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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

it has been so long that my ADD/club birthday event has over, kind of forget what to update alr.

this is my first time being the event chair for an event,
and due to the popularity of our club people and budget,
we can only held it in sch,
Dance at Moberly.
there wasnt an ADD in the previous year and nobody knows what happen 2yrs ago or smt,
so i have to plan everything from scratch.

actually it suppose to be held at the venda room, but due to renovation, we have to change the venue some time later & i submitted the proposal like at least 2months ago, but the SAA took super super super long to approve, dono what they are doing,
even ask the officer to check abt it also dono y,
we were guessing, isit have to pay for the technician fee, which will cost them some sum of $ thaty they are taking so long. (cos we have another club event, which only submitted like 2 or 3weeks ago, asking for a budget of only $60, and it is approve immediately lol.

so everything is in the planning state still till the week be4 the event, that i think almost everyday also go and bug at the officer to check for us, and re-submitting new cut down price proposals and its only till thur, it is finally approved, where our event is on the next following fri.

there are times that i really worried that what if our proposal is still not approve,
that means all the things we plan will be wasted!

but finally knowing that it is being approved, our plan then can get moving.

but due to the late notice, and its only within a week that we have to officially inform all the people about this event and collect $ from them.

i estimate 50 people to attend, which is quite reasonable, but due to some reasons, there were a lack of people attending the event, and there are like only 1 or 2days left before the event,
how am i going to invite or ask people to come too.
its really hard, as its really kind of late notice,
and many people hear that have to pay for $12, they will just forget the thoughts alr.
and it's suppose to be within our club event,
so alot won be interested too.

so i cant believe that the day before i was going round asking people to come,
even so bad that i have to beg people to come too, otherwise we will make a lose and not enough $ to cover up for the food we order, etc.

but i realise that it was such a stupid and silly step to do, esp going to the XXX club there!
there are just too much pressure for me to do this,
i was really stressed up during that period of time,
i have a X pressure for me to do this, and not do that,
and even wan to choose who to come, where we are still lack of people coming lol!

so during that period of planning time & before the event,
there are times that im really so stressed and pressurized that i just burst to tears alone at home, and as the day nearing, im feeling more worried and even dont feel excited and wanting to quite and give up alr.
u won understand how much pressure i have unless u r in my position as im really helpless.

however, the event has already over and to general people who attend, they are happy and satisfy with the event.
as there wasnt any big thing happen during the event, everything goes smoothly and fun.
but its only when u are observant enough, u will know that there are alot of small details that i miss out and can be improved.

a special debrief discussion with my club president, i felt so disappointed at myself.
cos alot of the mistake my OC will make is all relie on me,
although i manage to cover up all the things that some of my OC/helpers suppose to do, during the event, but 1 person's ability is still not as good as like 5people, so there are still alot of things i miss out.
being the event chair,
i know its my own fault that i didnt emphasize and assign each and everyone of them, their jobs clearly on that day again,
so some people were busy doing this, thus forget to their own part, while some got nothing to do while finish their part.
but maybe is the trust and bonding we lack among my OC team,
i cant just leave a thing totally to them to settle, so eventually almost everything is done by me, i could really say. they are just doing what i have told them, that's all.
but another big factor we lack of is also the helpers,
the OC are also the helpers, so we also lack of manpower on the day too.

however, there are still some of the people that i really must thank for the success of this event, as without them, the event can never happen too.

Arthur (club-president): never give me any pressure during the planning and the whole event, will always accompany me whenever i need to go see the officer, help me sign the forms, even with very last mins too. has been really really supportive of me for the event.

Vick: accompany me to see the officer alot of times too, although he is also very busy and has his own stuffs to settle and stressed abt the coming concert planning too. never fail to give me the support and HUG too!

Peiyun: for being my performance IC for the event. im like totally leave the whole planning on their performance to her to settle, so everything is well settle by her that i do not need to worry abt the performance part. (:

and of cos my dear friends: (grace, sam, joel): for being my OCs too, help to give suggestions at times, and being my performer for the performance slot for the events too!

and grace also help in collecting $ for ADD, but dono if she is too gd or being to fierce, that if she ask $ from a person, the person sure will give it to her one. hahahx

same thing goes to sam, although she don really have a title or position to hold, but she is always there when i need help too! (:

lastly, joel, for being self high and helping to bring up the atmosphere during the event itself too.

