its only the first day back to taiwan and i already feel like going back to SG alr.
even before i come back to taiwan, already started quarreling(or should say i felt very annoyed) with mum with small little things,
on the TAXI to the airport,
reached the airport etc...
dont feel like mentioning here again.
but the worst day started in the morning.
awake by mum in the early morning,
asking me to give her my passport and a passport photo,
then i told her that its inside my bag,
then dono y she keep continue calling and soon turn into shouting non stop to ask me to take and give it to her.
i didnt even get to slp at all last nit with her,
so was super tired, i donoy she just cant go take herself since she knows where isit also.
so soon, everything turn into a quarreling,
and i was really piss and get up to take it for her.
but after that worst part started,
she just continued to scold me for no reason,
blah blahhhh...
that i really annoyed
so i said back while i walked back into the room very softly,
but maybe she heard or watsoever,
she came into the room and started scolding,
and it just turned into a shouting
and she really almost slapped me for talking back to her.
but i didnt even say anything or do anything wrong,
i only said that i wasnt that happy to come back to taiwan alone too! ):

so its really horrible,
she really almost wack me
but its just that she had to answer call and go downstairs,
i felt really bad and sad that my tears keep dropping on its own,
im really sad to a max,
super pissed,
and dislike being alone here,
with hp,
no connection,
NO FRIENDS,
NO COMPANY,
with NOT even my rooms ready to use,
no where to go,
i felt really lonely here and sad that i really feel very very sad,
for such a long time.
i miss U, miss the company, miss staying in the comfort SG. ):

i can only hide in my dad's blanket to try to stop crying and fall back to slp,
i really dont feel like waking up,
cos i will have to see, hear my mum's nagging non stop again
and its then i hear my house door bell,
my dad is back!
my dad came into the room and huged me,
and i really miss him,
miss him lots,
but i have to control my tears and emotions.
i had to get up,
i don feel like comapny my mum to go out,
or i really dont feel like answering her at all. ):
but there are times that when my dad ignore her,
although i dislike hearing her nagging and saying all the things too,
but i still have to atleast company her,
otherwise my family will just break any time as i experienced. ): (haix, family prob that is hard to explain)

and i still have to put on a smile when i go to the hospital,
seeing all the reatives,
can only stand there, doing nothing. ):
its just a such horrible day that i have yet i cant find anyone for the little company. ):
i really dono wat is going to happen and how am i going to survive in my stay here.

i miss my 8 ban lovely friends,
miss hanging out with them,
i miss u GSLT!
and i miss SN now ):