Thursday, October 30, 2008
i just delete the previous post, cos i feel so silly of myself to be hurt by such things, shed my tears for such people. i should not care so much, and after a day of thinking, talking to my dearest friend, i cant be bothered by it anymore alr, cos if that is e real u, its not worth for me at all.
i shouldnt and won care abt what u wan or like to say behind my back, cos as long as i know how i have treat u, and what have i done, is gd enough alr,
i did nothing, so im not afraid of anything,
and i believe time will let people tell e truth, even it doesnt,
I don give a dam! (cant believe i say it this way! shows how much..)
i believe that those people who really know me, knows my character,
and im not like u! so small hearted to do such things, its just so childish!
and i have a bunch of great and true friends that i treasure so much,
so i don need u to be one!
and it just spoil my mood seeing u in sch 2day!
and i cant believe that i have use such a strong word for u, when u r being mentioned to me again.
but its ok, i will forget abt all this soon! and not going to allow this to affect my life at all!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
another week of sch has passed!
i think my blog has become a weekly update alr lol.hahax,
but its like busy each day, esp tue to thur,
staying bk in sch for meetings, practices etc, till 9+ or 10pm in sch, that is really tiring for u to do anything after u reach hm, so will just bathed and wait to go slp only.
Mon:
nothing much, got new assig for DVPT, :(
and have to present on week 4 alr!
lots of work to be done when it's only going to be 10% of e overall, but wat kind of story or video can i come out with my song??
Tue:
had gems class! and that Dehui was late again!
so Wei leong and i had to wait for him again be4 we went to e class tgt.
but after we went in to e class, e teacher separate us again! ARG!
so we all in diff groups, and have to do discussion and all,
and we just told that we got a written test on wk 6! LOL,
dono wat kind of test it will be, but seems like essay writing, which i hate to e most can! cos my eng is so bad and i don like to do essay LOLx.
performance was same still, and during our MIDI class, it was interrupted,
had this group people came to shoot video on Michael's band, so rain was e main actress, so we have to help to act and be inside also LOL!
and its really like...i thought we can rest during their shoot and rest awhile, but we have to help them too! lolx, but lucky im not pulled to be in e camera for interviews.hahax, paul volunteered and he seems so excited abt it, hahah, and can c huizhuang trying to control her laugher while he is being interview and acted infront of e camera. hahax.
so im like so tired during BUMS that i really feel like slping! LOLX, but its jimmy class& its never possible but i think he can c that some of us were very tired too, cos my face was really tired and my eyes originally alr small, plus when u get tired, its so hard and tiring to open big big and focus so long lol, hahax.
so it ended at 6pm,
eat our dinner and after that we went for string practice,
however, e teacher didnt come this week,
so we have our self practice,
but after that all of us become very high suddenly, esp peiyun,
she become super super high, and act, do all sorts of crazy crazy things that we seldom c her do and its really dam funny. hahahx.
had alot of fun there! xD
Wed:
had MIDI class only,
although its a 10am class, but i still wake up late lol,
compare to 8am class that i reach on time lol,
cos i think its's alr wed so after accumulated some tiredness for e past 2days, i tend to laze on e bed after e alarm ring so long lol. hahax,
so in e end i took cab to sch and reach at 1010am, cos i don wan to miss e explanation in class,but in e end some of them also haven reach yet, so michael wait for them to come the start e lesson lol! wasted my cab fee lOLx.
after lesson, went to bugis with sam, grace and ferz, cos sam wan to buy her xiaozhu show comie bk lol,
so we ate swensen's, and lastly, we had this Ice-cream cone for ferz, replacement for his cake, for his belated bday, but he complained so much that it was so hard LOL. hahahx,but we should have order e brownie with ice-cream lolx. i guess it sure taste much nicer then that. hahax.
but after that he use his card to pay again! and refuse to take my $! only took $10 from me, which is not enough to pay for my meal, and its suppose to be our treat, but in e end he is paying for his own LOL.
so after lunch, ferz & i rush bk to sch as both of us have meetings to attend,
and cos of ferz la, take so long to eat his ice-cream cone, that im late for my meeting!
hahahx, okokla, jk jk (: blame on e ice-cream that its too hard then. hahahx.
anw, i saw.....at e station!
xxx took e same train bk to sch as us! i only saw at dover, but xxx walked so slow, and i was rushing to go for my meeting,
so i have no choice hurry and walk and pretend i didnt c xxx and walked super fast away lol.
don ask me y,
im just so afraid to c xxx, not really afraid, feel awkward and dono how to react and talk when i c xxx lol, so im so sry, that i avoid u,
let me have some time,
be4 i can overcome, and pass thought my stage first and talk to u again then.
