been through 1 of my toughest days this week, although only 2 people know wat happen and i seems fine everyday when i go school.
but im actually so tired and numb to all the tears and pain that i had suffered alr.
have not been sleeping well and enough since mon night, 5am is like the time that i fall asleep and it really break my record of taking CAB to school for the whole of this week alr! OHMAN! wasted so much $$ already.
it felts like break up when it actually didnt start yet,
perhaps the pain is worst then that.
losing a good friend i do treasure, losing everything that it used to be are pain and sad,
but what has happen/ been told are done,
there is nothing that can changed back although we 2 have our own fault at times.
but my heart felt so numb and empty already as things turn out to be so ugly now.
i think there isnt so easy and ways for me to become like last time,
its just hard.
i dono how to talk to u normally or face u like all these had never happen before again,
and later come to these problem and all the sufferings start again.
its hurting the both parties,
so i think time is the only solution and hope for things to be better soon.
although sometimes i really really wish that i can be those type of girl who simply saw this person and easily fall in LOVE and yet not think so much or those sec sch kids where their love is just so simple, (although most of it don count as love i feel too) but its still sweet and much easier then now.
but its hard for me to love now already.
however, i really wan to thank e lovely 2 people who knew about these, being there for me at times and just kept me company and away from all these sadness.
really appreciate it !
i LOVE U 2!