Sin Ee: my food IC, and the most efficient OC in the team, never fail to do her part in the planning and always will finish her task in advance.

Angela: Decoration incharge. although she may not seems to have alot of things to do during the planning and its only till nearing the event that i get to see some of the decoration things, but she never disappoint me,
is creative and gd at designing.

and also a very last min of help from her and Sin Ee to be at the counter and prepare alot of things for me before the event start, but they did it well still.

Benjamin+wayne: my game ICs. although there is once that they make so angry during the planning stage cos they were unable to just do a simple thing that i ask them to do, and took them super long and if i didnt remind them abt the meeting e next day, they will still not do and tell me that they lose the paper too.
so lucky i did prepare and save some backup plans on my side.
but in the later part, after knowing how serious this matter is and i show my slight fierce side, they didnt continue to give me nonsense excuse alr.
and ben is gd and listen to what i told him to do too.

kevin: very last min on the day itself,
to help me with the logistic stuffs too, and help me to take charge of the slides show and music of the day.

chee ming: also a very min helper to be my game IC on the event as both of my officially game ic have lesson on the day till very late in the evening, so was unable to come in time,
so he help me in conducting the games too.

weiren: for asking his friends to come and the MC.

Yan Jun: for doing the interesting powerpoint slide shows.

Xiantao: for buying the masks, help to wrap the door gifts&prizes. (esp to the lollipop, take so much effort in making it look presentable as a door gift)

other then members from SPSE,
like Peilin and cynthia, from CMCC,
mervin, from CO,
peiyun's friends, for coming,
and a big thank to Khas!
when i ask him if he would like to come, without hesitation, he agree and turned up for the event despite the fact that he don no anyone from my club other then sam, peiyun, grace,vick i guess, but still very supportive of me!

and lastly, to ferguson!
for being my very last min helpers too.
be my guide for some of the e organizing stuffs and help me to solve alot of problems that i encounter very last min.
(im really sry, that i tried to paiseh u that day, or leave without a word, cos i really felt very helpless and broke down that just need time to be alone first, but thanks for helping me alot very last min too.)

overall, i learnt alot through this experience and i get to know who are really your true friends who will be there when u need help.

im sorry if i miss out anyone,
but all ur help is greatly appreciated! (:

THANK U ALL!

here are just some of the photos taken using my camera during the event.
there are lots others taken by our profession photographer crystal,
shall upload next time when i get it from her then.

(arthur & Camila singing)

(our guitarist! PEIYUN! even the teacher also praise her that she play very gd! hahax!)

(joel and peiyun)

(grace singing!)

(games time)

(my dear OCs)

(the alumni + guests)

(violin section)

(viola section)

(cello section)

(lastly, our 1 man bass section! with vick snatching to join in too! hahax)

(my dear DMATers+ cynthia)

(celebration after the event at our club)

(my dear BRO KHAS!)

its the fun, joy and love from many people that i received from here that keeps me going and participate in the club.
THANKS SPSE for for letting me to know so many nice and loving people! (:

Sunday, November 16, 2008

another week of sch has past and many things had happened.
i broke down almost 2 times in week and i missed sch for 3days! (turning to be a bad student now! ):
i broke down on sun nit when 1 of my classmate was talking to me on msn, telling me abt our performance stuffs. i was kind of hurt by wat X say and e tone, so i was really very discouraged thaty my tears just come down and cheek and i had to hide in e room to cry alone.
it really feel so horrible when people look down on u, question abt ur ability,
when on e other hand, u r willing to learn, but you don have e chance.
its just e reality! on the harsh world,
however, i won blame X for e doubt, cos i noe X's standard and wan to achieve e best for e grades.

but i believe that given the 1 month time, im able to play my part in keyboard well! although i have never play keyboard for performance at all lOlx!

