving to esplanade, in my living room)
(on the way to esplanade, on e truck)

(the 3 of us! for Micheal's hp performance at NUS)

Studying at mac for music theory test!

e hardworking gal, but doing MIDI, hahax
music theory drives them MAD! hahax

n slacking joel taking pic!

2008-08-10T02:39:00.007+08:00

thought and reflect after e talk e other day.
im really shocked by wat xxx told me, really courageous, but thank god that e thought is gone now, and im sry that my reaction wasnt really big, defintely not wat u expect and shld give, but that dissolve all e outwardness rit?
n don worry, we will still be in gd friends term :)

i know its random but i think it must be those old msges.
cos i just changed a new hp, but dono y suddenly alot of very old msg just appear, as old as early last yr.
so lots of memories just flashed back and some never fail to make me smile & laugh again :)

i realised that i have learn something and grow up everytime, each and everyday, meeting different people.
i think its just life!
each and everyone of them thought me something, although they may not even know, and some i only realised after they left or its gone, n im kindna sad,
but i wasnt disappointed now, cos its e process, e time, e precious friendships we have& everything we went through,
as long as we enjoyed, its gd enough already.
so i should say that im a fortunate gal, that i have many many people who are concerned abt me, n loved.

but perhaps im not fated to be loved, cos its not easy to win my heart. n its not easy to be with me. there are alot of barriers for me, and i don wan anything to affect my relationships with my other friends too.
so love is just so complicated and how i wish that i can just be those people who are easily falling in love.

although i have learnt to be more independent now, but sometimes i just need a HUG and a person who can share my joy, sorrow and be there with me.

u have appeared and has slowly involved more n more in my life now, how i wish that i can just hold on and u will be here forever.
im not in love, but i really enjoy talking to u, and i do treasure it alot :)

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2008-08-10T02:26:00.003+08:00

haven update for a long time cos have been really really busy with all e assigs.
finally finish REMT, DVPT, and now left with music theory exam, performance diary, midi lab ex, gems test :(

REMT presentation is nervous when it comes to ur turn, cos i feel so paiseh to present my song, cos of my bridge part. hahax.
but it great to hear everyone's song, cos everyone's song is so different with different styles and unique.
i love some of their especially :)
im going to learn how to make English song soon!

Midi test was horrible!
i leave 15 marks totally blank when i could have just have gotten them rit cos i know how to do but just wasnt enough of time. e worst is that e rest of qn, im so unsure of e answer, esp those listening qn, haiz.
im really going to depend on all e lab ex to pull up my marks then.

completed dvpt at last, although its kind of rush, but editing wasnt that bad, its fun when u discover more and more effects u can do after that, but we still need to improve on our shooting next time in order to produce better video.

lock post

2008-07-27T01:40:00.005+08:00

people ask me y i lock my blog,
e reason is..., i just lock it,
for me to think some stuffs & reflect! plus im really busy n has no time to update.

anw, have little jamming time with patrina in e studio on tue,(actually i didnt play much at all), just amazed by her, hahax, cos she play e piano so well!
n she teach me so blue style of music!
which is dam cool n nice!!!!

after that went to string practice tgt with sam n grace.
its like so long since e last time we actually went for e practice lol
but we didnt have lesson with e teacher, and we practice forbidden love instead of e classical songs in e bk.
after that we jam and play with grace playing e piano while sam n i play e violin of forbidden love.
and we r so motivated to practice n play violin lol, hahahx!
we also jam some blue n jazz tgt that pat has just taught me,
in e end, pat learn abit from reuben, while grace too, and i learn it from pat,
so in e end e master teacher of all, is reuben lol. hahax
but its so fun being able to play tgt and play! :)

wed
didnt go sch for my only class on wed cos i have bad bad diarrhoea!
started from 5+, 2nd time at 7am+ n e 3rd time at 10+ lol!
its so horrible! e pain just nonstop n keep coming thaty i didnt go sch in e morning.
after that was finally better after taking e medicine,
so went to sch to help out in e talentime,
cos im 1 of e judges.
there are some that who r really gd, while some really nervous, and 1 really nonsense lol!
n pat! e most entertaining one!
hahahx, come in to chat chat with e judges one, and just play her remt song lol, hahahx

