Tuesday, July 28, 2009
im feeling super super tired and unhappy and pissed off just be4 i left school 2day.
shall not mention who,what happen or watsoever here, but when i got the time, im so going to post up my previous post! so that %$£@ can start thinking too!
anw, booking studio is starting to be worst then going for a war!
i reached at 620 or 630am 2day with sam and there are alr 6 people Queuing outside! lOL!
when the actual timing for studio booking is 830am can!
those year 2s are really more crazy then us and this is really going so so bad and crazy!
but i hope its just 2day, as other days wasnt that bad still. so here is the msg to all the year 2, pls stop pushing the timing earlier and earlier! cos its really so early that i think 1 day we all can just camp outside comtec when it close and wait till the next morning it open lol!
and im super super super tired now, but still got to do my drums first,
cos tmrl is recording, and yet i haven sent to peiyun the final one yet.
so im off to do POD now then. BYE.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Birthday!
finally met up with michelle and tanu e other day cos they finally came to my house, after like 1/1/2 yr since i move to outram area? hahahx, cos michelle drive thaty they finally come to my house to visit me too but its really really great to see both of them, esp michelle cos time pass really so fast that i have not see her for half a yr already too!
thus, seeing them is really really great and happy.
although its really a short time spent at my house, eating & chit chat & playing wil, but time past so fast yet meaningful! (:
so i shall let the picture continue e post then.
(tanu trying to light up the candle for me,but she told me that just now was too rush& last min alr so can only get this, dono wat to buy 4me, but this slice is her fav lolx! haxi! wat a friend i have rit! hahax)
(ended up i only have the strawberry only lolx)
(michelle wants to be taller then me! hahax)
(the 2 coolest gals!)
(i feel michelle is really dam cool when she drive, cos partly i still cant belive she can drive now alr! & we have know each other since pri 5 till now!like such a long time! & now we have grown up & she is driving me! hahahx& she is like only 18++,not yet 19 alr got her license alr & waiting for HER CAR to arrive next week lol! super lucky & fortunate gal! )
but so sad she say i move house, otherwise she will love to drive me anywhere! cos she say my house is too far from hers ):
(the end)
(seeing all these picture, reminded me of smt that vick told me be4, a person will/ is pretty when u smile from the heart & my smiles that day were all deeply from my heart thanks to my dearest!s & its LOVE! )
and below was another day spend, dinner at town & e food is good! (:
and i got this super BIG BOX of present! *purposely* to make me carry it around! to attract attention only!
thanks ay! make me the centre of attraction that nit!
(very nice views)
(my eyes will only big at this moment? hahax)
(lastly, we went to tcc to have some dessert,
we were very funny cos we took bus all e way to PS where orchard also have tcc,
tcc wasnt in the plan first,
but i think we make a good choice cos we met a nice waitress! hahax,
she is so friendly& funny,
after taking our orders, dono how she know or MUST BE E BOX TOO BIG beside me,
she asked me if it was my bday 2day,
but actually i wanted to tell her no, its ystd,
but she go prepare a candle & even lighter just for me, to put on my tiramisu cake! (although she say abit hard to put on it) but so sweet of her la! (:
and here goes finally to make a proper wish & nice desserts! (:
and the picture i like the most of the day! :)
so its really a great day spend although its just dinner,
but nice& special thought of the gift to make it diff,
cos without the box, it will be just even an ordinary soft toy that i have to carry it around when i receive it? or e wrapper lol,
this way did fill me with some anticipation and surprise (:
but thanks for arranging this meal with me some time back alr & u the only one! (:
to make me feel that little special on e special day! (((:
thank u my bestties! (:
but of cos, thank u all e people who msg me, or call me, or through fb or anywhere just to wish me, THANK U!
when u wish with heart, defintely i will felt it & i deeply appreciated too! (:
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
haix,
birthday is just a bullshit and ordinary day for me.
but just ppl seeing me and saying a sentence of happy birthday to me only.
i didnt felt the joy and excitement in it at all&
this is really so bad that first time im saying this kind of things here.
i felt so sad and pathetic that i even have to go buy my own cake and when i rush down all the way to the place justnow, hoping to just get a slice of cake to treat and celebrate myself,
Y DOES GOD EVEN DON ALLOW ME to do that TOO! it just something so small and yet it don even let me achieve it too!
and my mind was just full of thoughts and thinking of..... and more....
hurts me,
all the broken promises again and again really hurts me, from family to friends and those people i think are important and special to me,
im disappointed and also at myself cos maybe im just a too lousy friend,
who doesnt deserve nice treat from ppl!
but i will not and shall not trust any ppl easily now, esp guys, cos they are just jerk& big liar!
all these really make me couldnt even control justnow to tear while waiting for the bus to go home and on the bus home and even alone back home.
but i felt like a big fool crying over it now.
its the just the start of my 20 yet i had felt so badly,
and its also e only yr that i have no cake at all and no wishes made cos every year also won come true,
this day is really nothing special cos i still got to go do the stupid pam report now! ):
Sunday, July 12, 2009
2day wake up feeling something bad is going happen and unwell.
and true enough, THANKS TO ****** arg!
for my mense to come at this time, at this day,
where i pray it dont and dont!
but it just did,
to make me feeling very tired the whole day,
no mood and couldnt concentrate to do work at all,
and unhappy abt my birthday too!
and thinking of all the things i have to do now, be4 tmrl morning,
and whole day in sch from morning till 6pm class end and yet still have to discuss and do the stupid PAM presentation for tue
and also another stupid report to submit on tue!
arg, everything is so pack and cram at this day! YYYYY!!!! stupid PAM!
and thinking abt birthday, it didnt excite me at all!
everything makes me cry.... )))):
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Saturday, July 11, 2009
i am here to say how tiring and shed i was rushing madly for the arranging assig in the previous NITS as i totally DIDNT SLEEP AT ALL!
for wed nit, i was rushing madly for arranging assig and i have to say, this is the first time i controlled so much be4 the F really come out from my mouth! lol, my curse or get angry at the stupid FINALE while i do my scoring. COS IT SUCKS!
ahahahx, but i still mange to conquer it!
wed nit is really a tough and busy night that i was so stressed up but doing my work for the whole night without slacking or taking a break cos i know that i have not enough time to finish and i keep telling myself to concentrate and concentrate (:
thus, i have a cup of milk tea and did my work all the way from nit to thur morning 8am, where i really couldnt take it anymore to have a nap till 10am+ when wz called me ( and lucky she called me, cos i still haven finish lots of my work that time)
then we continue to rush rush rush rush
but everything goes hair wire suddenly at the last point when i was just extracting the individual scores out from finale and wanting to print them, everything goes bad and i have not enough time to change them properly and its just left with the printing of the final scores but there isnt time left! if the time was slower by 15 mins or so, so maybe just another 1/2hr for me, i could have rush to sch in time before the deadline 4PM to submit it!
but sadly i dont and i couldnt, when the clock struck its hand at 4pm sharp, i felt a big hit on me, i had lost to the war!
cos i have been trying so hard and come so far and its only till now that i lose to this kind of problem! hahahx, i sounded so drama here, but its really how i felt.
and same goes to wz, cos we have been encouraging each other abt not giving up and e idea of handing in late,
but unfortunately, both of us lost to this war.
so actually i could have handed in at 430pm, but thinking of handing up at 430pm and next day apply the rules of handing up late, thus i didnt print out the full scores yet still,
and went to sch to find peilin as she asked me to lend her camera.
and this is also the first time i see a recording of drum session to be done so fast and i reach just in time, be4 peilin's friend left cos he finish the recording in like 1 or 2 tries only lolx!
and thanks my dear peilin for giving the spare time to let me tune my cover song vocals too! (:
so by the time we reach home was really late again due to the recording
and i dono y time just pass even faster
and i quickly continue edit and re-do and extract some of the parts for my arranging assig again cos i alr lost 5 marks so i need to do some more properly to try to get bk lol,
but by the time everything is done and im super tired alr, its alr like 4+ almost 5am?
and its like i no need to go sleep again cos i plan to go sch to book studio for my pod then.
so i wanted to hurry print my 40pages score out and maybe take a nap be4 i go out again,
but who knows the stupid printer? com? or watever la, is causing me so much prob and even almost argue with my bro cos his laptop also suddenly got prob with the printer too,
so in e end i have to print a page by a page, (to save paper too)
i really sit infront of the printer to press print 1 and wait for it to print and flip the paper to the back and press print again lol,
so a total of 40 pages full score took me almost an hour to do done!!! lolx!
so here goes my gone case of the nap be4 i go sch,
so i went to take a shower again and get change,
but who knows after i done all that, i just lie flat taking my hp from the charger point there to reply a msg, and i fall alsp! without knowing it! lolx!
till suddenly i was shock to wake up and its alr 1030am! LOX!
i woke up wondering how come i was alsp and how it happen lolx
but this means that i was late for REMT class again! and lost my chance of booking the studio! and gone of next 3 weeks cant do recording unless i ask other ppl to help me book lolx!
thaty i was really angry and disappoint at myself,
cos i stay up for the nit and yet i didnt manage to do wat i wanted to do too lolx! ))):
so rush to sch for remt class but it ended early,
so had lunch and back to the labs wanting to do work,
but i was so tired and couldnt even concentrate or got the mood to do especially RESEARCH stuffs lol and is for such stupid and waste time module GEMS lolx!
so visit fc6 quite a few times,
met wl, dehui & ferz there and chatted for some time,
but for some of the moments while listening to them, i felt my eyes so heavy to open fully lolx
hahahx,
btw, thanks ferz for helping me to check out that stuff my cousin asked me too! (:
so after that went bk to the labs to do some research for PAM and i really did reading it ok, (unlike some unglam lady beside me, who treats the whole lab like her house lol, so happy put up her leg, shaking and laughing at the screen watching videos lol!) jahah
for those who is there or inside the room will know who im talking abt then.