Mon,
wake up in e morning, found myself to have a slight fever, so decided to rest some more at home, so went back to slp without e air-con or fan on and still covered myself in thick blanket. crazy LOX! i dono how i mange to survive but after waking up, my whole body was so hot still lolx!
anw, rest at home e whole day, means finally got e time to take out my violin to practice awhile, and i make myself play the scales on keyboard too! (although i only to play those major key, and some of e fingering still wrong, but im still so proud of myself that i actually practice that lol)hahax.
and hearing me not feeling well, my cousin volunteer to buy back dinner for me, since he is on e way home,
but im shocked to see my cousin's friend at my house door, to deliver my dinner for me! lolx!
he is afraid that i will be very hungry so asked this friend of his to bring back dinner for me first. lolx!
anw, i have soup spoon! for dinner. i had salad, soup, drink, a complete meal and even got brownie after that! hahax, although i think i shouldnt be eating brownie when its heaty but i only ate 1 small piece and its really nice! hahax!
not very sure who is e one who pay for my dinner, but thanks still (:

Tue
another long day as usual, actually feel so lazy to go for gems but thinking next week going to be e test alr so better go this week and thought i m going to be so late for class alr, but who noes that dehui is even later then me and this week become wei leong didnt come where last week is him didnt come. lolx.
when my lecturer take attendance that time, when she ask dehui isit last week didnt come, he answer yes, and next she call wei leong, dehui answer, ya, he is e another guy, but didnt come 2day, and my teacher look at me and say cos she rem always see me coming with 2 guys but not this 2 weeks, LOLX! then i answer "cos i have no choice!" hahax, not sure if she hear or not, but i said purposely to tease dehui only. hahax.

performance class is e same, finally decided our song for our performance and henry came out the chords of e song by hearing!
have little discussion but we still have to practice alot then other groups cos we are quite far behind alr.

MIDI is do assig time, but e chuck thing keep auto quite itself! till i so tired and give up doing alr. lolx.

BUMS class is cancel that day! so after MIDI, i asked peilin to teach me how to play the keyboard for my performance, so now atleast i somehow noe how to play and can start practicing too.
after that went to see ning to ask her abt the ADD proposal again.

after dinner, have ensemble practice and was asked to sit in e front of that PERSON! cos of camila la! but afterall, e practice that day was alrit! cos we manage to play the song! hahax,
provided that we sight read and its e first time playing the song lolx! (but partly cos e song is easy i feel too) hahahx, but really dono should say that person is gd or not gd lol, cos i thought he also only learn violin when he come to poly only?but some of e things he says do make sense, but of cos there are lots of times when he speak, everyone just feel so.... hahhax, and poor xueting have to said by him so many times to play louder cos she is e only solo cello that nit lol. we just keep look at each other to give support during the practice before kervin finally come and save her! hahax.
and its the first time that i play till my finger got bitser also! that shows that i really playing lol. hahax, jk.

(anw, thank U for e tag, really didnt expect U to give when e event is like going to be over and i didnt mange to help u in any way too other then giving moral support i guess?! but thanks still! HEEX! although im really just joking with u abt it, just use that to disturb u only, but that just make me SMILE that day too! (: )
Wed
wake up late again due to slping late e nit be4, doing and settling the stuffs for ADD, really worried that the proposal still not approve when e event is going to be held in next week lol.
but lucky MIDI class is doing our assig time, so i didnt rush to sch in cab, but i miss e bus for change train at outram, so took another bus all e way to sch, which stop at food heaven there, but e bus journey is super long can! i think i took abt 45 mins then finally reach lolx!
so by e time i reach sch, there is no point for me to walk all e way bk to e mountain where they will just end class and walked down to fc to eat lunch.
so i waited for grace and e rest at fc4 after they ended their class.

have 2 meetings that day, main com meeting first, followed by my ADD meeting,
after that is went to SAA to find ning again, but she was busy with sport' day and its only then after timing of revising, i decided to change and submit another new proposal, to change and lower our ticket price since we won get bk the extra $ collected from people and will just be taken by SAA, so its a very last min change,
and thanks alot to arthur to stay bk to wait and sign the proposal.

didnt get to see ning that day too, but we submit the new proposal thorough e mail box still,
and can only pray that it will be ok and approve quick.
after that have dinner with grace, sam, arthur and saw peiyun at fc4 too, cos she got jazz band practice and later ferz joined us too.

after that finally went home!
but after bathing, i was busy doing e ADD stuffs again, although still not sure if e budget will be approve or not, but i finally come out of a proper list for all e prize and everything, so its only the matter of time then.