thur
feel like totally waste time going to sch,
other then i finally present finish my music theory,
n didnt do anything during dvpt too, cos we all haven start filming yet, (DIE! when e deadline is just 1 weeks time!) so we just watch some show, cant rem e name, lol

anw, some things i wan to say to my friends,
when i didnt talk much, that doesnt mean im unhappy, angry or wat happen,
it can simply just mean that i m tired,or i just don feel like talking, no mood to get high, but im not emo, n i never wan to attract attention, cos all i wan is to be alone, so u all can just don bother me, its ok.
and there r just too much things in my mind,
that i need to think,
it doesnt mean must be smt related to u guys, but i didnt show n say out anything cos i don wan to bother n affect all of u, cos i just need to think myself, and smt its really tiring n hard to put on a smile all e time to hide all ur sadness behind.
but don bother asking me y or wat happen,
cos if u noe me well, if i choose not to say, it means no, i won say,
n i can just solve or recover by myself, cos CHUNHUI is strong n INDEPENDENT gal!
n if i really need to say, i will say it out myself, n get u all to be my listener,
so don worry abt me.

i feel that i have changed, in some thinking and e way i c things,
even more mature now, more deep and understand more n more things as i went through all e things each n everyday.

but to some ppl, i dono if that is gd or bad to u,
that u say chunhui change,
that is cos u don really noe me,
i can say, it can be hard,
unless u can put urself in other people's shoe and think.

chunhui is a listener and thinker,
but not a person who easily express her deep deep down inside feelings or things to anyone easily,
unless u r really really very close to her, or she really cant handle herself n extreme that she just need u to listen to her, n be her side, that's all.

but chunhui strongly belive in herself,
that she will be more n more independent n mature each day, will treasure and enjoy, fill her everyday to e fullest! :)

but i wan to thank xxx for e calls,
didnt expect at all,
although we r not very close n u dont no much of my stuffs,
but thanks for all e jokes n all,
its nice talking to u, cos that is when i don have any pressure and can leave away all e unhappy things, and forget abt them, and cheer up to be happy again ;)

2008-07-21T00:04:00.003+08:00

lots of things r like finally over now!
finally finish bums, MUST, but haven present yet, and performance 2day.

didnt slp much for e whole wk esp wed& thur.
went to sam's house aro 11+ (last min decision) to rush our MUST presentation tgt,
n i finish at 5am, only manage to slp awhile till 6+ where we left sam house to sch.
and for total, we have 100 slides!
OHMAN, that is like super alot, thaty we only manage to present sam's part on thur.

didnt slp e whole of thur nit, NOT AT ALL, not even 5mins of nap! to rush BUMS assig!
only slp for an hr after i reach hm at 6+ or 7pm lol.
how amazing lol!
i cant even belive myself too!
but i guess is e tea n coffee milk that keeps my awake, but e brain was dead aro 4 or 5am + too. so could not concentrate n think too, so i just rush n rush to finish, missing lots of points to add in, but just hope that its not that bad still.
after printed my work, bath again n rush to sch in cab again! cos is jimmy class, but i was so tired that half way i really cant take it anymore that i can just fall alsp any time lol.
n after e lesson end, i went to e toilet, was shock to c myself in e mirror, my eyes were so swollen, face so pale, and looks dam horrible can lol!
during lunch, my cousin n his friends saw me in sch, they were like telling me, this is how tired an person look like when she never slp e whole nit lol! (cos on thur nit, they were in my house, rushing their presentation tgt with my cousin, and didnt slp at all too)

but i slp during my gems class lol, sry, i couldnt help it.hahahx.
n have recording till 10pm in sch.

(n thank u for accompany me e whole nit, n helping, really thanks alot, i think i will just die without ur help!)

sat was fun, sam, grace, peiyun, joel n vick came to my house to stay over, cos we wan to rehearse our performance 2day tgt with e yangqin.
but it feels more like a stay over, for fun instead for e performance practice, cos we r like so relax n just enjoy ourself lol.
we have mac dinner,
we have a muffin for sam to surprise her, hahax, but without a candle, so vick has to use a lighter to pretend to let her blow it. hahahx
we have a little drink, n this grace was drunk! lol,
after that have movie marathon, watch "red water" first, after that dono wat show, so ....., nvm, shall not mention here, thanks to grace lol! ahhaahx, and watch saw in e late nit till 5am end n slp.

