Sunday, May 31, 2009
i don really dono wat to update,
things happen and pass that some are kept in mind to rem, while some are meant to forget.
anw, met up with ginny for dinner on thur finally!
really happy to see her and chat so much with her!
although we didnt talk about sch work but we have so much else to talk about and THANK U for meeting me specially just to chat with me and see how i am, THANKS for ur sweet thoughts and concern! ((:
realised that we have some similarities but ginny is more naughty then me! in some ways! hahahx! (dw, what we talk about will be our secrets, ahahx)
and she knows i love to eat desserts too so after dinner, we went to harbour front swiss bakery( i think) to have a slice of cake and drink and the cheese cake is so nice too! hahahx
after that went up the roof top to enjoy the breeze and chat till 10+ that we finally went home.
i dono y but i felt that i finally can get away from all the school work alittle( even though i wasnt even doing much the whole of this week) but she delighted my day! (:
friday again i didnt go to school, cos i over slept too much lolx! haix
but ended up didnt do work at home too, cos couldnt concentrate at all,
ended up clearing my laptop and organise the photos in my computer as i finally got all the photos transfer from my brother's camera too!
all the photos are like months ago lol! but now finally i can get them, from my own brother!
thay i really really want to go buy and have a camera on my own instead!
i think this will be my BIRTHDAY WISH this year too! hahax
then went to have dinner outside my house with d cos he called me (but very last min! cos i almost bought my food alr!)
been staying at outram/tanjong pagar area so long alr yet i dono where is maxwell fc till that day. hahax, but after eating, i realised and finally know where isit cos i rem walking past it when i walked home from outram those rare times. ahahax.
Sat celebrate brother's birthday at aunt house, but all the way back to BEDOK! for BBQ!
its like so long since i last go bk there cos its like so far away from outram!
but who knows that after i reach there not long, it started to rain! so bad luck! cos i only get to eat bee hon then cant continue to bbq alr lol! and my younger cousins also already went bk home, so left with all my bro's friend and me alone!
thus i went up to find my aunt and have the maid cook me noodle instead lolx!
so my dinner turned into supper too cos the time is already 10pm!
stay in the house, watch tv, cos nothing to do too, till finally bro finish BBQing and clear all the things and ready to go home.
bro's friend sent us home and he drive even faster then ferz lol! i was like having headach after i get off! scary man!
anw, been meeting up with dy quite a few times for short dinner this week cos he came to look for me! so nice of him! thanks! (((:
and seeing him do those things for the gal, although cost him BOMB, and i dono should laugh at him or wat, but its still nice of u la! hahx(:
but laughing at u only doesnt mean u can BITE me! hmpt!
i think its the bus stop feng shui not good for me thaty can always let u bully me there! hahahx.
and as for UUU! i hope u know im talking about U! hahahx
still cant belive that my place is already taken by a DUMB FRESHIE already!
)))))))))))))))))))))))))':
hahhax, jkjk la.
i was once a year 1 also la, so i think i better stop calling her dumb freshie in case she found out and come and kill me! hahahx
but i dont no why, i felt kind of lost suddenly,
maybe im too used to have U since the time we know each other, having all the comfort, all the needs i asked almost everytime that now everything changes that i had lost it,
and especially at such times to me too! haix! ): thaty i felt even worst and alittle unhappy previously.
i guess most of the guys are also all the same,
they get close to u, cos u have little attraction to u, or they like u,
thaty they are more willing to do things for u, but once u lose it, they are gone.
that's how i felt in alot of cases, but i guess its human nature reaction ba.
but maybe im the one being lucky for so long already cos i know i cant give anything in return to u too, thaty its time for U to change and even though from mouth i will not stop teasing u or saying e BET that u lost to me, but deeply i really hope all the best for u too! cos U will still be my good friend! (:
and lastly, for SW,
i really dono if u are reading my blog ornot,
its kind of different after things happen,
but i guess im the one who choose this path, so i will have to bear with it.
but i hope u have been doing fine lately too.
enjoy ur trips then! (:
Sunday, May 24, 2009
went to help out for SPSE camp and we went to Chinese garden in the early sat morning and when i only sleep at 530 am again, but was being called by joel and samantha and all others,and already promise to go help out, so cant paiseh them again.
and this is my first time going chinese garden! hahahx!
but i didnt walk too far inside as my station was just near the entrance not far too.