anw, e main com and sub-com meeting was tense, and i feel dam bad example to be late although its only that 10mins lOLx, but its mainly e president and vice-president do e talking,
but after all e things they wan to say, arthur suddenly turn to me and tell me that,
"ok, now u can have ur turn to complain wat u wan to say abt ur ADD then"
then its was like so sudden, and infront of everyone can! and its like...
i didnt wan to complain or say anything wa, now become i m such a bad person like i didnt say much during e meeting but behind their back, i go complain to them like that LOL,
but lucky vick faster change wat arthur say and told e sub-com people them who am i, cos some of them dono me, and told them that ( although i don usually appear very often, but im still 1 of e main com and event chair of our ADD, so should respect me too, and don bully me cos im just being nice to u all, and don give me e unrespectful attitude, esp when i didnt put there compulsory for all of them to come and be OC for my event then can don bother to reply email, sms or do wat u suppose to do too, )something like that. lolx, then everyone is in silent. hahahx
thanks vick! for voicing out for me! cos some of their attitude really bad! and i believe that they should know who they are when vick say abt this lolx.
anw, after e meeting, joanne came to e club cos she wanted to learn how to play cello now, so kervin thought her first, and i sat there to listen and accompany her.
and after listening awhile, i felt that kervin can really be a gd teacher! he is so patience, so detail, even explain every part of e cello to joanne first lol,
i think can name him 1 of e nicest or most patience, hardworking guy, that will never grumble or complain anything, in SPSE lol.
so after e long meeting,
went to CO there to meet some people, cos i decided to join SPCO,
so yishan gave me e whole stack of yangqin scores, and after i read some of them,
i was like...almost faint, cos its been some time since i play in CO, and lots of things have alr forgotten!
so next week will start and hope i can get some chance to practice be4 joining them, and be able to play, cos i will be e only yanqin player currently lol.
anw,
during e nit, i was so tired and no mood for anything too, that so i went to slp at 12+,considered early for e sch days,
but i couldnt wake up e next morning and go for REMT practical!
cos i woke up too early in e morning after slping for full 8hrs,
so i thought its still too early to go sch, so went bk to sch,
and its then i overslpt and only awake by vick's call around 1040am, but i fall bk to slp and e next moment i wake up and was thinking by e time i rush to sch, i will be late for like 1/1/2 hrs,its like how to go into e class like that, thaty in e end i didnt go.
but partly i was mentally tired still, and i was feeling so low e whole day in sch!
not smiling broadly, not mood to be high, but not emo!
cos i was mentally tired, lots of things to do, prepare, and after e long day of lessons,
knowing more assigs and next yr plans, it added on to e stress, that u can never imagine!
but that's DMAT crazy life! that we will have to struggle through! so we have no choice, to face it still!
anw, after having a little chat with ms tan, after our MUST lesson,
i held my ADD meeting,
but things change, dates change, venue change all in a sudden, so things have to replan and think abt it again,
but as for some of them, they give slightly more productive work then e last meeting, (thinking isit e day be4 meeting/ lecture/ to them works a little finally), but we still got lots of things to do, and i really have no confident being e event chair for ADD suddenly, after hearing wat weiren say during e wed meeting,
to be honest, im stressed,
and im so afraid that it will turn out unsuccessful, and a boring ADD ever,
but i really cant think of wat to do other then e things i plan alr lol.
haiz, :(
but i really hope that things will be fine by then.
i wanted to talk to u! but u didnt reply,
a little disappointed when u say ok, shall talk 2nit, but u didnt reply e msg,
but i still mange to find my ways to destress myself and forget abt all e things!
but i must still say thanks to some of e people here, cos like sam, only she noes that im feeling stress over it, when she talk to me on msn e nit, although she only ask me to relax and don so stress
arthur: giving a very big support for me saying that he think it will be great & not to worry too much.
vick: thanks for helping out and always accompany me to go talk to ning.
and dehui: although he dono anything, but r here to listen& entertain me too! (:
Fri:
had MUST, and after lesson, wanted to go find ning to discuss abt ADD again, but she was busy,
so in e end didnt manage to meet her.
so went out with sam, grace& vick to cathay to watch movie.
watched tropic thunder, funny show.
and after that we have buffet at this jap restaurant and surprising, when i was on e way home, i fall alsp on e bus lolx.
tired after a long week...
but weekend is finally here! (:
Friday, October 17, 2008
sch finally started after the long holiday,
although i really don wan and not prepare to go sch yet,
but 1st week of sch has passed!
be4 talked abt 1st week of sch,
we were invited by YQ, to join Jeremy's other friends for his bday celebration on e last sat be4 sch start.
so sam, peiyun, joel, shun & i went and Jeremy was really surprised by our presence, hahax,
and we have a great time playing at the minds cafe too!
and chatting and chill at esplanade after that too,
although not all of us was able to make it, but we still have fun and a lovely day! (:
its so sweet of YQ to plan it for Jeremy too!!! ((:
so i shall just let e pic speaks then (:
(OMG, YQ & Jeremy have fallen for him! hahahx)
(Joel: its so heavy man!)