grace, sam n peiyun share my queen size bed, vick n joel share a super single bed, n i slp on a singer size tatamin, but i will never going to slp on that again next time! its so so super super hard! make my whole body aching! bone so pain! sld have just slp on e sofa instead lol!

but i like e stayover, its fun with all u guys! (:

shall upload e pic after i get from joel (:

so off to bed now, nitz

19 Birthday

2008-07-13T23:02:00.004+08:00

THANK YOU everyone who wish me! :)

have been very busy and tired this few days, lots of things happened, and kinna affected me, e way i c birthday, and makes me feel very sad, disappointed and this also remind me of wat Nut told me last yr, that its just a bday, still got many yrs to go lol!
this is like the first time im not excited for my bday to come, and cried many times be4 e day come and on e day itself :(
cos im hurt by U! tanu! so hurt!
my wish for u all was so simple, just a meal tgt, so easy to be done, but yet, this is how u treated me! n since that day, not even a single msg, or call n even till 2day,where my bday has alr over, i hear ngt from u. its so disappointing, this is how u always say best friend shld be?
im disappointed at myself too, realised how lousy friend im.

i fall alsp beside my laptop on fri nite, cos im really really tired, so im sry to those ppl who talked to me, so sry abt it.
i slp till late afternoon on sat, supposed to meet WS at nit for dinner since he is e 1st to ask me long go, but i received late msg from my youngest aunt, asking me to go her house to have dinner 2nit, with my uncle and little cousins, so i have no choice to go,n cancel e dinner with WS, i feel very bad of last min cancel, really, and after i received ur 1st reply after i told u, i feel so so bad and my tears just came down my cheek, i feel dam bad, and suddenly i feel that i have treat u as a friend for granted :( but after receiving ur next msg, and apologized to u, i feel much better alr. (Im really sry!)

so i went to my aunt house alone at nit, (met my bro be4 i leave and i thought he was going tgt too, but his reply was "no", and i asked y not going? his replied was "cos im tired!"LOL!
u r e one who tell me abt going to aunt house in e nit, cos my little cousins wan to celebrate my bday tgt, but now ur reason for not going is just cos u r tired. LOL!
so much things happened and my mood was alr down and now he throw me with this, i feel so sad, i tried to control my tears in e cab, but e tears just couldnt obey me. i always thought that no matter what happen, he will always be e one there for me, and really someone i can depend on too, but that just hurt me.
really i reached my aunt's house, she asked me abt him, but i just say,i dono, he just say no when i asked him if he is coming or not.
i tried to control my emotions infront of all of them, esp my little cousins, cos they r so happy to c me, and to them, bday suppose to be e happiest day cos they got to receive presents!
how i wish i can just be like them lolx!
we just have a simple meal, my aunties and uncle just simply talking among themselves, and my littles cousins addicted on watching their show on tv, so i was like alone, but still trying to puts on a smile infront of them.
thus this is like e first time i say yes when my uncle asked me if i wan to drink or not, i drank a cup of ice-wine, cos my mood was really down, so im hoping that i can just get drank and forget abt all these unhappiness.
so after opening e wine, we cut e cake. this is like e only time when everyone finally gets e attention to me while singing e bday song to me.
but at e pt of time, i couldnt even think of any wishes so i just blow my candle away then :(

after that, eveyone is back to wat i have just mentioned eariler, and we left my aunt house aro 11+ then.
reached home be4 12, and received msg from ferz, and soon he appeared downstairs of my house with my present.
he pass me e snoopy, and its like finally i can took it from him, after like 6months? where it suppose to be my christmas present lol!
anw, but i was having a little headach, most probably of e wine, so my mood wasnt high, and excited at all. (im really sry, i noe it mean to be a surprise for me, alth i alr expected u will do this, but im sry still for e reaction i gave and response. )
but im really thankful for wat u have done, and thanks for e gifts, i really like it alot! :)

and smt happened in e morning that really surprised me!
i was still slping but e next moment i was awake by my dear friends, sam, grace, peiyun, peilin, joel& vick!,singing happy bday song to me in my room!
OMG! im really shocked! cos im still slping and when i wakeup to c them all in my room and with e cake in their hand, im really really shocked! lolx!
i didnt even noe they came! cos grace gang up with my cousins with this! lol! hahax!
but really thank u thank u all 4e lovely surprised!
im really touched by all u guys,and thanks 4e coming still when i noe that some of u have things on after that.
this is really going to be so memorable that i will never forget! thank u all! really! u all have really brigten my day! THANK U! I LOVE U LOTS LOTS!

its not wat kind of presents u get, is e thoughts and hearts that counts which r e most important! and who can u spend it with!
im really glad that i have met such lovely friends in poly, n they really those ppl that i really care & treasure alot!
THANK U ALL AGAIN!

those ppl that wish me (sms) after 12midnit

peilin (exactly on e dot!)
ferz
patrina (but she did wish me eariler be4 12 alr, but wish me another time again!heex)
joel
kangli
grace
samantha
peiyun (prue)
WS
Shaojie
Berlyn
cynthia
joyce song
tracy song
my aunt
khas
Vanessa goh
CJ
Timothy
Shun
Dhanish
Camila
Ginny
Arthur
Denise
Barnet
TC (by call)
Michelle
Shiyun
enming on msn,(but he did wish be4 it comes)
dehui (on msn)
jet (on msn)

but i met afew of them at esplanda and they wish me again when they c me,
like pat, jeremy and yq. thank u :)

and many of them wish me through blog here and friendster,
like samantha (apex), meiqi, fq, bro's friends, alpha, shiyun, camila, kellyn, adelin,
samantha wong, sheri, enqi
thank u all :)

here are those belated one
ericson
nut (by call e next day after my bday, super surprised, but he claim that he took his precious time to make a call for me lol! so which make him talk to SAMAN 2 min less lol, hahax, but thanks still :)
darren
sheryl& xanthus
and many others who happen to c me in sch.
and my michele meiling, so happen to met her at mrt!
thank u all too! :)

ohya, i must to say a big thank u to all e main comm ppl in SPSE too, thank u all for e surprise cake for both camila and i after e interview for yr 1s!
thank u! :)

next up coming, will be our dear sam and peilin's bday!
hahax! finally to their 18 ys old! :)

2008-07-10T01:21:00.002+08:00

i overslpt 2day till 10am, when my class start at 10am! so end up didnt even go sch 2day.
so went to Sim Lim square with my bro to get a new headphone, and it cost me $250++ lol!
didnt thought of buying such exp one, but thanks to my bro, go tell e person that e budget is aro $200+ -, so wat i plan to buy be4 that, (e one i used to have be4 it spoil) e person comment that it wasnt gd enough, lol, so end up buying this AKG brand headphone.
Hope it really gd and can use it for long term.

after that met sam& grace at library to research for our MUST assig.
there are lots of things to research and read and we have to done it be4 this coming mon too.

so i guess that my weekend will be filled with assigs and my bday be companied by assigs again!
that's how sad ):
but i feel even disappointed and sad was e msg i received from my sec friend 2day.
i just asked if we could meet up on sat instead of sun, cos i think my sun will most probably have to finish MUST grp presentation and do BUMS assigs too. but e reply i get from her was so.... )':
she said she cant cos she has other plan with other ppl alr, and cant just anyhow change like that, and if i don wan to meet then just forget abt it. her tone was so bad and replied all those things when i only just ask her if is possible for us to meet up on sat instead of sun, be4 i even say anything else,lol.
does she even rem that my bday is coming?lol
i didnt want or wished to get anything or asked them to get my anything 4my bday, all i wan is just a time that e few of us and meet up tgt, and simply just have a meal and chat, that's gd enough alr, since its like so long we last met.

but i feel so sad, and neither excited for my bday to come too.
cos i don wan to be filled with doing assig and more assigs,(but no choice)
and my parents wasnt here with me,
i cant be with those people i wan to be with,
its like meeting up for just a meal, is that so hard?
those people u care n treasure alot, don really care n take u to heart,
then wat is e pt of celebrating?
and im just not excited as compare to all my dear friends now, who r finally turning 18 this yr.
wat so big deal of bday, my 18 bday has just pass like that, n wat so special abt 19 soon.

maybe i just failed to be a nice friend and not important at all...

