people ask me y i lock my blog,
e reason is..., i just lock it,
for me to think some stuffs & reflect! plus im really busy n has no time to update.

anw, have little jamming time with patrina in e studio on tue,(actually i didnt play much at all), just amazed by her, hahax, cos she play e piano so well!
n she teach me so blue style of music!
which is dam cool n nice!!!!

after that went to string practice tgt with sam n grace.
its like so long since e last time we actually went for e practice lol
but we didnt have lesson with e teacher, and we practice forbidden love instead of e classical songs in e bk.
after that we jam and play with grace playing e piano while sam n i play e violin of forbidden love.
and we r so motivated to practice n play violin lol, hahahx!
we also jam some blue n jazz tgt that pat has just taught me,
in e end, pat learn abit from reuben, while grace too, and i learn it from pat,
so in e end e master teacher of all, is reuben lol. hahax
but its so fun being able to play tgt and play! :)

wed
didnt go sch for my only class on wed cos i have bad bad diarrhoea!
started from 5+, 2nd time at 7am+ n e 3rd time at 10+ lol!
its so horrible! e pain just nonstop n keep coming thaty i didnt go sch in e morning.
after that was finally better after taking e medicine,
so went to sch to help out in e talentime,
cos im 1 of e judges.
there are some that who r really gd, while some really nervous, and 1 really nonsense lol!
n pat! e most entertaining one!
hahahx, come in to chat chat with e judges one, and just play her remt song lol, hahahx

thur
feel like totally waste time going to sch,
other then i finally present finish my music theory,
n didnt do anything during dvpt too, cos we all haven start filming yet, (DIE! when e deadline is just 1 weeks time!) so we just watch some show, cant rem e name, lol


anw, some things i wan to say to my friends,
when i didnt talk much, that doesnt mean im unhappy, angry or wat happen,
it can simply just mean that i m tired,or i just don feel like talking, no mood to get high, but im not emo, n i never wan to attract attention, cos all i wan is to be alone, so u all can just don bother me, its ok.
and there r just too much things in my mind,
that i need to think,
it doesnt mean must be smt related to u guys, but i didnt show n say out anything cos i don wan to bother n affect all of u, cos i just need to think myself, and smt its really tiring n hard to put on a smile all e time to hide all ur sadness behind.
but don bother asking me y or wat happen,
cos if u noe me well, if i choose not to say, it means no, i won say,
n i can just solve or recover by myself, cos CHUNHUI is strong n INDEPENDENT gal!
n if i really need to say, i will say it out myself, n get u all to be my listener,
so don worry abt me.

i feel that i have changed, in some thinking and e way i c things,
even more mature now, more deep and understand more n more things as i went through all e things each n everyday.

but to some ppl, i dono if that is gd or bad to u,
that u say chunhui change,
that is cos u don really noe me,
i can say, it can be hard,
unless u can put urself in other people's shoe and think.

chunhui is a listener and thinker,
but not a person who easily express her deep deep down inside feelings or things to anyone easily,
unless u r really really very close to her, or she really cant handle herself n extreme that she just need u to listen to her, n be her side, that's all.

but chunhui strongly belive in herself,
that she will be more n more independent n mature each day, will treasure and enjoy, fill her everyday to e fullest! :)


but i wan to thank xxx for e calls,
didnt expect at all,
although we r not very close n u dont no much of my stuffs,
but thanks for all e jokes n all,
its nice talking to u, cos that is when i don have any pressure and can leave away all e unhappy things, and forget abt them, and cheer up to be happy again ;)