Thur,
REMT was the same, but this week become we go to studio D to set up a PA system and while setting up, there is a short circuit happen that the whole electric power is cut! hahax! but lucky everyone is alrit.
and TIM R came to ask me if my ear was ok ornot, cos since e last week strong feedback. hahax.

after REMT, have music thoery.
i felt so tired and slpy the whole day, due to e lack of slp, even feel so heavy to open my eyes, and i can just fall alsp at any time lolx.
and it was bad during the start of music theory, i dono y i would ask her irrelevant qns when she is not talking abt that yet, but i didnt noe their link and its only she said e relationship and its like hitting e jackpot that i "wake up" and realise everything lol.
but dono y is her change of tone and me making her slightly impatience, my tears just start rolling in my eyes after all this,
i tried so hard to control, while tying to listen finish her explanation and finally got a break time that i really cant control alr that i went to toilet to dry my tears. LOL.

i donoy my tears just suddenly came out like this, but i guess its e stress over lots of things recently and some other hard times and lots of things for me to do and overcome, thaty its so easy and just nice she hit the jackpot that everything just came out like that.
but i feel its good to release out the stress too rather then keeping them inside and get worst,
so to (grace & sam & vick) really don have to worry abt me, im fine!
its not abt how hard the music theory, its my own mistake that i have to study harder and smarter way too! and its just all this thing that add up thaty i will burst in tears suddenly,
but i really don wish to let anyone of u all to see, didnt except sam to come to e toilet too,
but when i say im fine, i mean it, so thanks for ur concern! (:

and its nearing the ending of music theory that i received a call from ning saying e ADD proposal is approved! FINALLY! at last, and its even better to hear that its the new proposal!
i felt so relief and happy cos now finally i can get everything started and get the things going and not just still in e planing stage and hesitate to proceed or not.
but i hope that its still enough time to do everything by next week, cos still need to published and collect $ and get all e other things within 1 week's time.

after that got ensemble practice again, we played the same song on tue,
However, it was really bad this time, donoy, almost everyone,
and i keep reading e score wrongly, and miss e bar, as my eyes r really dry and tired.
struggle to nearly 10pm and it finally ended!

Fri
didnt go sch cos have cram and was so tired to get up and end up sam, grace, vick also didnt go lOLX! OHMINE! we never plan to skip tgt, but didnt except all of us also didnt go!
but after that i have a super horrible bad cram.
dirrohoea many times, vomit, where i didnt even eat anything lol, and the stomach so pain that i cant even sit or lie down properly. its so pain then e cram that i almost feel like dying alr lol.
eat panadol but still no use, tried to slp, but cant, really really bad!
feel so restless, my whole body keep swerving and cold sweat keep coming out that i do not even have the fan or air con on too.
i was so weak till unable to reply even a msg and its like phone keep ringing, and msg coming non-stop.
suddenly so many people is looking for me lolx!

(but p.s to peiyun, sry that i ps u to go to e briefing alone, really sorry!)

and finally its dono till when that e pain slowly go away and finally i get some slp, and finally manage to get off e bed at 7+pm! so its like been staying in the room and on e bed since e nit be4! lolx!
and must thanks to my dear bro & his gf! lucky they are at home to take care of me, keep help me take water etc and even went to buy food for me, otherwise i think i will just die at home without being even able to walk to e kitchen to take a cup of water too lOLx!

but after a long rest and struggling, im feeling much better alr! (:

im sry that i have ps those people that im suppose to meet on sat, again this week,
we shall meet up another time alrit! (:

i feel that we have drifted apart! :(
cos we are both busy at our own things,
u have miss so many parts in my life,
there are times that i feel like sharing& wish that u could be here to share e joy& sadness tgt with me, but it seems really hard now.
we do not even noe how to continue our conversation after saying Hi. lol :(

Sunday, November 9, 2008

went to attend Geoff church wedding this morning.
meet the rest at DB station before joel lead the way for us,
however, this is e first time we see all the 3 batches of DMATers, all waiting at DB to walk to the church tgt.
the church is nice, and of cos, Geoff and his wife, e lovely couple are very sweet and compatible!
his wife is so pretty! she is naturally pretty alr since e time we coincident met her some time back,
but she is like shining during the wedding! hahahx.

although im not an catholic, but i feels so comfortable in a church, and e whole ceremony reminds me of last time when i was in sec sch, having those praying and masks on certain occasions.

after e church ceremony, we had some refreshments and we even talk to Geoff wife awhile, cos grace just went to talk to her, hahahx,
she is a nice person and can tell that she is sure very capable at her work too!