(the 3 Singers of the day! hahax, joel expression dam funny la!)
anw, 1st week of sch was alrit,
felt differnt in last semt,
can sense & more pressure is coming up,
but i get to know and understand wat we r doing for each things better,
so there must be no more slacking and playing around alr lol,
have to practice keyboard, although i really don like to play scales, and violin, hoping able to play a proper song nicely!
and i have to decide on my instrument for performance and start practicing too! ):
and most importantly, MUST, i didnt even touch for e whole holiday! so everything is like gone in my mind plus im a super weak student in MUST, so i really have to work super super hard then other people now lol,
and im worried to get back my paper next week too! ):
and feeling stress with combine class with 01 people now,
hope that it will still be e same as last time then.
but 1st thing i hope to do,
is to get more slp!
i don like TUE now,
we start from 8am and all e way to 6pm! and after that we got violin practice too!
so it will like more then 12hrs in sch, such a long day!
and i was planing to join CO too, and e practice starts late at nit too, and i end at 12pm,
and we joining ensemble too, so another day to 10pm,
so next time its like every tue, wed, thur all staying bk till super late in sch lol,
hope that i can take it and able to cope them.
and did i say abt my GEMS?
Im e ONLY GAL in my class lolx!
OMG, i cant belive that can!
i dono how am i going to survive there! really! OMG,)))):
all cos of e stupid mess up of choosing gems,
otherwise i will be same gems as sam, grace and even same class as khas & zak lolx! haix!
n ohya,
i went for lunch with Sheryl & younghui, (coincidently met) on wed at bugis, at this JAP restaurant that sheryl recommended, after i end class, and be4 my meeting start and her ITP briefing start too.
we have gd chat during e meal, lots of laughter!
supposedly after e meal, we wanted to buy ice-cream to eat, but we were full, so in e end we didnt and decided to go bk to sch early.
and Younghui offer to take & pay for e cab! hahahx.
cos sheryl pay for e meal for him, so im e lucky one.
so after that we sat at fc6 to have drinks awhile be4 i went for my meeting and sheryl's briefing too.
so i got to know alittle bit more abt sheryl that day, and she has been very nice to me
and overall, its was an enjoyable meeting (:
so that's all for e day, shall update some other time then.
good nitx! (:
Friday, October 10, 2008
dad is in SG now! :)
suppose to be a happy thing,
but i dono y i feel so sad now, after talking to him justnow.
i thought he is e only one that will understand how i feel & everything in this course,
but he don seem to get it, those things im telling him, and wat we have work & learn so far too.
i guess he really tired alr, after traveling a long day and everything,
his eyes are red but he still sit beside me to listen all the songs i have from my fellow classmates, that he requested to listen to be4 we went out in e nit.
he give some comments after listening to all e songs, and i think some of e comment are different cos he use really different aspect from what we r thinking too.
he keep telling me not to worry, its just a steeping stone for me to improve myself, and lead me to the next step, where i have to take business of music side still and this will always do me gd.
so i didnt continue abt saying anything alr too,
i noe he has plan a gd path for me in my future,
but i dono y my tears just flow down again after talking to him,
i thought i was strong but i realise i was wrong. :((((((((((
i really feel like calling u :(
just to hear ur voice :(
but its too late to make e call :'((((((
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
had 1 of e most horrible day!
all cos of e stupid gems! ARGGGG...
wake up early this morning to prepare to choose e gems,
so have conference call with grace & sam,
while waiting for e time to come,
at e very last min, grace told me that cant use safari,
so i faster ask my cousin, who is beside me,
he has e sas page ready too,
so i quickly sign in at e min,
but first choice, backpacking is not available,
so we quickly select e love relations for life,
so we saw tue class which got 3 seats available,
so we all faster click,
but dono y mine didnt show on my timetable,
tried again, don have still,
and its only then, i realised that my cousin using firefox!
OMG! its really OMG! cos by e time i ask grace they all check 4me, vick to do it for me, everything also gone alr, within e first 3 or 5mins lol.!
and end up grace & sam choose e different class too! although both on tue lol.
so i have no choice, wait for e next time slot which is at 9pm, which i alr prepare to get nothing better too. haix ):
its really so wasted & so careless cos i have e time & choice to choose my gems, but in e end then realise that my cousin use firefox to sign in lol. arg!
so after that went to sch to meet vick, to go saa to c ning & show her my ADD proposal,
took quite some time cos have some changes, so vick left first,
but finally, its done! just left for arthur to sign it & i can pass it bk to ning again,
so hope e SAA will approve all my budgets!
it left 15 mins be4 4pm, my meeting supposed to start,
but sam they all late,
so i met dehui, hermi & some others at fc3 to wait for e rest to come.
i wasnt in e gd mood, partly cos of e morning gems, partly also cos of those yr1 sub com people,
i didnt talk to them be4 i came out of e clubroom be4 my meeting start, cos they don bother to say hi too lolx.
but i also alr prepare to show bad face to them later & scold if i really cant take it, otherwise they will just continue to play play only lol.
so e meeting official starts around 430pm, and first thing i shoot at the guy who is supposed to give me e final games list, and yet he can still smile at me & show me e 3 or 4 pathetic games he tried to recall e nit be4 lol.
i guess only sam, peiyun can sense my mood & change of tone when i talk to him lol.
but after that i decided to settle his part later, and discussed e rest first.
so everyone become very quiet when i was talking and e feeling was tense cos i didnt smile smile, everything in a serious tone & all.
but its only finally talk abt e food, that joel and some others break e silent and dare to speak, and when i have to ask 1 by 1 for opinion lol.
so after that finally came to e last part, games section, i was really so piss off with e attitude he give still, so i really cant control my anger, to say him, and i only raised my voice alittle, and even pass him my last meeting min to show him all e games i have taken down, and forced to give and type out e final game list on e spot lol.
its only then he keep quiet and faster look at it and think and tried to organise e games.
in between, got this yr1 freshie come to e club room too, wanted to give e $ for e coming camp,
but their response and e way they do things is really horrible!
that really make sam & i cant help it to type our own anger in e laptop while waiting for them to settle e thing so as to continue my meeting lol.
haiz, but after that finally long long waiting, e guy finally come out e "final game list" orally, and when i ask again, everything was unsured lol.
but after that i told him to go bk to type it out immediately to me, and i wan all e orders of e games we playing, e materials needed for each games, e helpers needed etc, by e next meeting
cos i wan to try out every game in e next meeting, so if he cant do it by then, i m really going to scold him & he will be out of e team & don even think abt e main com next yr alr, im serious lol.
so after that got a short practice among ourselves be4 e teacher come,
and peiyun msg to me saying that i look fierce just now during e meeting,
but to sam they all, and i, i don even think so, i haven even show any of my temper & anger at them lol, its really nice to them alr lol.
so after lesson, rush bk hm to prepare to register e gems again at 9pm.
and e sas system really suck!
i tried e backpacking again, but don have, so immediately i tried e love relations for life and it shows available, so i quickly click, but donoy it took so long to load, then in e end tell me unsuccessful, then i went bk to check others, its like nothing nice alr lol, even e chinese idom also don have lol, so meanwhile reading at some other gems, like giving up alr, i decided to try e love relations again, and it says 1 more seats, so i quickly click again, but its unsuccessful again, cheat my feelings can! lolx!
then my cousin was telling me if i wan to wait for e next time slot or not, but justnow i was talking to dehui on msn, so i asked him wat he choose,
so he told me this, effective interpersonal communication, then i check, lol, still got 20+ space lol, it must be some not nice one, thaty still got so many, but i got no choice too, so i took that too.
then after that i went to read e explaination of this gems, its like wt... i don even understand la, no idea at all lol, then i saw
The module is conducted through tutorial, discussion and role play. Assessments include written test, quiz, group and pair role play, and class participation.
then i was like siaz....arg....
i don like tests! its wasting my time, my braincell lolx!
and so much things to do, role play even, lolx, arg,,, i really dono how m i going to survive in this gems lolx.
in e end all e gems i will be taking is all not wat i wanted and some nonsense one lol! gems sucks! lolx!
))))))))))):
and i don wan sch to reopen, im not ready to face all e peer pressure, all e assig pressure, and all e things! i even forget and lose e inspiration & motivation to make a new song, and im just going to die soon.
wondering if i can make it to yr3 lol, and that will be e dead end of my life!
haix! ))))))))))))))):
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
arg...!
im so dam piss with them now!
treat them too nicely alr thaty all not scare of me & think can take lightly on me LOLx!
a simple task, just to type out e final game lists, that we alr discussed during e last last meeting also cant do it! and dare to tell me that cant find e paper now, when i remind them there is a meeting tmr! lol, that is supposed to be done and pass it to me long ago, be4 last week, be4 my that cancel meeting lolx!
i should have just take that paper and type it myself lolx! arg!!!!
feel so angry, feel like scolding them too!
cos its wasting our efforts, time & all lolx!
no responsibility, no respect,
still wan to be in e main com next yr! LOLX!
i will be waiting to see what u all can give me tmrl during e meeting & that will really tell me ur characters & everything lolx!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
2day is such a lovely day that i enjoyed myselfalot alot!!! (:
with e 8ban people (:
had joel's belated bday celebration at suntec,
had fish & co, cos other places were long Q with people,
but we have fun eating there, cos joel is entertaining as usual, hahax.
so after that, sam went to make the msg dedication at the fountain for joel secretly first, cos she was with her sec sch friends be4 that, so this was another surprise we have for joel! (:
but due to some delay, we almost cant make it for joel to c e dedication cos we didnt expect e msg to be shown so immediately after we send, so after that joel & peilin came out to meet us at the fountain there while grace & peiyun settle e bill at fish & Co,
but lucky we went to make alot for him, i think 3 different times, so after that finally, just nice, e cake was ready too & e dedication came out on e exact timing, so we all sang birthday song for joel there too! HAHAx, we were very loud, its like everyone watching us, but we didnt really care, hahax, and joel is surprised by us & he is touched too! HAHAx, YEA!
lucky he didnt expect & know this, hahax, so it can be called a success! (:
so the final show, we even went to walk around e fountain 3times, like all e rest, ahah, and joel was splashed with lots of gd wealth water lol. hahax
and i also wan e dedication to me next time! hahax, its so sweet to receive from e rit people! (:
hahax, but i will wait for e rit person, UUUUU to appear and do that for me! hahahx.
so after that vick came with his gf, and we walked to esplanade, wanted to find some place to chill and its then i receive e msg & call!
its like so long since we talked, hahax, so im so happy after that! (((:
after that we rest awhile watching this band performing outside of e esplanade and we happened to c Oliver there too! hahax, so someone is very happy after that lol. hahax.
but after that my mum called me alr, so its really no choice that i have to leave, so all of them accompany me & wait for my bus too! so nice of them (:
but e bus took super long to come lol, so in e end was 11pm alr too, so i think they all head bk hm after i left too.
but we were all so high & happy that really don feel like going hm yet lol,
so hope that i can stay out & longer someone lol. hahax.
so next week will be e final week that i can enjoy & stay out late be4 sch start! hahahx, cant wait for e fun again! ((:
its totally love 2day that words that cant describe! (:
love U & u guys alot! (:
(at fish & co)
(birthday boy ay! how old alr, still like that, hahax)
(my best 89 buddies! (: )
(at e staircase, was abit unclear)
(JOEL! no matter how crazy u r, or wat u become, we still love u! (: hahax )
( e 8ban finally + yq + hazal! (((: )
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Wedwent to watch movie with grace, sam, peiyun & shun 2day at MS.
watched mirrors and its like super long since i last watched horror shows, cos i don pay e $ to scare myself, hahax.
but im so surprised that i m so brave, and wasnt scared at all lol, didnt cover my face, or anything, only don really like a part when e man kill himself, so lots of blood flow out of his neck, which i feel so disguesting, lolx
and got 1 part so funny, cos when i turn to look, peiyun was covering her eyes, then sam half covered, while grace was like totally gone lol, hahax.
but compare to grace, she is like totally waste her $10 watching nothing lolx! and i scare both grace & sam at differnt part of e show, hahahx, but my face was hit by grace accidently cos she was too scared at 1 part, so after that i decided not to sit or lean so close to her at all lol, hahax.
some of e parts was exciting, was curious abt e ending, but e ending was bad! lolx.
so after that we went to have dinner at hong kong cafe again!
i have been going there so often now lolx! so we were thinking if we should just buy e discount card since we keep going there to eat, but in e end e person make wrong orders!
but in e end we just take e wrong orders too, since they alr made,
so in e end i told e lady who took e order from us, and her reply was sorry cos she don understand english,lol,
so next time e saftest thing is to tell e no of e food and must repeat e orders.
after that we 4gals have long long chat again! be4 we finally say good bye and went home! :)
so that's all for e day!
and its so nice to receive ur msg 2day!
it just delight my day! :)
miss u! :)
