thought and reflect after e talk e other day.
im really shocked by wat xxx told me, really courageous, but thank god that e thought is gone now, and im sry that my reaction wasnt really big, defintely not wat u expect and shld give, but that dissolve all e outwardness rit?
n don worry, we will still be in gd friends term :)
i know its random but i think it must be those old msges.
cos i just changed a new hp, but dono y suddenly alot of very old msg just appear, as old as early last yr.
so lots of memories just flashed back and some never fail to make me smile & laugh again :)
i realised that i have learn something and grow up everytime, each and everyday, meeting different people.
i think its just life!
each and everyone of them thought me something, although they may not even know, and some i only realised after they left or its gone, n im kindna sad,
but i wasnt disappointed now, cos its e process, e time, e precious friendships we have& everything we went through,
as long as we enjoyed, its gd enough already.
so i should say that im a fortunate gal, that i have many many people who are concerned abt me, n loved.
but perhaps im not fated to be loved, cos its not easy to win my heart. n its not easy to be with me. there are alot of barriers for me, and i don wan anything to affect my relationships with my other friends too.
so love is just so complicated and how i wish that i can just be those people who are easily falling in love.
although i have learnt to be more independent now, but sometimes i just need a HUG and a person who can share my joy, sorrow and be there with me.
u have appeared and has slowly involved more n more in my life now, how i wish that i can just hold on and u will be here forever.
im not in love, but i really enjoy talking to u, and i do treasure it alot :)
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