after everything, we went to PS awhile,
but time seems to pass very slowly that all of us were very bored and nothing to do too,
so grace decided to come my house, (she decided like her house like that! hahahx)
so the 7 of them all came to my house after that.
we didnt do much thing, cos they are either falling alsp on e sofa or eating, that's all.
soon, everyone sitting on e sofa all fall alsp except for jeremy,
and e poor vick and hazal, who is sitting on e floor, eating, be4 that, can only sit on e floor to watch e movie.
however, i was making myself a salad cos i was hungry! hahahx.

however, soon, grace, sam, peiyun woke up,
and sam requested if go slp in my room or not, cos they are feeling very hot at e living room,
so they came to my room, on the air con, and this grace very comfortable just lie down on my bed! LOLX! when she was perspiring & haven bath LOLx!
and soon, she start to say its cold cos she not use to slping in air con, so took my blanket and wrap herself up too lOLx, lucky i ask her to wash her leg be4 that, lolx!
and even sam keep saying her, asking her to move to e side of e bed, cos she just tend to go to e middle and take e whole of my queen size bed lolx. hahahx.
she is in love with my bed! lolx! that forever the same one! hahahx!

soon, YQ& jeremy left, followed by grace, peiyun, vick and hazal,
and left only sam waiting at my house. hahax.
she is e lost child, waiting for people to come pick her up, thaty i have to keep her in safe first! hahax.
so nearly 7pm, she went off, my cousin went out too, so left me alone at home!
so poor thing! cos there isnt anyone that i can meet for dinner lolx! so sad! :(
hahah, but i was kind of lazy to go out of e house to buy food and slpy alr too!
soon, i fall alsp on e sofa too. hahhax.
its only till 1 of my friend called, wanted to meet me for dinner near my house or help me tao bao food, but i was too tired and slpy to go out in e end, so i rejected him. hahahx.

so ended up cooking instant noodle again, after waking up, cos there isnt any other thing to eat at home too, so its time to do stocking up the fridge soon.

(the beautiful church! )

(some of e 02 people)

(must thanks me for being e gd photographer! hahax)

(the "couple"! of e day! peiyun snap this for crystal! ;)

after attending the wedding, thought some of e things the Father said...
wat exactly is LOVE?
how do u defined LOVE?
and every marriage is just the start of learning to love!
learn to cherish each other, learn to forgive, and learn how to scarifies for one another.

when u say u like or love somebody, wat are the things that he/she attracts u to say so?
is it just infatuation or just e moment of attractions?
true love is about understand one another and not just superficial of "i love u", "u love me" lol.
actually i don even noe now, what is my heart telling me! lolx!
cos too many shocking and sudden people just appear and approach, that everything seems like a dream! that i feel that how come sudden e tao hua so gd! hahhax. jkjk xb

Thursday, November 6, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dear Michelle! (((:
congrats that u r now finally 18! (((:
thinking back, we have know each other for nearly 8yrs!
oMG, since pri 5 till now! hahax!
and we are still in best and good friends term! after so many yrs! (:
same class with her for pri 5 & 6, and again in sec 3 & 4.
although different class during sec 1 & 2, but i donoy whenever i see her in sch, i will be very happily to say HI to her and chat with her awhile.
although both of us are now studying in different sch and seldom meet, only once in a very long time, and sometimes its just a simple and quick meal,
don talk online everyday, don sms or call nowadays,
but once in a while, we definitely have a good and long chat,
although she may not know about my life now, my surrounding friends,
but we will just talked!
and whenever i need somebody, she will always be there for me!
we have overcome so much things tgt and she has been through alot of things with me too!
always by my side, just a call away. (:
its the friendship that no one or anything can be replaced,
its e love $ cant buy,
its the most precious thing in e world! that i treasured forever! ((:

she is 1 of e nicest gal i ever see,
everyone's beloved gal,
there isnt anyone who don like her!
and i have never see her angry at people for so many yrs,
she is just a super nice gal and like have super magnetic attraction that will just attract everyone to her! hahax.
if i were a guy, i will definitely fall for her! hahax
and its ystd that i found out that im 1 of her precious 4 beloved friends under her msn!
awww..i feel so honored ! hahahx

all i wan to say is,
MICHELLE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
love u always! <3>

u have bring too much joy for my life that i will never forget!
and i believe we will be friends forever! (: