another week of sch has past and many things had happened.
i broke down almost 2 times in week and i missed sch for 3days! (turning to be a bad student now! ):
i broke down on sun nit when 1 of my classmate was talking to me on msn, telling me abt our performance stuffs. i was kind of hurt by wat X say and e tone, so i was really very discouraged thaty my tears just come down and cheek and i had to hide in e room to cry alone.
it really feel so horrible when people look down on u, question abt ur ability,
when on e other hand, u r willing to learn, but you don have e chance.
its just e reality! on the harsh world,
however, i won blame X for e doubt, cos i noe X's standard and wan to achieve e best for e grades.

but i believe that given the 1 month time, im able to play my part in keyboard well! although i have never play keyboard for performance at all lOlx!

Mon,
wake up in e morning, found myself to have a slight fever, so decided to rest some more at home, so went back to slp without e air-con or fan on and still covered myself in thick blanket. crazy LOX! i dono how i mange to survive but after waking up, my whole body was so hot still lolx!
anw, rest at home e whole day, means finally got e time to take out my violin to practice awhile, and i make myself play the scales on keyboard too! (although i only to play those major key, and some of e fingering still wrong, but im still so proud of myself that i actually practice that lol)hahax.
and hearing me not feeling well, my cousin volunteer to buy back dinner for me, since he is on e way home,
but im shocked to see my cousin's friend at my house door, to deliver my dinner for me! lolx!
he is afraid that i will be very hungry so asked this friend of his to bring back dinner for me first. lolx!
anw, i have soup spoon! for dinner. i had salad, soup, drink, a complete meal and even got brownie after that! hahax, although i think i shouldnt be eating brownie when its heaty but i only ate 1 small piece and its really nice! hahax!
not very sure who is e one who pay for my dinner, but thanks still (:

Tue
another long day as usual, actually feel so lazy to go for gems but thinking next week going to be e test alr so better go this week and thought i m going to be so late for class alr, but who noes that dehui is even later then me and this week become wei leong didnt come where last week is him didnt come. lolx.
when my lecturer take attendance that time, when she ask dehui isit last week didnt come, he answer yes, and next she call wei leong, dehui answer, ya, he is e another guy, but didnt come 2day, and my teacher look at me and say cos she rem always see me coming with 2 guys but not this 2 weeks, LOLX! then i answer "cos i have no choice!" hahax, not sure if she hear or not, but i said purposely to tease dehui only. hahax.

performance class is e same, finally decided our song for our performance and henry came out the chords of e song by hearing!
have little discussion but we still have to practice alot then other groups cos we are quite far behind alr.

MIDI is do assig time, but e chuck thing keep auto quite itself! till i so tired and give up doing alr. lolx.

BUMS class is cancel that day! so after MIDI, i asked peilin to teach me how to play the keyboard for my performance, so now atleast i somehow noe how to play and can start practicing too.
after that went to see ning to ask her abt the ADD proposal again.

after dinner, have ensemble practice and was asked to sit in e front of that PERSON! cos of camila la! but afterall, e practice that day was alrit! cos we manage to play the song! hahax,
provided that we sight read and its e first time playing the song lolx! (but partly cos e song is easy i feel too) hahahx, but really dono should say that person is gd or not gd lol, cos i thought he also only learn violin when he come to poly only?but some of e things he says do make sense, but of cos there are lots of times when he speak, everyone just feel so.... hahhax, and poor xueting have to said by him so many times to play louder cos she is e only solo cello that nit lol. we just keep look at each other to give support during the practice before kervin finally come and save her! hahax.
and its the first time that i play till my finger got bitser also! that shows that i really playing lol. hahax, jk.

(anw, thank U for e tag, really didnt expect U to give when e event is like going to be over and i didnt mange to help u in any way too other then giving moral support i guess?! but thanks still! HEEX! although im really just joking with u abt it, just use that to disturb u only, but that just make me SMILE that day too! (: )
Wed
wake up late again due to slping late e nit be4, doing and settling the stuffs for ADD, really worried that the proposal still not approve when e event is going to be held in next week lol.
but lucky MIDI class is doing our assig time, so i didnt rush to sch in cab, but i miss e bus for change train at outram, so took another bus all e way to sch, which stop at food heaven there, but e bus journey is super long can! i think i took abt 45 mins then finally reach lolx!
so by e time i reach sch, there is no point for me to walk all e way bk to e mountain where they will just end class and walked down to fc to eat lunch.
so i waited for grace and e rest at fc4 after they ended their class.