2008-07-06T22:58:00.003+08:00

lots of things happen and im just so busy to update.

july is a busy month!
n BIRTHDAY month!
so many ppl birthday is in JULY!
my pocket has big big holes alr, on buying all e birthday gifts!
but its ok, cos its once in a yr! and many of them r finally turning 18!

so we celebrate vick's bday, late june, and denise 18 birthday!
shall update e details e other time,
for denise. u can proceed to her blog,
but sadly that we didnt manage to take any pic with vick on his bday!

other then those bday celebrations,
everyday is doing assigs and more assigs, ):
i still have
2 midi ex, going to be 3 on mon,
REMT recordings,
BUM 3000 essays, which i haven even start and think of wat i wan to do,
MUST presentation, 45 min,
performance practice,
DVPT,
and all this are due so soon! ):

and i have a horrible weekend staying at home, trying to rest, cos i vomit 3 times, dirrohoea 3times too for e whole sat, + crams! lol, all come to tgt that i feel like dying alr LOL!
so im sry to sam n grace that i didnt meet them at e library on sat, and ferz for giving me&sam e tickets for NDP, but couldnt go in e end ):

2day went to 1 of e dmat senior,siewting, house to borrow her yangqin for our coming performance, thanks to sam and her parents, for fetching me and helping me to transport all e way from kovan to my house. Thanks! (: but we still have to think of a way on how to transport to esplande on e actual day! i think we will need a van! hahax

2008-06-19T01:47:00.006+08:00

e previous post is deleted!
cos i promised that no more such post and i shall make my words then.

2008-06-18T02:13:00.003+08:00

time is just passing very fast that our 3 weeks holiday is going to over soon.

Thur,
i could rem that i went to sch to do my REMT demo again, and i was the last one to leave the lab as they will closing alr. so met ferz n mutu. As we all wasnt really hungry so just wanted to eat smt light as i have dinner at home too, so after long discussion, i suggest to come to tanjong pagar here! so we went to BK. HAHAX! n be4 we even step into BK, somebody saw somebody! hahax!
but shall i continue e story? HAHAX... i think better dont, later the person scold me! hahax! but just very funny incident happen, n wat can i say is SG is just too small! HAHAX!

Fri.
have a dim sum buffet at chinatown with e SPSE main com, and those helpers for FOC. But in e end only 10 of us able to make it, and 5 are we DMATers, hahax.
and we all were very hungry be4 we reached there, so when we reached there, we simply just ordered almost all e food we want, and when e waitress push those food truck and come to our table, i simply just take alot alot of food, lolx. but i think after that the waitress wasnt really happy serving us, cos we like keep ordering, lolx, but there is this waiter really nice, whenever he pass out table, be4 i say wat i want, he will just give me n alot of variety to choose too. hahax.

anw, we have lots of fun, joy n laughter over e meal, esp camila, hahahx, she is really so blur and innocent, that arthur & vick keep making fun and tease her. lolx. Get to know more of emily too, cos she is another crazy gal too lolx! thaty i was thinking how come our committee members all crazy crazy one, like e joker president arthur, polar bear vice-president vick, and lala secretary camila, and sectional leader emily, hahax, so im e normal one! hahax!
but i still love them alot, cos they r all really nice & great people, that i belive is 1 of e reason that make all our committee members to work well with one another too.

shall upload some of e pic we took after i get them soon :)

Mon,
met ferz for "breakfast" (hahax, cos by e time i met him was abt noon alr) cos we all craving for e kaya toast and e drink, so we went to e xin wong at queenstown, (HAHAX another small world! hahax) n we order kaya toast, frence toast, and another butter bread, LOL, after that we realise that its just too much for us, n ok, sry, my fault, shldnt order so many. i dono y my stomach just so pain after eating e frence toast, so i simply didnt eat e rest lol, and e thing is that, after this meal, im meeting my sec sch friends for sushi buffet lol!
so met her at cine after e quick breakfast with ferz, and we ate sushi buffet, lolx!
i wasnt even hungry and stomach so pain also, must be ate smt wrong e day be4, but cos she alr decide to have e buffet, so i no choice just to go also, and this is like the first time i ate so little in e buffet! lolx!till my friend also say me and feel that i ate too little alr lol.