but very soon, vick came too and i wasnt in the mood of doing work too alr,
happen to saw shiyun and chatted quite a while with her too and we all agree that yr 3 life sucks and esp to DMAT cos we have NO LIFE! everyday is just assig and assig!
only DMATers will experience and feel and understand wat im talking abt!
but im glad that finally this assig is down now,
although next week still got 2 more and many more awaiting behind,
but im proud to say that i mange to do the arranging and transcribe finish the song!
of cos no forgetting those ppl who help in here and there in this assig too! (((:
so a BIG CLAP to all the DMATERS! (:
so after that went to mit agm awhile since i was still in sch,
but i felt so unfamiliar and strange to be there, most prob cos i wasnt active anymore, and i dono the yr 2s and of cos definitely not the yr1s lol, hahax, i am too old alr!
but at least stil got some familiar faces & yr3s that i know too.
so after everything end, actually was asked to go dinner tgt with dehui, wl, em they all, but i felt so tired, and confirm ended up with such a big group of ppl too, thus i decided to go home,
so train home with vick and em first.
but after that we decided to have go have some bits again. hahax
and its really nice seeing both vick & em tgt, and listen to them talking,
as i told them that, its really cute and funny cos i turn left to see em's eyes, is like small when he smile, but when i turn to the rit seeing vick's eyes, its also the same! hahahx
but in fact we are actually the 3 small eyes ppl tgt then. hahaha
(3 of us trying to open our eyes big when taking this pic! hahax)(credit to darren(: )
and lastly, i already wanted to say and post this few days back alr,
cos i receive a SONY CAMERA from my DEAREST BROTHER that night as my BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!!
i was really shock, cos i didnt say or mention to him that i wanted to buy,only got see around for sales sometimes,
perhaps maybe i always borrow his camera to use too and always rushing him to upload the phots for me too! hahahx
and although he won be seeing this ever, but i still want to say that
im really shock that he actually and really bought me 1 on his own, using his precious only 2 months itp $$ but i guess this will cost his 1 month salary alr lolx!
and sorry that i wasnt very react very big when i receive it cos my bro gave it to me at the wrong time when im rushing assig madly at nit and couldnt have even have the time to go and explore and play with it yet lol,
but im still very very happy deep down in my heart!
cos this is really too shocking and sweet and really big present i received this year lolx! ((:
love u lots! (:
lastly, i wish...
i hope...
i pray...
Saturday, July 4, 2009
school start and the first week end alr! fast!
but its unfair where other course having MST, yet we have lessons plus rushing assigs,
sometimes the over stress of assigs really make me feel that i rather just take a test& be over it, instead of everyday rushing and doing the same thing when u still cant the hell of it done lolx! and we got 2 fyp compare to other course and all individual work can! LOL! and i freaking haven started yet! don even have the demo out at this time! arg)
(im sry for the tone of the lang, cos doing cover song really *Y&*T^IU*&^%EY me! esp the drums) that is going to be due on thur, yet i still not done and even start my scoring!
really make me just have the urge to submit everything except the drums score can! really! and don care abt if the player play the correct thing ornot, cos its just too......!
and now we got another PAM presentation and another report on the concert we watched and on 14 july!
so now everything is cram and squeezes tgt that i have no motivation to do work or concentrate on making it work too and being eating non stop due to the stress!
and its all on the week be4 my bday and the week of my bday and so too! arg! wat a nice timing!
and i think the stress in me is too much that i first time felt like i become some typical singaporean that i bought this (top/dress/but with a short attach to it) cos its on sales?
or maybe i too wanting to buy a dress alr, thaty i just ended up paying it
but regret when i walk out the shop! lolx! DAM! $40 gone! and i felt stupid of myself and maybe this is wat a person will do when is alone!
but im going to give it to 1 of my friend if she likes it, if not, i will just think abt it and most prob force myself to wear it once to make it worth then! hahahx.
but now i still need to go and shop for formal dresses already cos most prob i can and will be going to attend my cousin wedding in indon soon, so i need formal dresses! plus need atleast 2 sets still!
but went to walk around abit 2day and felt nothing really interest and caught my eyes!
all the design were about the same, but i cant and don like to wear those tube dress and that left me with like no much choice on any nice ones lol! haix! how?! anyone intro some nice places that sells nice formal dresses to me then!
and 2day finally met up with DENISE! (:
for an early celebration/ treat for her NINEteen (9) birthday! ((:
with grace, sam& vick at manhattanfishmarket for lunch,
the portion is dam big! i didnt except to have 2 fried fish in a fish & chip set! and i ended up couldnt even eat e other one at all cos i was too full. lol.
grace specially choose this place cos last yr we went to fish& co, and this yr change to here,
but still let denise to eat fish, so to ....... *cough* hoping she can *cough cough* faster la! hahahx
but that refers to both grace and denise ba! hahahx!
but no matter wat, we still love u k!! ((:
and denise grow taller 2day!!! hahahx
and hope she will enjoy her birthday this year & be happy!
(only took her& sam cos they were sitting opposite me, e rest of e pic all taken by denise then)