have 2 meetings that day, main com meeting first, followed by my ADD meeting,
after that is went to SAA to find ning again, but she was busy with sport' day and its only then after timing of revising, i decided to change and submit another new proposal, to change and lower our ticket price since we won get bk the extra $ collected from people and will just be taken by SAA, so its a very last min change,
and thanks alot to arthur to stay bk to wait and sign the proposal.

didnt get to see ning that day too, but we submit the new proposal thorough e mail box still,
and can only pray that it will be ok and approve quick.
after that have dinner with grace, sam, arthur and saw peiyun at fc4 too, cos she got jazz band practice and later ferz joined us too.

after that finally went home!
but after bathing, i was busy doing e ADD stuffs again, although still not sure if e budget will be approve or not, but i finally come out of a proper list for all e prize and everything, so its only the matter of time then.

Thur,
REMT was the same, but this week become we go to studio D to set up a PA system and while setting up, there is a short circuit happen that the whole electric power is cut! hahax! but lucky everyone is alrit.
and TIM R came to ask me if my ear was ok ornot, cos since e last week strong feedback. hahax.

after REMT, have music thoery.
i felt so tired and slpy the whole day, due to e lack of slp, even feel so heavy to open my eyes, and i can just fall alsp at any time lolx.
and it was bad during the start of music theory, i dono y i would ask her irrelevant qns when she is not talking abt that yet, but i didnt noe their link and its only she said e relationship and its like hitting e jackpot that i "wake up" and realise everything lol.
but dono y is her change of tone and me making her slightly impatience, my tears just start rolling in my eyes after all this,
i tried so hard to control, while tying to listen finish her explanation and finally got a break time that i really cant control alr that i went to toilet to dry my tears. LOL.

i donoy my tears just suddenly came out like this, but i guess its e stress over lots of things recently and some other hard times and lots of things for me to do and overcome, thaty its so easy and just nice she hit the jackpot that everything just came out like that.
but i feel its good to release out the stress too rather then keeping them inside and get worst,
so to (grace & sam & vick) really don have to worry abt me, im fine!
its not abt how hard the music theory, its my own mistake that i have to study harder and smarter way too! and its just all this thing that add up thaty i will burst in tears suddenly,
but i really don wish to let anyone of u all to see, didnt except sam to come to e toilet too,
but when i say im fine, i mean it, so thanks for ur concern! (:

and its nearing the ending of music theory that i received a call from ning saying e ADD proposal is approved! FINALLY! at last, and its even better to hear that its the new proposal!
i felt so relief and happy cos now finally i can get everything started and get the things going and not just still in e planing stage and hesitate to proceed or not.
but i hope that its still enough time to do everything by next week, cos still need to published and collect $ and get all e other things within 1 week's time.

after that got ensemble practice again, we played the same song on tue,
However, it was really bad this time, donoy, almost everyone,
and i keep reading e score wrongly, and miss e bar, as my eyes r really dry and tired.
struggle to nearly 10pm and it finally ended!

Fri
didnt go sch cos have cram and was so tired to get up and end up sam, grace, vick also didnt go lOLX! OHMINE! we never plan to skip tgt, but didnt except all of us also didnt go!
but after that i have a super horrible bad cram.
dirrohoea many times, vomit, where i didnt even eat anything lol, and the stomach so pain that i cant even sit or lie down properly. its so pain then e cram that i almost feel like dying alr lol.
eat panadol but still no use, tried to slp, but cant, really really bad!
feel so restless, my whole body keep swerving and cold sweat keep coming out that i do not even have the fan or air con on too.
i was so weak till unable to reply even a msg and its like phone keep ringing, and msg coming non-stop.
suddenly so many people is looking for me lolx!

(but p.s to peiyun, sry that i ps u to go to e briefing alone, really sorry!)

and finally its dono till when that e pain slowly go away and finally i get some slp, and finally manage to get off e bed at 7+pm! so its like been staying in the room and on e bed since e nit be4! lolx!
and must thanks to my dear bro & his gf! lucky they are at home to take care of me, keep help me take water etc and even went to buy food for me, otherwise i think i will just die at home without being even able to walk to e kitchen to take a cup of water too lOLx!

but after a long rest and struggling, im feeling much better alr! (:


im sry that i have ps those people that im suppose to meet on sat, again this week,
we shall meet up another time alrit! (: