i just realised that 2day is 13 june!
so its exactly a month to MY BIRTHDAY!
OMG! e feeling is like excited yet not really,
cos that means its my last month for BEING A TEEN! OMG!
time is passing so so fast man!
how i wish that it can stop now and im forever 19!
i don wan to turn to 20 so fast!
i want to enjoy the fun, carefree being a young teen still!
as time past, and grow older, means more responsibility and many more! ):
and i really hope and wish to have a party to celebrate my birthday this year, although its just 20, but i dono where will i be next year, so i really want a celebration.
but seeing our situation, it's e time where our assig are due and its on a monday! & parents not here in SG with me again ): , etc,
and there isnt any place that i can have function room or bbq pit that i can have a small mini gathering too, so most probably i can give up of this thought already too ):
and the hope of mostly every year's wish are already gone and don think it will happen makes me alittle disappointed in seeing my birthday coming too.
every year there is disappointment,
not cos i asked for any big present, but without being requested for anything, also disappointed me already so i think i will never get what i want for my birthday present too! ):
so i think i will just treasure my precious time now for being a teen! hahahx
before i turn into an young adult!
and don bother buying make up stuffs for me cos i received a full set of it on my 18 bday, and up till now, i didnt even use them. hahax, even when i attend specially occasion too, so it will be a waste on me for things like that.
and i really hope that our POD due and presentation will be after 3 aug,
so that i can fly to INDON to attend my cousin's wedding! cos he belong to 1 of my closer one!& i really want to attend together with e rest.
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1st week of school holiday finish alr.
time past even faster when u are busy too.
cos everyday is like going bk to sch too ):
there were actually alot of things that i wanted to blog about, lots of feelings that i need to find a place to release out, really. but i am kind of stuck here when i begin to post.
school assig & e work load is so heavy that i almost cant breath.
suppose to finish recording my 3 recorded instruments for arranging this week, but lots of unsuccessfulness, but next week slots are totally full too,
so i now only can wait to the last week to re-record everything again! ):
and i haven even start on POD too! everything is going hair wire, out of my plan and i really hate myself for choosing such a difficult song for cover song too! ):
no matter how strong a person,
there will be a time for her to break down.
the look of strong is just a cover,
i wish i have that somebody there for me too.
e need of comfort and company that i need at times is enough already.
people are selfish during typically times too!
its e reality even they were ur good friends.
how i wish im more talented and good,
that i can do things myself instead of asking people for help.
although everything is really hard,
but its just e process,
i believe i will be strong and able to pull through till i graduate.
cos i won leave regret & let both myself and parents down too!
lastly, im glad that i still have some lovely friends,
that can let me forget everything about sch work, all e unhappiness too.
i think they were e ones that i treasure more now
cos they dont friend u cos u have benefit to them or not, but purely friendship.
thank u my dear tanu, michelle & of cos my dearest dy for making smile after talking to u all.
thank u for ur jiayou! only just saw it on my ipod.
although i donoy
&sad that y we cant still atlest be friend now
when we cant be lover.
so i think i won disturb u anymore from now already
best wish to u then!
