went back to KC sec ystd to have meeting abt KCCO end of yr concert and im surprised to see many different batches of seniors. we have from e first bath, to e current juniors there lol. i think we have 5 different bathes of seniors, graduated one, including me, went bk for e meeting.
but end up didnt do much things also, cos we only there to listen while e main people do e talking with e conductor and my teacher lol, so e only thing some of us did there was to eat e banana muffin my teacher made especially for us, that's all lol. cos we were so far from my teacher& those ppl, so cant really hear wat they talking abt also lol.
but it still last for few hours, till nearly 6pm that i cant take it anymore alr, so decided to left earlier with some others.
and i really feel unappreciated by some of them, xxx too, just cos im not in e main comm when i was in sec sch and didnt sub up to seniors, teachers, and so? lolx,
i feel so silly, and y must i be so guai to come all e way from outram back to katong when they tell me they have a meeting? while so many didnt even show up and they r excused! lolx,
it took up my whole sat afternoon! and im not as free also lol,
i turn up cos when u told me that u need helpers, so i m here specially,
cos i do love our co still & was actually proud of them for being able to have a concert on their own, for e first time, and was excited abt it too,
although there are so many bad memories and torture being through e yrs,
but its just so unappreciated,
and i feel that e meeting is so unproductive too, took so long just to discuss wat different job scopes, and how many people needed, and e design, booklets, etc, it can be done just with e snap with e fingers lol.
and i could not do anything, no one to turn to & still have to c e some of e seniors and smile when they tell me wat i have to do on that day, LOL, just go there to tear e tickets, LOL.

anw, forget abt all e unhappiness,
i was so touched when i received grace msg when i was leaving e sch,
i didnt say much to her, but her reply was so encouraging & so supportive of me!
when i read it, my eyes was in tears & so touched, that i almost cried on e bus lol.
that will be so paiseh can lol. hahax,
but i rem when i joined CO when i was in sec1, e main thing cos i like music, was attracted by them when they perform too, and i continue to stay on when i was in sec 3 till i graduate, although after e big incident & everything,
i rem that i have to face xxx & their friend's faces everytime i go for practice, and listened to them, and overcome all e difficulties when they r trying their best not to let me perform or find excuses like i didnt go for practice e whole month when i was in taiwan etc, always use authority or bully...
but i overcome all those cos e more pressure they give, the more determined& strong i become, im not afraid of them, cos that's just some childish act, and i used my hard work & talent to prove to them that i m able to played even though i didnt come for practice for e whole month when i was in taiwan, and i do not need to sub up to seniors to get fav, cos that's childish thinking,

but i have my happy time there too with those really truthful and friendly people who really love and appreciated music and really wan to do their best for e CO.
so i did not even bother to explain or unclear all e misunderstanding or impressions some of e seniors & teacher have for me, after xxx & friends came to wan to friend bk with me in sec 4.lolx.
cos everything has happened and nothing can do to get it back like be4, so as long as i noe i did nothing wrong, and wat i have been doing is gd enough alr.
i do not need to get their fav, cos there are better place & people who appreciate me more then them & that's gd enough for me alr :)

so i still puts on a smile no matter when i see them & will give my best & everything when they ask me for help, cos no point thinking abt all e unhappiness & all i wan to do is for the gd for our co and let them be better and better each day :)

so im really happy to c joey low, (1 of my junior) at MS, when i went there for dinner with dehui, cos she is e one that don like to be involve in all this politics and don sub up to seniors too, a very nature, friendly, lovely gal, so we really close and have lots of fun last time when we r in sch & that make me miss her so much too!
although its only a short chat with her, but its great to c her! :)
and she sings, so im really going to ask her to help me sing in my song next time! heex :)

ohya, there were so many people at that area, cos of e F1 race, and we met quite a no. of people there too! :)
but e sound of e F1 is really loud so after hearing it a few times, u will just get annoyed and its hurtful to e ears! lolx!
its like spoiling my DMAT ears, hahax.
and after that it cos heavy traffic jam that we have to walk so big round finally back to e mrt train, lol. so i think its still better just to watch it at home, and if u r watching there, pls bring ear stuck, no, headphones better, to protect ur own ears. HAHAH.