anw, have nice and happy to be able to meet up with her,cos this is like so long since we last met to go out to eat tgt too, have a really nice chat with her, met her and sit inside e sushi place from 1+ to nearly 6, be4 we pay our bill and after that just walk along e orchard road and just talk.
and she give me an early bday gift! i was so surprised cos i didnt except that at all, and her bday also july, but i didnt get her any gift, but just a box of green tea chocolate from taiwan lol.
but after so long we graduate and last met, its still nice chatting with her and im glad to have her as my friends! :)

say abt e bday gift, that remind me of e time! time is passing so fast as i can still rem my bday last yr and it seems like just past not long ago only lol!

im getting old alr!!!
still rem my wishes last yr, but i think all didnt come true too (or maybe 1 of them i make it come true? :(

i think its so irony that i m kind of excited for my bday to come as i just wish to celebrate with all my lovely friends n family, but i also don wish to come so fast cos that means i m getting another yr older alr, and yet i like didnt achieve wat i wan for e past 1 yr and didnt really do anything, lolx, so which means that its an alert telling me to stop slacking,stop playing so much, shld know which is e propriety and its e time to really work hard and be even more mature!

i didnt really want anything or craving for any esp bday gift, as its always e thoughts that counts. and i just wish that i can be with all my dear friends, even just meet to have a simple meal tgt, im happy already.
As i really love and treasure all of my dear friends and people i know, so i just wish that our friendships can just last forever forever! <3

2008-06-11T23:45:00.004+08:00

didnt update so quite a long time...so i will just type wat i rem then...

although its school holiday now, but im going bk to sch almost everyday! lolx. haiz :(
last week was busy with sp open house.
but was fun being e tour guide on the tour bus, esp doing it with peiyun. hahax!
we both must be too hungry and slpy that morning still that we intro and add in abt of topic abt food instead of the courses in sp etc, esp peiyun, hahahax. she was like telling this group of sec sch gals, that if u all wan to know more abt e diff fc and food in sp, i can don tell u abt other things. hahax, and we get our pay for the last open house!

also met alot of ppl for dinner,

met jemie, and ferz tgt for dinner. It was so coincidently cos jemie was my sec senior while ferz& her know each other from primary sch, same speech& drama class. lol. It was like the first time i have the chance to eat with her ever since we graduate from sec sch. It was fun for both of us cos we keep shooting at ferz when we talk, hahax, the power of KC gals.

he say its easy to handle 1 KC gal, but when 2 KC gals come tgt, it is like... hahax... overall, i enjoy e meal :)

also met up with adelin, WS, samantha wong, shawn with dinner e other day too. Adelin & WS are dam funny still, hahax...really laugh alot and have fun eating with them.

celebrate brother's 21 yrs bday too, ate at the jap resturant at suntec, cant really rem the name, but e food is awesome! hahax! sea food r fresh and delicious and i just love e deserts! hahax!

shall upload e pic next time after i get them.

also went out with ginny after 1 yr, suppose to be a gals outing, but then..., nvm, anw, its nice chatting with her, but she seems very stress, haiz, DMAT course is crazy n stressful! i wonder if i can make it through or not also :(

went out to vivo on sun, have deserts at bakerzin, order the warm chocolate cake. n its dam dam dam nice. first u eat the ice-cream, after that eat the warm chocolate cake, and the chocolate just melt inside ur mouth! lolx! although its quite exp but its worth the price, really.
After that went to airport to send my cousin off to aust. And just be4 he wan to go check in, smt happen. he cant find his flight on the board, after checking the paper, it says 0030am, 8 jun, LOL, which means his flight is on sat, e day eariler, instead of sun!
He miss his flight! hahax, everyone there was laughing,cos many of his friends all came to send him off, have friends from primary to sec sch to church friends lol.
but he says that he told e person he want his flight on sun, and the person even pointed on the calender the date on sun, 8jun to him when he booked the ticket, so in e end was e person who make a mistake lol, but my cousin also forget to check it earlier on. so we went to the counter to check and finally we asked and manage to change his flight, but still have to pay extra $50+ for the delay.
This is like so drama that nobody will expect, hahax, but eventually, he is still lucky enough to get seats to fly bk to aust on time be4 his sch start e next day.

also went to watch ku fu panda, its such a cute & funny show, ahahx, laugh alot, but so bad that my stomach wasnt feeling well during the show, the pain keep come n go, so annoying, that many times i really wan to walk out of e cinema alr, but after that i still mange to control till the end of the show.

yesterday is a past, and tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift, thaty its call present! hahax!
just love the panda, hahax, so cute :)