BUT the worst thing is that my stupid mense come at such time! ARG!
i felt so ARG!!!! and as usual, the cram comes tgt too and its like, i spend most of time sitting on the chair instead lol.
had our lunch there, although was hungry till gastric too but end up no appetite too cos of the crams too, but not long later, we finally went back to school.
but i suffer alot by LAUGHING TOO MUCH on the train back, listening to weiren to talk lol!
we were standing tgt with shujun and weiren, so the journal was full of laughter that i really like training my stomach muscle and like worsen the pain that i almost die out of laughing lol. hahahx.
after reach back to school, then last min the fun stations were cancel, so we have like 3hrs+ nothing to do and so stay at club room to rot lol and i was like sitting on the sofa and almost cant and lazy to move much alr too. hahax. only manage to rest like 10 mins before ning suddenly appear in and tap my head when i thought is sam cos they all wear black lol.
so continue to rot there, while the freshies went to bath and prepare their dance later on.
but everything seems more exciting when the time gets later and suddenly know so much shocking news! hahahx!
cos both our Ex president, Mr Arthur! and our current President are in LOVE! OMG!
and both of the gal also in SPSE! hahahx.
our CM was tgt with our PEACE now! they keep saying that 1 so dark then 1 so fair! AIYO! but okla, so their combination next time will be justnice then! MILK CHOCOLATE! and they are being called the lao ban and lao ban nian alr! hahah, and xiao tao is really really cute and self high lol, that its also my first time seeing her like this, but i had so so so much fun and joy and laughter with her too!
watched their dance and its really funny! and xiao tao really go crazy alr but also scarifies alot of her image too. hahah, anw, its really funny and i found that the freshies are actually very enthu and cooperative too, cos they all are very happy preparing their dance step for their songs and very enthu and perform them well!
which i was alittle surprised! but its really good!
so after everthing, i left around at 10+ pm then since no more campfire already and tmr don really have much things too and my cram is bad to stay over night too.
but i think i had fun and enjoy my day!
although its still shocking to know abt arthur's news, but i feel that CM and Peace are quite sweet and cute tgt!
they just make me smile but also sad too.
its such irony.
maybe im too old already. hahahx
Friday, May 22, 2009
its just a week yet many things are different now already.
been through 1 of my toughest days this week, although only 2 people know wat happen and i seems fine everyday when i go school.
but im actually so tired and numb to all the tears and pain that i had suffered alr.
have not been sleeping well and enough since mon night, 5am is like the time that i fall asleep and it really break my record of taking CAB to school for the whole of this week alr! OHMAN! wasted so much $$ already.
it felts like break up when it actually didnt start yet,
perhaps the pain is worst then that.
losing a good friend i do treasure, losing everything that it used to be are pain and sad,
but what has happen/ been told are done,
there is nothing that can changed back although we 2 have our own fault at times.
but my heart felt so numb and empty already as things turn out to be so ugly now.
i think there isnt so easy and ways for me to become like last time,
its just hard.
i dono how to talk to u normally or face u like all these had never happen before again,
and later come to these problem and all the sufferings start again.
its hurting the both parties,
so i think time is the only solution and hope for things to be better soon.
although sometimes i really really wish that i can be those type of girl who simply saw this person and easily fall in LOVE and yet not think so much or those sec sch kids where their love is just so simple, (although most of it don count as love i feel too) but its still sweet and much easier then now.
but its hard for me to love now already.
however, i really wan to thank e lovely 2 people who knew about these, being there for me at times and just kept me company and away from all these sadness.
really appreciate it !
i LOVE U 2!
Monday, May 18, 2009
there are so much to update but i just don have the time to do so.
wanted to say a big THANK YOU to grace, peiyun, joel! who came to watch SPCO concert, (although i only play like that few songs? hahax) sam, although she is stuck in sch, but got moral support and they gave me a BOX of ROYCE CHOCOLATE!!! SO SO NICE! ((((:
and many other people from SPSE and of cos VICK! and all the people i know from SPCO!
for giving me a chance and experience lots of fun and enjoyment during the concert.
although there are times of struggle and felt being lonely at the beginning, and wanted to quit just after the first practice, but thanks to VICK who persuade and keep asking me to play, and of cos many other new people that i met in SPCO that i didnt regret in taking part too.
so shall not continue much and let the picture speaks although there isnt much picture taken that day too, but i feel so different wearing peilin's black shirt, cos its man's cutting and with the fat fat tile vick help me tie, i feel so COOL and MAN! hahah.
