THANK YOU everyone who wish me! :)

have been very busy and tired this few days, lots of things happened, and kinna affected me, e way i c birthday, and makes me feel very sad, disappointed and this also remind me of wat Nut told me last yr, that its just a bday, still got many yrs to go lol!
this is like the first time im not excited for my bday to come, and cried many times be4 e day come and on e day itself :(
cos im hurt by U! tanu! so hurt!
my wish for u all was so simple, just a meal tgt, so easy to be done, but yet, this is how u treated me! n since that day, not even a single msg, or call n even till 2day,where my bday has alr over, i hear ngt from u. its so disappointing, this is how u always say best friend shld be?
im disappointed at myself too, realised how lousy friend im.

i fall alsp beside my laptop on fri nite, cos im really really tired, so im sry to those ppl who talked to me, so sry abt it.
i slp till late afternoon on sat, supposed to meet WS at nit for dinner since he is e 1st to ask me long go, but i received late msg from my youngest aunt, asking me to go her house to have dinner 2nit, with my uncle and little cousins, so i have no choice to go,n cancel e dinner with WS, i feel very bad of last min cancel, really, and after i received ur 1st reply after i told u, i feel so so bad and my tears just came down my cheek, i feel dam bad, and suddenly i feel that i have treat u as a friend for granted :( but after receiving ur next msg, and apologized to u, i feel much better alr. (Im really sry!)

so i went to my aunt house alone at nit, (met my bro be4 i leave and i thought he was going tgt too, but his reply was "no", and i asked y not going? his replied was "cos im tired!"LOL!
u r e one who tell me abt going to aunt house in e nit, cos my little cousins wan to celebrate my bday tgt, but now ur reason for not going is just cos u r tired. LOL!
so much things happened and my mood was alr down and now he throw me with this, i feel so sad, i tried to control my tears in e cab, but e tears just couldnt obey me. i always thought that no matter what happen, he will always be e one there for me, and really someone i can depend on too, but that just hurt me.
really i reached my aunt's house, she asked me abt him, but i just say,i dono, he just say no when i asked him if he is coming or not.
i tried to control my emotions infront of all of them, esp my little cousins, cos they r so happy to c me, and to them, bday suppose to be e happiest day cos they got to receive presents!
how i wish i can just be like them lolx!
we just have a simple meal, my aunties and uncle just simply talking among themselves, and my littles cousins addicted on watching their show on tv, so i was like alone, but still trying to puts on a smile infront of them.
thus this is like e first time i say yes when my uncle asked me if i wan to drink or not, i drank a cup of ice-wine, cos my mood was really down, so im hoping that i can just get drank and forget abt all these unhappiness.
so after opening e wine, we cut e cake. this is like e only time when everyone finally gets e attention to me while singing e bday song to me.
but at e pt of time, i couldnt even think of any wishes so i just blow my candle away then :(

after that, eveyone is back to wat i have just mentioned eariler, and we left my aunt house aro 11+ then.
reached home be4 12, and received msg from ferz, and soon he appeared downstairs of my house with my present.
he pass me e snoopy, and its like finally i can took it from him, after like 6months? where it suppose to be my christmas present lol!
anw, but i was having a little headach, most probably of e wine, so my mood wasnt high, and excited at all. (im really sry, i noe it mean to be a surprise for me, alth i alr expected u will do this, but im sry still for e reaction i gave and response. )
but im really thankful for wat u have done, and thanks for e gifts, i really like it alot! :)

and smt happened in e morning that really surprised me!
i was still slping but e next moment i was awake by my dear friends, sam, grace, peiyun, peilin, joel& vick!,singing happy bday song to me in my room!
OMG! im really shocked! cos im still slping and when i wakeup to c them all in my room and with e cake in their hand, im really really shocked! lolx!
i didnt even noe they came! cos grace gang up with my cousins with this! lol! hahax!
but really thank u thank u all 4e lovely surprised!
im really touched by all u guys,and thanks 4e coming still when i noe that some of u have things on after that.
this is really going to be so memorable that i will never forget! thank u all! really! u all have really brigten my day! THANK U! I LOVE U LOTS LOTS!

its not wat kind of presents u get, is e thoughts and hearts that counts which r e most important! and who can u spend it with!
im really glad that i have met such lovely friends in poly, n they really those ppl that i really care & treasure alot!
THANK U ALL AGAIN!

those ppl that wish me (sms) after 12midnit

peilin (exactly on e dot!)
ferz
patrina (but she did wish me eariler be4 12 alr, but wish me another time again!heex)
joel
kangli
grace
samantha
peiyun (prue)
WS
Shaojie
Berlyn
cynthia
joyce song
tracy song
my aunt
khas
Vanessa goh
CJ
Timothy
Shun
Dhanish
Camila
Ginny
Arthur
Denise
Barnet
TC (by call)
Michelle
Shiyun
enming on msn,(but he did wish be4 it comes)
dehui (on msn)
jet (on msn)

but i met afew of them at esplanda and they wish me again when they c me,
like pat, jeremy and yq. thank u :)

and many of them wish me through blog here and friendster,
like samantha (apex), meiqi, fq, bro's friends, alpha, shiyun, camila, kellyn, adelin,
samantha wong, sheri, enqi
thank u all :)

here are those belated one
ericson
nut (by call e next day after my bday, super surprised, but he claim that he took his precious time to make a call for me lol! so which make him talk to SAMAN 2 min less lol, hahax, but thanks still :)
darren
sheryl& xanthus
and many others who happen to c me in sch.
and my michele meiling, so happen to met her at mrt!
thank u all too! :)

ohya, i must to say a big thank u to all e main comm ppl in SPSE too, thank u all for e surprise cake for both camila and i after e interview for yr 1s!
thank u! :)

next up coming, will be our dear sam and peilin's bday!
hahax! finally to their 18 ys old! :)