e smiling chunhui no longer smiling always!
there r just too many things happen suddenly and lots of things going through her mind recently that she cant take them all.
its hard for me to say what happen, but just lots of things, pls dont ask me what happen too, i just need time for all this...
i realise that i dont no anything about u!
i feel so distant & lack of e sense of security.
thus im hesitating...

and im disappointed at myself too...cos...haiz :(
even u u & U also sees me in this way! which makes me feel worst n more disappointed!
i really dont feel the sense of belonging anymore. No wonder joanna told me once that its just e matter of time, "they have their own life and we have our own life, it's always being like this, but we can still be friends."
but im fine now, cos it's all of ur lost not mine!
there are still people who like me and appreciate me!

and i really want to thank those people for being there when i m down.
thank u grace, sam, peiyun& my classmates,
Enming and esp to CJ & Barnet.
(a msg of concern can just change ur mood when u r really down at e moment and just need to find someone to talk to.
And really thank u for coming to look for me too, i was really touched, i feel so much better talking to u, although after all, i dono what im talking about & didnt manage to tell u everything, but i guess its just easy and comfortable talking to u, and i feel so much better after talking,

its really hard to find someone that u can trust and always be there when u need help nowadays. So do treasure all the people around u!

but i feel so bad& paiseh that i didnt no abt ur problem& cant help u much and still got to trouble u with mine :( really sry!

but THANK U all for being there when i m down, trying ur best to cheer me up, console me, give me advices and encouragement!

really thank u thank u all!
i m really glad that i have know all of u& be ur friends!


I LOVE U GUYS LOTS LOTS! :)