i feel so sad about my result, esp ET, bec i can sing during class but just that i m always too nervous when the exam comes and i can never overcome this fear. MIDI was bad too, bec i have been slacking alot for it, and only till sem 2 then i realise wat i have learn so far in sem 1's work. LOL
but i expected too, because i always last min and alot of the time wasnt really paying attention during class. plus i already lose out alot of things like the music basic, e talent, (cant be compare at all), to all my classmates, everyone of them have their own talent and i really dono wat i m gd at :( really lousy.
everyone, esp those 01 ppl, have already start planing and working on their yr2 projects and so, while i m still slacking at home everyday now, and haven even start a thing on my song, also haven do MUST, and i really dono wat i m going to do when sch start, and everything will be in a mess and will be start rushing like mad again. plus this time, we r going to do a song on our own, so we cant rely on our grop mates or so, and have to be independent, and i realise that i dono lots of things abt e recording, and even simple stuffs, and how m i going to do it on my own next sem!

alot of time i have been thinking y i choose DAMT, and i shldnt even come into this course, because i m not gd enough, i know nothing and wat's e big deal that i learn be4 piano last time when i was young, once u stop for yrs, u forget and u cant play now.it needs time n lots of practice. despite that, it is still not gd enough if u know how to play an instrument, DMAT course require u to know alot, keep contact with diff variety of music, diff styles, genres, and ur creativity, babes and jimmy jap say be4 once, "if u have the music talent, means u have, if u don have, u can never force to have."
i feel so lousy of myself, i cant play any instrument well, worried abt next yr performance module too. every time i know that i must work hard and tell myself to work hard but after awhile, i will start to slack again. :(

but i still wan to thank all my friends who have help me through this yr, esp my close friends, if there wasnt u guys always there for me,help and give me encouragement and support, i can never make it through.

so from now, i can not slack anymore, i have to start planing my time, make use of the previous holiday left, to learn and improve on my music theory and others. i have to work hard because no matter how hard other people can help me for the time being, when it comes to e final, i still have to depend on my own to work. i do not wan to disappoint my parents, alt they didnt give me any pressure and didnt say anything after knowing my result.
although my father keep telling me not to worry, u don need to compare with other people, but to urself is enough, its ok that u know nothing now, but going to sch is to let u learn and its never to late to learn, but all depend on u.

i must work hard now, because i don wan to waste other people's effort n time, and esp my yrs in poly and my life, not achieving anything.
if u have the passion, is gd, but not gd enough, u still have to face the reality where u cant be compare with others and u cant make it thro, BUT, as long as u work hard, i believe there will be a day for u to success.