(me with bernald's tie! cos i like this colour more! hahax)
btw, im feeling piss with UUUUU! for being such a lousy friend!
YA, UUU!
but i shall not continue here, cos i think i will just say more &%$%ERTW out then.
to sw, if u ever read this,
i felt so.... hard to communicate with u more and more,
its so weird cos there are times we can just talk very happily, meeting for meals,
but there are times that i really felt so "controlled" by u,
its alittle too demanding from u that i cant take it and thus making me to reject u times and times to talk.
but maybe im the one in wrong, cos sometimes i will just hesitate if to reply u ornot& talk!
but couldnt we just stay this way?
im very sorry, but maybe we need so SPARK or magic to happen then.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
im breaking down....
i have not been sleeping enough,
and doing any of my assig yet!
i know i shouldnt be typing this, but i think by typing this, is allowing myself to release out my stress a little i guess.
have been pack with all stuffs, practice for CO concert till very very late at nit, (only reach home at 12 justnow! )
yet i still not well with just that 4 songs im playing!
spend most of the combine practice time just listening to them playing those first half concert pieces, and me unable to do anything.
however, with the workload increasing and time passing so fast,
thinking of tmrl, another late nit pract,
fri rehearsal and concert till late again
and still have to go for SPSE trail camp
and that means my weekend is gone!
then how am i going to have the time to do my work?
everything is pilling up now,
have to think of lyrics for song writing class and english language really sucks!
cover song not even touch it!
POD presentation and making research (for soft rock music? ) and i need LYRICS AND MELODY AND INSPIRATION for my POD 1! PLS GOD!
MUMI is untouched too and only like 3wks+?
and PAM project in 2weeks time,
everything is so packed yet i haven even start! i wan TIME! and be able to have gd rest PLS!
arg.... ))))))))))):
but im here to hope that SPCO concert will be successful as everyone is putting lots of effort in it so come and support! thanks
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Year 3 has started and going towards the third week alr
every module has its assigs out and its like crazy! (yet im still like wasting my time everyday ):
year 3 is no joke compare to year 1&2.
its really testing our ability and challenge ourself!
having difficult time thinking and choosing what to do for my POD in e previous week
and finally come to a conclusion that i will do 1 chinese pop (POD1) and 1 ENGLISH ROCK song(POD2)
SURPRISED rit!
im not very sure if e lecturers will let me pass my POD 2 idea,
but no matter the R&B or the ROCK song, they are going to be a big challenge to me!
so if anyone has any comment or any nice ROCK songs, pls recommend to me to listen.
i need to listen to this genre more now.
and as for the cover song, its giving me so much headach alr, before i even start doing it.
wanted to do an english song,
but ended up persuaded by others to do a chinese one instead! (don no is a rit or wrong choice)
but after letting geoff to hear, he even comment that its not going to be that easy to do.
i agree to that too,
when it comes to the chorus part,
i have no idea on what is the electric guitar playing
cant tell the notes the bass is playing, only can hear the beat,
not even sure if the piano is still playing the chords constantly?
and the strings sound are just so faint at the side!
THIS IS REALLY CRAZY MAN!
i haven even start but feel like quitting already!
im so not going to make it lolx!
and worst is that this assig is partly combine with arranging!
how am i going to show every note the song is playing!
unless im a genius or e composer lol! ):
and agree to help to play in SPCO is like a wrong or super difficult choice i made!
cos i only have 2 weeks to learn the songs!
and their songs are all super fast and keep change keys in between the songs that im really lose always pretend to hit the notes only lol!
but a promise is a promise and i really hope that i can learn finish the 4 songs in this coming week and play well on e friday concert, otherwise it will be so embarrassing and feel so bad towards vick, mervyn and yi shan too, for asking me to play.
so meanwhile, i think this blog will continue to be dead for a long time, before i can find a time to really update it.
so if there is anything u wan to know abt my life, just contact me straight then.
btw, i think this is the only time that i can get the chance to enjoy such nice desert at bakerzin again! its really delicious and NICE! so if anyone is the desert lover, pls go try and u will just love it! (:
(DESIRE! (white&dark chocolate mousse cake)
(new desert in the menu- creamy chesscake ice-cream with berries i think)
